Hi there. I'm arightbyroy, or abr. I've tried making a tulpa few years ago but failed due to laziness, personal life, and school, but I've decided to try again. I figured this could be my safe haven for jotting down my journey.
Originally, I named my tulpa Geno, but I'm not sure about it. I just gave him the name because I didn't want to say "oh hey, you... thing? Tulpa?" But it's his choice to keep that name or rename himself. I gave him a big brother-like personality, because my own brother wasn't around much when I was growing up.
I worked on a lot with my wonderland, which is a huge ice rink based off of a real one. I used to manage a hockey team and I felt like it was my home. I put some bean bags in there for Geno and me to sit on.
Not a lot happened over the course of few days since the start of my journey. I started visualizing, and I originally thought of him as a brown-eyed individual. But for a second, they flickered to a pale blue color. I don't know if it was me that did that or his way of telling me that he wants it. (Oddly, it was the same color as my boyfriend's eye color.)
During forcing, I noticed some pressure in my head. Not really a sharp pain, but kind of dull pain with the feeling of something pressing the spot down. I asked him if that was him, but I didn't really get a clear answer. After that event, I felt the pressure couple times even when I wasn't forcing.
I forced for a few minutes today, but couldn't get a reaction from Geno. I thought it was because I couldn't focus well. I'm going to try again.
