Author Topic: Every Day is Alice Day  (Read 100389 times)

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #330 on: February 12, 2018, 07:00:02 PM »
Mon, Feb 12th
30min of dancing, couldn't really connect with tupper and was stumbling around a lot. Not my best day.
45min of meditation and forcing with earmuffs on while lying on couch with cat.
First part of meditation worked really well, then did some wonderland stuff with tupper. Fell asleep overhearing the alarm I had set. Somehow felt tired all day and not really productive. One more attempt now as I'm going to bed.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #331 on: February 13, 2018, 05:38:02 AM »
I am disappoint. Tupper needs to whip you up in shape harder, clearly you can't do that yourself.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #332 on: February 13, 2018, 07:00:02 PM »
If I could I probably would not have tupper in the first place. So she should be grateful for that. But tupper says she is and that whipping me is an act of appreciation. Wow, that backfired badly.

Tue, Feb 13th
Be even moar disappoint, I fell asleep without doing anything.
Had a weird semi-lucid dream about walking around in my house which was huge and contained lots of stairs and somehow my entire highschool. I managed to gain some control and looked at the wooden stairs which had fantastic detail of wood grain. I did realize I was dreaming and tried to summon tupper but it was hard and I immediately felt extremely tired drifting back and forth between wake and sleep states. So I could not keep her for more than a few seconds. Interestingly the dream stabilized as soon as I stopped. I went to the attic, opened a window and wanted to jump out - because falling / flying is one of the most awesome things in dreams. But somehow the house was not the usual 1 story building but more like 30. Really high. And I was not entirely sure it was really a dream so I decided not to push my luck and went back in. I hate these moments. Usually I reach the conclusion that this is way to detailed for a dream and must be real life but this time I was almost certain I was dreaming. Almost. But not enough to jump from a building. Still one of the closest things to a full lucid dream in about a year. At least I could choose what to do instead of my usual movie-like dreams leaving me as a passive observer but I couldn't control what was going on. It lastet quite long for a vivid dream.

Forcing was even worse than yesterday.
Couldn't concentrate at all. Going to sleep early, hope things will be better tomorrow. It's Valentine's Day and we're gonna bake a cake. Hopefully with lots of participation from Alice. And lots of forcing.
« Last Edit: October 01, 2018, 05:24:38 PM by Bernd »

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #333 on: February 14, 2018, 08:33:44 AM »
Tupper, next day's all you. Whip 'im up good. You have my blessings.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #334 on: February 14, 2018, 09:20:52 PM »
No need to encourage her, Sand.

Wed, Feb 14th, Valentine's day
We made a chocolate soufflé, despite questionable looks it tasted great. As the fucker contains 8 eggs I'm gonna be eating on that for while. Guess tupper will get me fat after all.

I was rushing a bit and possession wasn't great so Alice didn't get to do too much of the cooking.
Also did 45min of dancing, almost 1h of meditation and another 45min of active forcing in wonderland. Alice was more exhausted than me and we quit shortly before midnight. Tupper says consistency is more important than overdoing things on a single day. Isn't that romantic?
« Last Edit: October 01, 2018, 05:28:30 PM by Bernd »

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #335 on: February 15, 2018, 07:07:04 PM »
Thu, Feb 15th
30min dancing, pretty good
30min meditation, ok
Going to bed to do an active forcing session. I won't just fall asleep this time I hope

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #336 on: February 17, 2018, 07:00:00 PM »
Fri, Feb 16th

Sat, Feb 17th
Good dancing session, some faint touch imposition of tupper holding my hands. Still one of the best activities to do together.
My mind was too busy for meditation, did some active forcing while listening to music instead. Tupper built an alien world, some extraterrestrial planet which surface looked suspiciously like ice cream of various consistency. Good thing I can't feel anything. Might have tasted interesting though but wonderland senses are still abysmal.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #337 on: February 18, 2018, 06:00:00 PM »
Sun, Feb 18th
45min dancing
Tupper says I dance like a girl but better than nothing. 'Seeing' my and Alice's footsteps with closed eyes works realtively well now.
15 min meditation, 15min active forcing. Not much but I still can't concentrate. One mor try in the evening.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #338 on: March 01, 2018, 08:00:01 PM »
Man, it's March already...
Been somewhat sick in the past days, not really ill just extremely tired and dizzy. The arctic cold with temperatures down to ⁻15°C wasn't helping either. Despite lots of time neither forcing nor meditation were productive, was unable to focus on anything.
The only thing that worked out were some random wonderland adventures, Alice turned the giant flea into a mount, decorated with lots of bells and we rode through high grass up to the mountains at the edge of wonderland.
Use this as musical background.

Also practiced drawing basic shapes again. Progress is meh. Decent straight lines are still hard. So no awesome drawings from me anytime soon.
Have another wonderland impression instead until I can draw my own.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #339 on: March 05, 2018, 08:00:02 PM »
Had another lucid dream.
I was walking through a modern hospital randomly opening doors to see what's inside though I knew I wasn't supposed to be in there. I realized it was a dream and that I could do whatever I want but couldn't. Neither managed to change the dream nor to summon tupper. It just didn't work and I got really tired when trying. In the end I drifted back into the dream and was busy to get out without being seen.
The same happened in a lot of dreams recently. Very frustrating when you're so close.
Tupper is more frustrated about the lack of order in my life and says that's more important than dreams or forcing.

I do try to keep up my combination of meditation, dancing and active forcing in wonderland though, but at the moment it lacks quality more than quantity. I have some actual work to do next week which should be interesting and a good opportunity to have Alice interact with the world and other people. Will post results.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #340 on: March 12, 2018, 10:00:03 PM »
Man that was - interesting...
So we've been helping out a friend at an international trade fair for the past 4 days. I expected to do some background work at the exhibition stand any idiot could do but then again I had been asked for help because Bernd 'has extensive theoretical knowledge of just about everything'. At least that's apparently what people believe of me. Which may sound flattering but is actually really bothersome because everyone thinks you perfectly know and can do stuff anyway so you receive no help or explanation whatsoever. And so it was, my friend was gone talking to other people for a substantial amount of time leaving the stand just to me. Thankfully tupper intervened and got the guy to explain in detail what we were expected to do before he left because we weren't selling lemonade but promoting defense products to international customers.

It was pretty much as insane as it sounds and I was sweating bullets at the beginning. Alice wasn't too fond of it either because of the serious spaghetti potential and mostly focused on reminding and correcting me. Luckily there wasn't too much interest in our stuff, still just being there all day was really exhausting. Went to sleep immediately when I got home each day. No idea how people manage to live with a full-time job. Even tupper had to acknowledge that working actually sucks as you have no time for anything else. We did adapt quickly though and got to meet some really interesting people. Tupper talked to some Arabs about international politics for a long time and no one noticed we were complete outsiders, let alone she's a tupper. On the contrary, I think we made a good impression. Guess my friend was right after all, should consider a career as a con artist. Yet tupper isn't the ideal salesgirl with her brutal honesty openly telling people to buy other stuff which is better and cheaper than ours. Apparently we still did make a good job and even got decent money for it. Was really fun in the end, still glad it's over. I'm beat.

So it definitely was a success, it was intense and stressful especially at the beginning but we managed to interact and support each other even when under pressure. Did reverse the roles for some people Alice found 'worthy' of talking to and I stayed in the background. Had to keep her from going full 14/88 a few times but apart from that she did great on her own. Not sure if it qualifies as switching as it was more of a gradual process than a hard split. I did make some interesting observations on that matter, more about it next time I'm dead tired.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #341 on: March 22, 2018, 06:02:48 PM »
So, uh, what did I want to say about switching? I completely forgot.
I wonder if anyone actually reads this, apart from Mr. bot. Not that it matters. Not that we care.

It's finally spring! Spent the afternoon basking in the sun and meditating outside for the first time this year. Was ok but I feel the lack of practice. Sitting inside is far less fun. I did keep up my daily dancing routine but it has not led to any progress in touch imposition so far.
Time for another week of daily updates from Palm to Easter Sunday. This should be fun.
« Last Edit: March 22, 2018, 06:04:46 PM by Bernd »

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #342 on: March 25, 2018, 07:00:02 PM »
Sun, Mar 25th
Weird dreams in the morning. There probably was Alice beating up some small aliens but I'm not sure. I semi-realized I was dreaming at some points and tried to change the dream that was a bit stressful but it didn't really work as intended.

Tried to meditate while walking outside. Went well for a while but then got lost in thoughts repeatedly. Also tried to impose tupper. Wasn't too successful
30min dancing in the evening, good
30min forcing to music and later another 30min in silence.
Man, it's been a while since we did serious wonderland visualization stuff. This must get better but I need to focus on one thing at a time or I'll get totally lost again and accomplish nothing in the end. Quality over quantity.

« Last Edit: March 25, 2018, 07:07:01 PM by Bernd »

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #343 on: March 26, 2018, 06:00:02 PM »
Mon, Mar 26th
Felt weak today, both physically and mentally. Forcing sucked.

Talked about what we want to achieve this year and ended up with a huge list. See last post.
I'd like to improve my drawing skills, Alice wants to finally get going with Martial Arts.
As we're both perfectionists I have serious doubts we'll reach some satisfying level. Even worse I'm really bad at focussing my efforts on one goal and tend to spread em out on a multitude of stuff until I burn out and lose interest. It's not actually mass-producing garbage but mass-producing averageness. Which is garbage so yeah...

Now one more active forcing attempt as I go to sleep.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #344 on: March 28, 2018, 06:00:02 PM »
Fell asleep yesterday but didn't do anything noteworthy anyway.

Wed, Mar 28th
Tried to visualize some basic wonderland structures around me while dancing with tupper. This is harder than I thought. While 'looking' at Alice's feet in motion kinda works now, adding surroundings in complex and fast rotations is another level. Got dizzy and had to stop soon. Ah small steps...

Same for tupper's project, increasing my strength and stamina goes first before any serious attempts in training martial arts. Both have suffered considerably in winter. It's not bad but  average at best. At least I'm not fat. Getting Alice to exercise for me while relaxing in wonderland would be the deal but unfortunately that's not how things work. She still has zero strength and can't do possession against resistance. Going with the flow is fine but fast movements or lifing heavy stuff doesn't work at all.