Author Topic: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log  (Read 23773 times)

Daecher

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #30 on: October 14, 2014, 01:50:08 AM »
You know, most of my updates have been either about something I'm unhappy about- even if I've been making progress- but lately, I've been pretty satisfied with how things are going. I'm getting by in my daily life (most of what I do is schoolwork, anyway), and Luna and Haya are pretty happy with how things have been coming along.

It's been forever since I've legitimately thought about advancing towards sensory hallucination, now that I think of it. Recently I've focused more towards improving simpler techniques and making them a part of my daily life. I wouldn't say I've lost the motivation to move on to more difficult things, just that I'm back where I was when I first came here, with a little more experience and a lot more confidence.

...

Well, shit. Now what?
"Insane" is a just a word. There are no words for this.

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #31 on: October 14, 2014, 07:31:10 AM »
Play more blocks with tuppers.

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #33 on: November 16, 2014, 12:12:42 AM »
Not sure how to describe progress lately. I've been working towards feeling Luna and Haya (actual touch) as well as seeing them. I haven't consulted any guides in nearly a month, and my mindset is "I'll figure it out if I think hard enough." So far, it's been working, I'd say. Both of them have commented on how I'm more aware of their bodily presence at random times, and they even had the idea of changing clothes to fit the colder season to see if I'd notice (I noticed it that evening after classes).
At this point, I'm just throwing thoughts against a wall and seeing what sticks. I'll probably update again in another month or so- I'm just on some kind of roll and I want to stick to it until I break something.
"Insane" is a just a word. There are no words for this.

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #34 on: November 16, 2014, 01:36:02 PM »
Welcome to the phase where you really won't be doing more than living your life with succubi.

Daecher

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #35 on: December 30, 2014, 03:10:06 PM »
Well, I'm adjusting little parts of my daily life to accommodate my "succubi," as Sands says it.

First, instead of jumping straight into gaming sessions like I normally do, I let Luna and Haya make decisions for me, if they aren't already playing during possession. Right now, they're only playing Minecraft (we're thinking of making a post in the Off-topic thread), but once I head back to university, I'll start introducing them to a wider range of games. They both share an interest in League of Legends and a couple shooters I have, but I'll need to work much harder towards switching before then; I'm making complete switching a goal to reach by the end of 2015.

Second, I've been making time for improving sensory imposition, particularly tactile imposition. Luna and Haya are consistently close, and their forms are detailed enough now that I can discern the feeling of their hair, their skin, and their clothes. They're surprisingly chill about me randomly asking to touch their face or run my fingers through their hair, and actually welcome it. I'm still having a hard time shaking off my intuition telling me that I'm not really feeling anything, though.

Finally, every once in a while, I'll spend some free time by having them sit in front of a blank, featureless wall and try to look at them instead of the wall. The best I've gotten so far is extremely transparent silhouettes that appear after about five solid minutes of not blinking. Interestingly enough, these silhouettes move just as I imagine Luna and Haya do, but the moment I try to move my eyes or blink, they're gone in an instant. I've seen these silhouettes rarely outside of practicing, but I'm happy that I can even see them at all.

Overall, a lot of progress has been made in the last month. I'm to the point where I can actually apply myself and find qualitative- though miniscule- results. What I'm working towards now is maintaining consistent practice techniques to progress further.
"Insane" is a just a word. There are no words for this.

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #36 on: December 30, 2014, 03:15:05 PM »
I say it how it is. You have been warned.

Did you ever try imposition in a dark room? Not so dark that you can't see anything but dark enough for everything to appear as a silhouette. Doing some imposition there and trying to see the silhouettes of your tuppers can be breddy spoopy.

Have the tuppers found a giant ocean yet and forced you to watch as they travel through it for countless in-game days? I guess these days the oceans are slightly less boring, but...

MegaBusta

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #37 on: December 30, 2014, 05:49:30 PM »
Your tulpas want to play MOBAS?  You better fix their tastes right quick.

Daecher

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #38 on: December 30, 2014, 09:46:47 PM »
That comes from my poor taste in games and lack of funds for others- it's no fault of their own.
"Insane" is a just a word. There are no words for this.

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #39 on: December 30, 2014, 11:34:41 PM »
wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #40 on: December 31, 2014, 08:02:09 AM »
No excuses.

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #41 on: January 19, 2015, 12:31:59 AM »
Sands- imposing in dark rooms is pretty spoopy. It helps, though.

Lately I've been adding finer details to Luna and Haya's forms: clothing details (seams, buttons, etc.), facial features, and so on. I think I'll resume working from the lowest detail to the highest, though (someone probably recommended this at some point). Visualizing them generally feels like lots of little pictures rather than one, whole picture, but I'd say I've made progress. That, and there are times where they lean on me while I work at my desk/computer. I just get this feeling, man. For a second, it feels good, feels strange, and the instant I notice it, it's gone.

I'm thoroughly convinced that things are going well. Guess I should use Belief Implanting/Eye-bo more and just lose my mind altogether.

"Insane" is a just a word. There are no words for this.

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« Reply #42 on: January 19, 2015, 02:29:27 AM »
No loss of mind. Enhancement thereof, more like.

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #43 on: January 19, 2015, 08:10:33 AM »
Have you ever tried touching a tupper's foot yet? It's pretty cool, there's so many wrinkles.

MegaBusta

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #44 on: January 20, 2015, 09:23:53 AM »
Ew.