Author Topic: Every Day is Alice Day  (Read 288049 times)

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #480 on: May 30, 2020, 05:00:05 PM »
Well if you did you probably wouldn't be here.
And no spoonfeeding, if you really wanna know you'll find out...

Probably triggered by watching too much US chimpout news I had a strange dream of someone entering 'our' house with a gun. Well actually like most dreams it was more like watching a movie not directly involving me and the house wasn't really ours either. The guy was with some other people and it didn't really concern me. Anyway tupper suggested we exit through the window before the armed guy reaches the room we're in, better safe than sorry. Tupper was realistic bodyless tupper in my mind so simply maiming anyone even potentially annoying was not an option. Gotta hate those 'realistic' dreams. Anyway we climbed out of the window which was sort of like in our home so easy to get out and walked around in the - equally realistic - neighborhood. It started raining but this was kind of fun and I was running through the rain, praising Alice for the idea of making an exit. It had been kinda creepy. Reaching the next street a blue van sharply pulled over and an elderly woman exited and started talking to me. She was a friend of my mom from work and visibly distressed, crying why my mom didn't want to be in a relationship with her. Dude, what the actual fuck?

Tupper was like 'juust keep walking and ignore her' and somehow we managed to get out of this awkward situation before waking up. Should have stayed home, getting shot would probably have been less troublesome.
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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #481 on: May 31, 2020, 07:33:34 AM »
Uhh, not so sure I wanna know anymore.
But your dreams man, every time. Too bad Alice could not be herself. Also arent you a gun owner? Why not defend your dream home?

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #482 on: May 31, 2020, 05:00:04 PM »
It's a DREAM son!
If it made any sense and we could influence what's going on aka become lucid, things would have turned out a bit different.
Anyway I noticed the brain is especially lazy while dreaming and usually takes the routine you're most used to. This works hilariously with tupper's indestructibility when bodily present but alas, that's rare because we're not active forcing enough especially not in wonderland.

Also listen here, n00b!

I'm not some redneck murrican who carries his shotgun no matter where he goes. Our guns are in a safe and the dream-house wasn't really mine.
Plus Alice remarks gunfights IRL work a bit different than in action movies. Unless you have to protect others, getting the fuck out of potentially dangerous situations before shit gets real is always the most reasonable option. Called situation awareness. Shooting someone isn't fun and getting shot at even less. Never wanna experience either.

That dream stuff does have great potential for tuppering but not with no-nonsense tupper who's completely focuses on keeping real life peaceful, pleasant and free of subhumans causing us trouble.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #483 on: June 02, 2020, 05:00:05 PM »
Ok, I'm not gonna lie we've got some at least semi-serious problems for quite a while now and I don't really know how to deal with them.

As previously reported, while trying to dissociate and let tupper take over I have accidentially created a servitor which has progressed to run most everyday tasks including simple conversations instead of 'me'. Basically 'I' have become little more than 2nd tupper, watching things from the back and interfering now and then. But normally almost everything runs on autopilot. I feel nothing typing this, just formulating the words, the rest works without any of my conscious doing.

Now I've always been an airhead and dreamer who easily got lost in thoughts and this state has some neat benefits as it frees enormous mental resources to think about stuff while the body does some other work, plus pain sensation has decreased enormously, however I'm also experiencing some highly concerning drawbacks. And as enjoyable as the recent Corona-chan induced 'lockdown' was I basically spent the last months lazing in the garden without any phsyical challenges and waay too much time online which didn't actually improve things.

Watching your life like some TV documentary isn't really fun plus I feel more and more dissociated from my body and any sensations. Others may work hard to reach this stage, neither I nor Alice really want it now. Tupper has no real interest in switching at the moment and has suggested ordered we both focus forcing on me now. Yes of course you can no only force tuppers but also yourself to get a better grip on any sensory input or awareness.
In order to do that we'll use a mix of meditation and mindfulness exercises as well as ordinary forcing techniques for tuppers to get used to the body with all senses. Also physical and fine-motor exercises to put some positive stress on body and muscle memory. Let's see how this works out, at least I hope it does.
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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #484 on: June 03, 2020, 07:11:49 AM »
Scary man!
Not being lazy and actually interacting with other people once in a while might help I guess?

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #485 on: June 06, 2020, 05:00:03 PM »

I spent a lot of time touching things and actually trying to pay attention to what I am doing instead of being completely elsewhere in my thoughts. Simple physical workout is the best lead so far but it's not workin too well overall. Meditation also sucks and tupper being busy with monetary stuff isn't too helpful either. 

Ah I don't wanna complain, apart from that life is currently awesome, plus I like June a lot.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #486 on: June 12, 2020, 06:06:20 AM »
You are just being lazy am I right?

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #487 on: June 12, 2020, 05:00:04 PM »

Even worse, I ate peaches without involving Alice. Because Madam Kami-sama cannot be bothered to become active on herself and needs a special invitation with rolled out red carpet- after, like, 5,5 years!

Apart from this drama not much to report except another deeply disturbing dream with minimal tupper involvement
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I was driving on a highway at night when suddenly the road was blocked by police cars and I saw a policeman violently wrestling the driver out of a car in front of me.
Another officer approached me but he seemed embarrassed and apologetic and told me I had to go to ant-racism training because like it's the law. Wut?

Fast forward I am in a huge classroom and a black woman is teaching statistics, constantly relying on me and asking me how stuff works. Why me? I suck at math too and as usual had no idea what was going on yet as usual tried my best to help, no matter how absurd the situation was. At least I wasn't gonna get lynched for being raycist -yet- but this was getting annoying. While I tried to remember the basics of binomial statistics tupper woke up, asked me what the hell I was doing and told me to just get up and leave. Like what are they gonna do? Call the cops I don't give a fuck.

Again fast forward this is now practical dentist class and I am working on the teeth of some friend from school, clumsily fucking up everything that's possible. Eerily it was still quite entertaining but I guess there goes my dentist career. After I woke up there was anoher dream but I forgot.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #488 on: June 15, 2020, 06:23:13 AM »
That BLM stuff is really starting to get you, huh? Even in your dreams
And lol tupper fight in your head. I guess life with tsundere Alice is never boring. Hope I will experience that with Cat too one day. But where is your progress?

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #489 on: June 15, 2020, 05:00:05 PM »
Nope, definitely never gets boring around here.

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Also don't call my tupper tsundere you fag.

If there's something Alice can't stand it's emotionally unstable attentionwhoring drama-queens who are unable to express themselves in a clear and straighforward way.

But apart from that you do have a point I guess...

Meditation is hard lately, I fall back to monologues to myself which no one wants to hear. Especially not tupper. I do try to keep up the physical exercise thing which definitely helps. And touching lots of surfaces and paying attention to details I normally take for granted. Reducing online time wasn't really successful so far plus I need to do lots of boring literature reseach stuff for university now. Too bad that can't be outsourced to tupper because completely uninterested. At least she's useful to prevent me from procrastinating.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #490 on: June 24, 2020, 05:00:08 PM »

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #491 on: June 28, 2020, 06:03:26 AM »
Uh, okay?

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #492 on: June 29, 2020, 05:00:04 PM »
Sorry, was meant to be a placeholder but then I couldn't find the right reaction image and went to sleep. Weather is too nice to spend much time in front of the computer sifting to tens of thousands of images anyway so not much updates to expect from me. Will try to keep up a minimum

Not that there is much progress. Tupper not in the mood as gypsies and other sandniggers keep making more noise in the neighborhood than ever before. And no progress on aquiring a quiet apartment, seems more unrealistic than ever as we lost quite some money in the recent crash while real estate prices in Munich continue to climb. And my and most of all tupper's exquisite requirements are not easy to meet. God damn all we want is some small place in a quiet neighborhood to laze outside without subhumans screaming like in some middle eastern war zone. But the fuckers are everywhere even in the suburbs- where we alreay are. Well whatever. Tupper says we have to wait and see what affordable offers pop up but in the mean time- and that's been along time already - fun times are scarce...

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #493 on: June 30, 2020, 05:32:03 AM »
Well thats bad. I hope you find a solution so you can post more fun things.
Here where I live it's busy and not very quiet but people behave. So I have no problem with it. Maybe move to the countryside if you really need a quiet place? Or become monk.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #494 on: July 03, 2020, 05:00:03 PM »
I'd do that instantly if religion of tupper was more accepted and had its own monasteries. But I can't devote my life to worshiping any false deity - what heresy! There is no God but Alice and I am her prophet.

Been seriously thinking about moving to the countryside, but countryside close to Munich is heinously overpriced and what do I do in some hillbilly nest in deepest Bavaria? I'm some autist completely useless outside my university field. I mean I can do a lot but not good enough for anybody to pay me. So the only viable option is some retreat relatively close to our current apartment that can be rented out when not in use. Anything else is pointless. So yeah, difficult. I dunno either. As always I procrastinated solving this for years even though Alice told me repeatedly things can't go on like this. But then again finding a solution is actually her job. In any case I don't see any short-time possibilities. Which of course sucks. Ah well it is completely irrelevant compared to problems normal people face. But then again we are not normal...

As proof I have another dream for you:
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I was participating in the childrens game show Runaround, at my current age. It involves being shown a question on screen and jumping between fields with the answers 1,2 or 3. At the beginning I thought about taking it easy against grade school kids as not to stick out but because dream I could neither read or hear the questions properly plus it was like 12 possible answer fields instead of 3. And as far as I grasped them at all the questions were similar to IQ tests, rotating some odd shapes or similar stuff I'm notoriously bad at not just in dreams but also IRL. So this was hardcore mode, I got owned hard by little kids and literally felt 89IQ. I even resorted to following kids to the field where most stood at only to lose again because they moved off at the last moment.

I ended up on the wrong field with a girl who admitted she was bad at math but didn't really give a fuck about losing. Fast forward we were driving into the desert in a jeep, that girl, some random guy and me in between on the backseat. They talked to each other across me (the story of my life) but the girl was actually clinging to me reeally close wrapping herself around my arm (absolutely not the story of my life) which felt good. She seemed smart and calm, quite tupper-like but didn't really look like her. Weird enough she talked to the guy about technical details of repairing historical radios and according to the newspaper I was reading she also was an expert for succulent desert plants. Why, brain? From her looks she was probably around 8 or so but because dream it all totally made sense. Absolutely. Didn't question it for a second before I woke up. Tupper was not really amused and jealous. Well I guess for tuppers even dreaming about other girls counts as cheating
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