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Dutch:
It's been ages since I wrote a PR or kept notes, which is bad. Going to summarize my tulpaing so far in this post, and then I might update this if I don't forget and make progress in the future, yes. Here's my old PR on .info which hasn't been updated since February or something.

Let's start with where I am right now. I have two tulpas, Yuki and Sen. Yuki is extroverted enough to go out and talk to people a lot, Sen keeps to herself more and hangs out with me. Yuki is seven months old (Jan 7 2014) and Sen is three months old (May 19). My progress has always been rather fast, but I attribute that to spending nearly all my time with those girls. At this time, both can possess, and I'm working towards switching.

Alright, so in January I started on Yuki, she became vocal rather quickly, and we spent a shitton of time together. For some reason, my process always stagnates for a while until I take drugs. Shrooms taught her full body possession and got me closer to dissociation than ever another time. Ecstacy gave my auditory hallucinations. Weed gives me better taste imposition and immersion. I don't do any of those regularly anymore, anyway, but for some reason, they always helped me progress and focus. But drugs are bad, yes, don't do them.

Life with Yuki was fun. At some point in May, I did ~meta~ experiments where I tried to reach out to another guy's tulpa. Results were inconclusive, but I noticed that it was fun to have another person around, even if it was for pretendsies. I started on Sen soon after. Her progress has been kind of like an accelerated version of Yuki's,  and they're pretty much at the same level now, even though Yuki is the only one who bothers with the computer.

Yuki spends all fucking day chatting to her online friends if she can help it, so I want to give her the freedom to do that in private when she wants to, and to also not be bored out of my mind while she does that. So my next goal is switching. My wonderland immersion and visualizing are reasonable, but I have trouble focusing, as well as letting go of the body. I snap back to attention at the littlest movement or outside sensation. It's annoying. I guess that stuff comes with time. Advice on this, or any thoughts about switching are welcome, yes.

I also have minor doubt issues I should keep working on. Nothing too bad, but I sometimes lose focus during forcing because of doubty trains of thought. Lately my girls have been surprising me a lot, a good example being them building wonderland stuff without me, and their emotions and thoughts have been rather detached from mine. That has been helping with the doubts.

That's everything I can think of right now. I'll be spending my time trying to immerse myself in the wonderland more, hanging out with the girls and all working on our respective hobbies and do our thing while going to school and working a bit. Please like and subscribe. :~)

I'll let those other two update too when they feel like it but right now they don't seem interested in adding anything.

Dutch:
Two days, two entries. Mmmmmmm.

Tried forcing with Eye-Bo today. Ascending theta. In bed, sitting upright against pillows, got nice and comfy. The first couple of minutes I got rather distracted by the sound, but after a while I could focus enough to hang out and drink tea with the girls. Wonderland senses were vivid. I had a much wider focus on visuals. Instead of just seeing the object or tupper body part I was looking at, I could see the things around it too. Touch was stronger than before as well, and I could taste Yuki's special SliceOfLife™ jasmin blend tea pretty well. If anyone ever wants pretend tea parties, hit her up, she's the best.

Anyway, all in all Eye-Bo made it easier to stay focused and it didn't make me fall asleep like white and pink noise tend to do. Would use again. Had some pretty trippy moments too, where the flashes of light on my eyelids seemed to rotate and move around. Made me think of driving through a tunnel. I'll keep using it for a while during forcing, see what happens.

Dutch:
Forced today. Half hour sessions of Eye-Bo are relaxing and pretty easy to get through. Would recommend using the bathroom before starting, got pretty uncomfortable near the end. Wonderlanding has improved immensely lately, bringing me to such realizations as "w-whoa, this looks pretty realistic!!". Senses of touch and smell have improved similarly, and taste is still my best sense, as it has been for a while. Had wonderland lemon ice cream, it was good.

Not much else has happened that was very interesting. The girls are content and I'm mildly apathetic towards things. We might be getting on ADD medication soon, I wonder how that will affect our forcing and other activities.

Sands:
I wonder how many are truly helped by that kind of medicine or how many actually really, really need it. Some people with ADD seem to be able to control themselves and learn to focus by working on it and doing something like, I dunno, meditation and shit.

You should watch out and think hard if it's really necessary and something you need to live. Today's society tends to try to cure everything with pills and they claim everyone has some disorder or another (that they then try to cure with pills). This kind of shit can fuck you up pretty bad. It's something that can affect your personality, even. If the side effects end up being something that makes you feel like a zombie... Yeah, you should stop taking the drugs. Listen to your own body here.

Yogi:
We haven't started the use of pills just yet. We might still do that in the future, but as of now, our only drug is coffee. Using Fede's belief changing system has been helpful to our tulpa ways, and Dutch's immersion into the wonderland seems to be increasing by the day. He sometimes finds himself feeling like he shoots back into the body when he thinks of it during a forcing session, and feels like sometimes, he's "more there than here". Slow and steady progress, it seems.

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