Yada yada you want her to win and so she does also I'm a faggot who deletes all his posts
Seems to be the most reasonable explanation.
I'm not much of an over-zealously competitive person who has to win at all costs.
So we played Connect Four for a double-length forcing session, something I'm not particularly keen on as sitting still for an hour is not really what I would call comfortable. As an incentive for me to win.
Well, all I can say is I lost after 6 moves, faster than ever before.
We did a re-match just for fun which I indeed managed to win, but I have the feeling it was only due to Alice's deliberate choice of an unfavorable starting position. Basically I only won because she acted as recklessly as I did when I lost at 3x3 tic-tac-toe.
We did a 3rd round for some boring chores I had been avoiding for a while now - which I lost again. Have to do it tomorrow. Whee...
Now I need to find more unpleasant stuff I really don't want to do and see if that incentive to win has any influence on my gameplay. Will report back in a few days.