Author Topic: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log  (Read 154273 times)

Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #75 on: July 30, 2015, 08:10:48 AM »
Well, stuff happens in life and you can't expect to hang around with friend 24/7. Even if they live in your head.

But I think it's good practice for you and the tuppers too. Seems like you have realized and understood stuff, like how you don't have to always be the one starting a conversation and how they don't really need attention all the time to stay around. It looks like you're on a good track to become the TULPA GURU.

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #76 on: August 02, 2015, 02:01:00 AM »
Seems so. In any case, I'm hoping that we can find other activities to use as switching practice aside from video games. Took to using colored wristbands to signify who's who for a friend of mine interested in tulpas. They've talked with him a couple times in the past and he started on one of his own a while back. Once he's back on campus during the summer, I might use him to test ideas for a "hearing your tulpa" guide I'd like to make.
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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #77 on: February 05, 2017, 03:17:43 AM »
I'm not dead. Tuppers are still around. Literally dropped everything related to tuppers early 2016 as life decided to shit itself, slowly working towards old goals (like actually perceiving touch, for example). Making time for tuppers takes fucking effort with full-time college, work, and shitty personal relationships, much more than I can handle most of the time. In the last few months I've been working to change that.

Maybe one day I'll post on this regularly. Starting a new thread would be nice, but is likely frowned upon.

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #78 on: February 05, 2017, 05:34:32 AM »
Eh, do whatever works for you, really. As long as you stick with it this time?!

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« Reply #79 on: February 05, 2017, 11:38:07 PM »
I intend to. I'm just going to set concrete, achievable goals for us, and move on once we're satisfied (as opposed to trying to do everything at once, failing, and then me inevitably moving on to something else). I've nearly got my bachelor's degree, and I've got a (relatively) stable spot doing research at my university to not have to worry about getting a secondary job or anything else time-consuming. I figure that remaining time can be well-spent learning about myself and my tulpas.
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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #80 on: February 08, 2017, 12:08:22 AM »
First thing I'm going for right now is imposing touch. I'm pretty terrible at remembering what things look like, but I can recall texture and feel pretty well. Sitting for 30-60 minutes each evening, and again in the night (I sleep in two intervals), starting off with hands. They touch my hands, then we switch after an undefined period of time, back and forth. So far, it's just running the tips of fingers on the others' palms, but I'll see how it goes. All I'm really going for is the sensation of light touching, like gently rubbing your fingers on rice paper without breaking it. I would assume that they would be able to make firmer touches than me (seeing as I'm tangible), but I honestly have no idea how well or how long this will go on. Still, it's a nice way to relax and make conversation while I'm not working/in class, so I'll take what I can get.

I don't plan on posting every day, but little bits of progress or ideas during the week.
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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #81 on: February 08, 2017, 03:23:08 AM »
Are you going to touch the toes though.

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #82 on: February 08, 2017, 04:21:12 AM »
Eventually, yes. Touching toes is a rare experience, aside from one's own toes, so it will be interesting.
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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #83 on: February 09, 2017, 06:44:41 AM »
Soles feel pretty interesting.

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« Reply #84 on: February 22, 2017, 12:41:39 AM »
Welcome back, forum. I missed you.

I've kinda strayed from doing steady, rhythmic touching/rubbing stuff with tuppers, and more "let's-try-to-touch-this-part" stuff. Doing it with open-eye visualizing has helped a bit, I think. I try to do it evenly with both Luna and Haya, and the sensation I get with both is something akin to the feeling you get when you rub your hands together really quickly, albeit without the heat and very, very subtle. Light tingling. It's all very interesting and slightly awkward and relaxing at the same time. It's become something of an evening ritual now.

Valentine's Day was nice. It was cold and rainy (my favorite weather), so I took some time off work and went for a walk outside. There's a trail near my university that goes through some woods, which was nice for some personal time.

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #85 on: February 22, 2017, 05:42:00 AM »
Did you even go on a date with tuppers? I think you should. Full on imposition cafe adventure where you will curse when someone sits on the chair the tupper is sitting in.

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #86 on: February 23, 2017, 12:16:48 AM »
It was a date of sorts, I guess. While I keep track of my position relative to tuppers, I don't pay much attention to other people passing through them and such.

I wonder what a tupper cafe would look like. A normal cafe, except everyone's only talking to themselves, not each other, maybe?
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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #87 on: February 23, 2017, 07:10:14 AM »
Yet another normal day in tupperland, clearly.

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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #88 on: February 24, 2017, 12:40:27 AM »
Something of note- I've been working on my drawing skills (mostly with charcoal) and plan to make portraits of these two, once I can actually keep their portrait solid in my mind for more than five seconds. That's about how long I can absolutely focus and clearly visualize either of them, before losing focus. Which is still progress. slow progress.
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Re: Daecher (and friends)'s Growth Log
« Reply #89 on: February 24, 2017, 06:57:42 AM »
Then you should draw me too. With your tuppers. Everyone will be so confused.

ps do you have any training doodles to post us, maybe not exactly diary material but you could post them in off-topic somewhere