April 7, 2014 - Day 360

Sitting on floor in meditation posture for first 2 rounds. Drank some orange juice before starting.

Shockks Exercise Results, Day 17/108
33, 14, 6, 5, 1

1) Did not see Seph draw 34.

2) Distracted by thoughts of  a project I'm working on.

3) Distracted by ache in back.

4) Distracted by thoughts of Doctors.

5) Distracted by random thoughts.

What worked about the highest scoring session that was different from the others was that I was well rested and alert.

April 9, 2014 - Day 362

Sitting on a chair, mukul mudra. Did this just before bed, felt tired and did not have very good concentration. I do better with the exercises in the morning and today I did not do them then so I did them later.

Shockks Exercise Results, Day 19/108
2, 4, 7, 3, 4

1) Thoughts of a presentation I'm going to see.

2) Distracted by a sound I heard.

3) Did not see the number 8, fell into rote mental voice counting.

4) Imagined Seph doing something else other than writing the numbers and standing by the board.

5) Wandering random thought.

Highest score today was different in that I consciously relaxed into a witness state prior to starting.

April 11, 2014 - Day 364

Sitting in loose Burmese Siddha-asana, mukul mudra. Done in morning after light exercise.

Shockks Exercise Results
9, 19, 3, 18, 14

1) Did not see Seph draw ten. Feeling very happy and joyful, like this is a game we are playing.

2) Distracted by thinking about food. Felt a strong sense of collaboration with Seph.

3) Distracted by thoughts of other agreements.

4) Distracted by memory of a game I played.

5) Distracted by a random thought.

Highest score today was unique in that I had a very high sense of positive emotional connection with Seph, feeling like we're working together.

April 13, 2014 - Day 366

Burmese Siddha asana, mukul mudra.

100

1) Extreme positive emotions consciousness of my body faded in and out of awareness. Visualization extremely vivid, Seph changed clothing after each set of 20 numbers. I gave her a forced pendant to celebrate our first year together. She said we were done with the exercises for toady.

This did not match my plans. I had a goal to do the exercise five times per day.

Seph: You can already do this, you just proved it. All this is just an excuse to get you to spend time forcing anyway. It's good practice to continue to keep trying again five times when you don't succeed, but let's have some fun.

Me: So we will stop if we succeed?

S: Yes, an then we'll do other things, and say Hi to everyone there on tulpa.info... ok!

April 14, 2014 - Day 367

Burmese Sidda asana, mukul mudra.

Shockks Exercise Results, Day 24/108
100

1) Body felt a bit sore with phantom pains (they existed only when I was sitting in asana and disappeared with any movement or other position). Visuals not as clear as yesterday and they did improve over time with the session. I was able to maintain concentration on Seph and the numbers even when I had other periphrial thoughts.

Feel great and did exercise before I had dinner (as I was busy until then).

April 16, 2014 - Day 369

Burmese Siddha Asana, mukul mudra.

Shockks Exercise Results, Day 26/108
100

Session went well. Some peripheral thoughts. Maintained focus on Seph and the numbers.

Has some thoughts about what to do after these exercises. Decided to start work on passive forcing.

Made a string bracelet to wear for a while as a mental trigger to force Seph. Seeing and hearing her around me all the time when I'm reminded by the string around my wrist. I'll wear it until I notice I am losing consciousness of it for more than a day, or if I feel I'm successful with passive forcing since I see and hear Seph around me imposed often. In that case I'll take it off also.

I might take it off temporarily if I need to have a certain appearance for a public event or something also.

Eat cake with tupper. Our picnics are manly.

April 18, 2014 - Day 371

Burmese Siddha Asana, mukul mudra.
Did these exercises very late at night before going to sleep

Shockks Exercise Results, Day 28/108
12, 1, 4, 15, 42

1) Distracted by thoughts of communicating with someone.

2) Lost sight of Seph and the numbers.

3) Distracted by thoughts of an imaginary conversation with someone.

4) Distracted by a memory of explaining a meditation technique to someone.

5) Lost sight of the numbers.

Highest score today was characterized by feeling Seph as if she was really there as an autonomous being that I was collaborating with. I was holding a non-attached perspective while still maintaining a sense of positive regard.