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abr's diary
« on: December 07, 2013, 12:50:17 PM »
Hi there. I'm arightbyroy, or abr. I've tried making a tulpa few years ago but failed due to laziness, personal life, and school, but I've decided to try again. I figured this could be my safe haven for jotting down my journey.

Originally, I named my tulpa Geno, but I'm not sure about it. I just gave him the name because I didn't want to say "oh hey, you... thing? Tulpa?" But it's his choice to keep that name or rename himself. I gave him a big brother-like personality, because my own brother wasn't around much when I was growing up.

I worked on a lot with my wonderland, which is a huge ice rink based off of a real one. I used to manage a hockey team and I felt like it was my home. I put some bean bags in there for Geno and me to sit on.

Not a lot happened over the course of few days since the start of my journey. I started visualizing, and I originally thought of him as a brown-eyed individual. But for a second, they flickered to a pale blue color. I don't know if it was me that did that or his way of telling me that he wants it. (Oddly, it was the same color as my boyfriend's eye color.)

During forcing, I noticed some pressure in my head. Not really a sharp pain, but kind of dull pain with the feeling of something pressing the spot down. I asked him if that was him, but I didn't really get a clear answer. After that event, I felt the pressure couple times even when I wasn't forcing.
I forced for a few minutes today, but couldn't get a reaction from Geno. I thought it was because I couldn't focus well. I'm going to try again.


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« Reply #1 on: December 15, 2013, 07:41:23 PM »
Sup, Roy. I'm just going to call you that.

Can you guess what I'm about to tell you? More often than not, I've encounted people unaware of the wonders of certain things they've had yet to discover or try.

Hah, it feels kind of weird being called Roy since it's a male name. But I'm fine with that.




Couple days ago, I came home really late from a basketball game and I was in a really bad mood. My school's basketball team lost and the other school's fans were rude to us cheerleaders (Some yatch tried to grab my bow. Not happening.). So I vented to my tulpa, and I saw someone different. Kinda passed out after that since I was really tired.

I said good morning to tulpa and he answered, in a rather quiet tone. He seemed to have rather introverted personality. It was kind of strange to see deviation of personality rather than physical body, but I really like it- he's a very good listener.

Hopefully he'll give me his name soon.


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« Reply #2 on: March 30, 2015, 04:15:20 AM »

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« Reply #3 on: March 30, 2015, 04:36:02 AM »

Are these spambots? Cause they're terrible.

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« Reply #4 on: March 30, 2015, 08:00:09 AM »
Yeah this one is awful, being so mean to people. I don't think I even understand how these guys get in or what they're trying to do, you'd almost need a human to be able to register in the first place and they don't post links...

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« Reply #5 on: March 30, 2015, 11:11:16 AM »
Good to have you here, Abr. Roy? Abr.

There are plenty of resources available for you to check out here while you update your progress, so take a look if you feel like trying something new or getting a new perspective. Can't wait to hear how your tupperware progresses.
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« Reply #6 on: March 31, 2015, 06:10:36 PM »
Maybe I'll just talk to the spambot then.
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