More of a question to hosts this time, wow.

So, vocality. One of those major stages when creating a tulpa and one many seem to consider as being one of the more important ones - and don't get me wrong, actually being able to communicate with that other person in your head makes things a lot easier.

But how was it for you? Especially early on in tulpa communities, mind voice wasn't really a thing and the first speech you were supposed to get was a hallucination, a real voice out of nowhere wow thing. Not really the way it ended up being for many of us, so I felt like this could be an interesting thing for the new folks to read to see how it actually went.


For me, definitely not the kind of a wow experience I was led to believe, though luckily at this point we did understand that mind voice was a thing. The tupper had pretty much been mute for a long time, I was already willing to believe that he probably was sapient and all that, and we had some simple non-verbal communication stuff going on. It took us a while to get to a point where I actually had a conversation with him and it wasn't like we did anything special really. A lot about vocality and actually hearing the tulpa might be about you having to convince yourself that it will happen first and foremost, but I digress.

It was a very basic conversation and I can't even really remember the exact words, so no first words coming from me here. Stuff like "can you speak" and "is it you" and "is it really you" because really? He seemed very similar to myself and I wasn't all that convinced. Definitely not an amazing experience. I had done the same before really with those other forms of communicating, not all that convinced and accepting that it could have easily been me, but that it could have been him as well so I never outright ignored anything. With his speech, I gave him the same treatment, questioned it but never ignored. I listened and talked until I felt like I had enough proof that yeah, guess it wasn't all just me in the end. That it actually was different, even if just slightly.

And good that I did, I guess. Doubt I would be where I am now if I had ignored all of it right away, but being careful about it was good too. I feel like had I accepted it right away, I might have started questioning it later like many people do and have nothing to fall back on then.

vocality came pretty quick for yucky and almost instantly for sen and it doesn't mean shit, you can imagine any character talking and it's whatever. yuki was like 3 or 4 weeks into the process when she started speaking and it was mostly trope-y anime shit which I cringed about but I was way too excited to cringe so I was happy about it. in the first week of forcing I had this crazy audio hallucination that said "hi my name" which is only matched by the sickest hypnopompic hallucinations, but I digress............. tupper talking doesn't mean too much, I think, especially when they start talking early like what happened to me. it still took about half a year for yuki to feel very believable to me, and a bit less for sen. it's a gradual process where they become more of a person than before, not something where whoa le tupper is talking this is the point where it is real. I still don't know whether I'm in the tuppers are sentient epic camp or the imagination fede camp but in any case I can blissfully sleep as they possess so it's all good