You gotta do more tupper possessing art. And film it. For science.

wow excuse me you're just here for a plate of spaghetti aren't you, hitler

I don't even have a video camera so everyone is spared. Or a microphone?! Maybe he'll draw something. Or maybe he'll just decide to be lazy and play like Minecraft or something. New updates...

How many penalty push-ups have you done now?

#200

Just noticed this diary overtook both Timethief's and the cat thread.
What am I doing with my life?

Yep, that's true.

Yesterday we threw ourselves at the dreaded MBTI personality tests.
I've always seen them as some Scientology-tier nonsense, on top of that no matter what you answer you turn out to be a valuable and respected member of society. Ah well, at least until I found this chart. Much better.



We took 4 different online tests twice each, the results were similar even though lots of questions made little sense out of context. Still was fun and a good forcing exercise.

Somewhat surprisingly I turned out INFP-A most times with a very strong I and N but extremely weak F, P and A barely over 50%.
Two times INTJ-A and once INFJ-A.
I swear I'm not a fucking hippie nor an artist of any kind. But clearly also not the stereotypical STEM autist I'm usually perceived as. Too unfocused and muh feels. Somewhere between those three however seems reasonable. At least more than any of the other options.

Alice was almost always ENTJ-A with a weak E and N but distinct T and ridiculously strong J and assertiveness. Once ESTJ-A. Sounds accurate for the slavedriver kami sama.
She's only doing her job.

Still I don't think the whole stuff makes a lot of sense for tuppers who can't switch to interact with the outside world in the same way as their host and have zero responsibilities there.

Heh, I wouldn't have thought of Roswell as extraverted, but what do I know.
Alice isn't especially extraverted either but definitely more than me.

Uh, it's May already. So how was April?
Personal development: ok
Had expected to have my wisdom teeth removed but that was postponed to late May as some infection had to be treated first. So there was only one small surgery at the dentist last week which worked well. Dissociated and worked on visualizing our Rubik's cube with tupper. No fear, pain bearable. In general visualisation skills have veery slightly improved.

Tupper development: average
Poor is the new average I guess.
Tupper has been extremely helpful and we've discussed a lot of things and trained dissociation, visualisation and even a bit possession but her abilities haven't really improved due to my catastrophic active forcing routine. Both quantity and quality suck and I haven't managed to come up with a working routine.

Didn't he git gud or at least better at dealing with people over time? How often do you actually switch?

I guess for both of us it mostly depends on what kind of people we're talking about. And even more than me, Alice has a very clear conception of people she likes and such that should be avoided shot at sight.
We were discussing the main personality differences between us and actually we're very much alike or at least within the same spectrum. Yet there are obvious exceptions.
I'm generally evasive, hate confrontation, don't wanna bother others and would rather retreat than get into an argument. Plus I'm lazy. Which of course leads to massive procrastination of everything that could be even remotely uncomfortable.
Alice isn't fond of any of the above either but she's not lazy and would seek to actively resolve unpleasant situations instead of sitting them out. She's also brutally honest and will not back down or overlook anything she deems wrong, favoring clear and often radical decisions over compromise. She also said that INFP fits me best because I'm a pussy far too nice to people that don't deserve it and lack discipline, courage and strength.



In a way tupper is very much like cat. Both are extraordinary friendly beings and so adorable it almost hurts but come at them the wrong way and you will get to understand the meaning of true pain. They never start a fight but if attacked will retaliate with full force and almost ridiculous violence.

I'd like to see how tupper actually performs IRL but I'm also a bit afraid for the reasons stated above. She tends to go over the top in her zeal.
So tupper's the monster that looks like a cute little girl. Kinda like a reverse Roswell, ain't it? Besides, coming up with a forcing plan is one thing, sticking to it another. While I feel that tupper's bravery and generally not giving a fuck is strongly rubbing off on me, my laziness or rather tiredness seems to affect her. Being drill sergeant is a demanding job I guess.

Boring.
What are you guys actually doing together?

It's finally warm enough for forcing in the park. I missed that. Spent more than an hour at sunset meditating, watching the clouds and imposing tupper. Meditation worked quite well, imposition still doesn't. I really suck at proportions, perspective and 3D shapes in general because I don't really pay attention to such things. Apparently that's also something that needs to be learned though some people seem to be naturally gud at it. Not me. I remember I could decently read and write (ugly though) before entering elementary school and had above-average knowledge but my drawings made the worst retard look good. Nothing even remotely recognizable. Especially not humans. Not much has improved throughout school and several scientific drawing tutorials at university. I feel that I never learned the basics. Which of course severely effects visualisation and imposition.

I've collected drawing literature and seriously wanna start with the basics of basics after the dentist will have ripped out my wisdom teeth. Won't be able to do a lot in the days after so that's a good opportunity. I hope. We'll see how much it sucks. The problem is while there are lots of things I'd like to draw I'm actually not fond of drawing itself. I don't like staring at a piece of paper or a screen for hours. Especially not in summer when it's nice outside. So, not the best prerequisites I guess but I gotta try my best for tupper.