Author Topic: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log  (Read 38492 times)

MegaBusta

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #30 on: December 30, 2014, 11:34:41 PM »
wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #31 on: December 31, 2014, 08:02:09 AM »
No excuses.

Daecher

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #32 on: January 19, 2015, 12:31:59 AM »
Sands- imposing in dark rooms is pretty spoopy. It helps, though.

Lately I've been adding finer details to Luna and Haya's forms: clothing details (seams, buttons, etc.), facial features, and so on. I think I'll resume working from the lowest detail to the highest, though (someone probably recommended this at some point). Visualizing them generally feels like lots of little pictures rather than one, whole picture, but I'd say I've made progress. That, and there are times where they lean on me while I work at my desk/computer. I just get this feeling, man. For a second, it feels good, feels strange, and the instant I notice it, it's gone.

I'm thoroughly convinced that things are going well. Guess I should use Belief Implanting/Eye-bo more and just lose my mind altogether.

"Insane" is a just a word. There are no words for this.

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #33 on: January 19, 2015, 08:10:33 AM »
Have you ever tried touching a tupper's foot yet? It's pretty cool, there's so many wrinkles.

MegaBusta

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« Reply #34 on: January 20, 2015, 09:23:53 AM »
Ew.

Daecher

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« Reply #35 on: February 19, 2015, 10:43:13 AM »
It's been a month since I last updated- things have happened, and things haven't happened.

- Since the start of the month, I've been able to get more sleep every day, and have heard/felt Luna and Haya within a minute of waking nearly every day for the last two, maybe three weeks.

- Even while I'm in class or distracted in even the most heated conversation, I'm able to "feel" where they are without much effort at all (if any).

- I've picked up a few new games (a couple puzzle games and an RPG) in addition to Blocks and Boring Oceans for them to play while we work on switching.

- I haven't had to work on visualization lately, as it has become natural to visualize them during any time of the day, to the point where I visualize their different poses, expressions, etc. during my free time without thinking

- While I still try to shake off feelings of doubt when I work on tactile imposition with them (massages, inspecting feet under Sands' guidance, etc.), Luna and Haya have no problems with hanging on me, leaning on me, and have even tried pushing and pulling on me at times. I don't doubt those sensations, they certainly feel real now.

- While volume changes are minimal at best, hearing Luna and Haya speak is becoming a wonderful and enjoyable experience. Even their occasional quips and sarcastic remarks when I'm distracted are nice (at first).


At this point, it just isn't work or experimentation anymore- it's comforting to have them around all the time (when they aren't shit-talking me in the bathroom- I'm looking at you, Sands); "Just Do It" might as well be painted on my wall and tattooed on the underside of my eyelids.

Also, Luna's "birthday" is in 23 days, I believe. It's hard to imagine that it's been a year already...
"Insane" is a just a word. There are no words for this.

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #36 on: February 19, 2015, 10:53:45 AM »
Uguu.

Just Do It is the best method. Get some chocolate cake.

Daecher

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #37 on: March 14, 2015, 10:07:17 PM »
Hmm, not really sure what to say this time around. Luna's birthday is in three days, so there's that. Been working on tactile imposition (focusing on it until I fall asleep at bedtime is interesting). As always, I've been anti-social in regards to forum participation, chats, and the like, but I'm happy with how things are. I find these two incorporated in my daily life more and more, from dull, boring tasks to even the most rigorous study session. We don't talk as much as I'd expected we would way back when I'd hoped I would reach this point, but that's what makes it feel real, I guess- it seems strange to talk for hours and hours on end when there isn't much to talk about. There are often times where I'll just sit quietly with them without any of us saying anything, or I think I feel a hand against mine during the walk across campus in-between classes, and those are the times I feel accomplished. I've got friends, yeah (loud ones, at that), but the company isn't quite the same.
"Insane" is a just a word. There are no words for this.

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #38 on: March 15, 2015, 09:04:48 AM »
Will you bake that cake.

Daecher

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« Reply #39 on: March 21, 2015, 12:29:05 PM »
For Luna's birthday, we tested switching for a good portion of the day. More importantly, she had the opportunity to talk to another person in real-life, a friend of mine who's taken interest in tulpas in the past few months. He and I have talked about them now and again, and he was more than happy to meet her. Gotta say, it felt really strange to sit back and watch the afternoon/evening unfold, but I also felt a sense of pride in how she handled things. She ended up in a large group of our friends (only two of which knew what was up), but played it cool and had a great time.

Overall, 10/10 would switch in public again. I don't really concern myself with taking back control by accident at this point, and I'm confident that, with a little more practice, Haya will be able to Just Do It as well as Luna.

And no, there wasn't any cake- didn't have a ride to the market and I'm too fucking lazy to walk.
"Insane" is a just a word. There are no words for this.

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #40 on: March 22, 2015, 08:15:50 AM »
Go get some cake you lazy piece of shit.

Daecher

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #41 on: March 22, 2015, 11:08:43 AM »
Time to switch forever and let tuppers eat all the cake.
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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #42 on: March 23, 2015, 08:04:53 AM »
Yes, do it. One day you will wake up and be very fat.

MegaBusta

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« Reply #43 on: March 23, 2015, 02:12:52 PM »
It's not worth it!

Daecher

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #44 on: March 24, 2015, 01:39:08 PM »
>implying I'm not already fat
>implying I have money to buy enough cake to become fat
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