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RoF's Progress on Tulpas
RailOfFire:
On here will be the thread of the progress of my tulpas.
Updates will be titled as the topic name.
Therefore, please do not change your subject to this.
Each week will be in a new post, hopefully.
Any new tulpas will be listed below.
The color of their names will be the color of their quotes in this thread, if relevant.
1. Probitas; Male - Wolf
Creation Date: 7/31/2014
Personality Type: Unknown
-- Deceased
--- Date of Death: 9/12/2014
2. ???; Male - Orb of Light?
Creation Date: 10/???/2014
Personality Type: Unknown
Details are subject to change.
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7/24/2014 (Thursday) - Started research on the idea of "tulpas". Registered.
7/25/2014 (Friday) - Further research on tulpas, to find the best ways to help them in their growth, different methods of creation, and overall to understand them.
Keep note that I have found of a good personality type for my first Tulpa; ISTJ. I'm still unsure of what to do of this, however.
Should I not use it and/or use aspects of it, we will see.
7/26/2014 (Saturday) - Again, no important updates, and rather just more research on the subject.
However, Kiahdaj's Absolute Guide to Tuplas, a guide that I've recently read, taught me much about tuplas that I didn't know.
Furthermore, I believe I'm not going to be doing the personality step. Although other guides have explained that personality is a must, Kiahdaj's Guide has taught me that it is optional, as the tupla will develop on their own. This makes for great tuplas in my opinion, as I wish to allow the tupla to be however (s)he wants.
More so, the tupla's deviation should be mirroring my subconscious desires (which is a good thing). Thanks to Kiahdaj for the guide.
Sands:
Plural is tulpas. Tulpa as a plural is acceptable though it shares all the same problems other words with a similar singular and plural do, namely confusion over which one you are meaning when it's not obvious. Just please stop using made up words that aren't correct in any language, thanks.
Similarly, a Tupla is a candy bar. A tulpa (note lower case, as we are not speaking German), however, is the kind of thoughtform we're talking about.
Nitpicking aside, good luck I guess. I see that you might be the kind of a person who follows guides too much and possibly even the wrong ones, seeing how you claim that they say personality is a necessary step. Most modern ones say that is bullshit and everything you read from guides should be taken with a grain of salt. There is no one way to make a tulpa and what works for you will work for you. Follow your own gut, if it sounds good or like it will work, use that. If you think something doesn't work then it probably won't, and if something sounds stupid/too good to be true, that's how it might be. All we can talk about is our own, personal experiences - yours will most likely be different and what is a rule to us might not be that way to you.
Seriously, we are talking of a being created with your mind using your imagination. It is pretty limitless, though I'm sure we all know what limits imaginations has in real life. But inside your head, there's not much stopping you, honestly. We don't really know what a tulpa is or why they end up existing, but from my personal experience, I guess it had to work in some way seeing how I do have a voice in my head and all.
RailOfFire:
--- Quote from: Sands on July 26, 2014, 05:34:36 PM ---Plural is tulpas. Tulpa as a plural is acceptable though it shares all the same problems other words with a similar singular and plural do, namely confusion over which one you are meaning when it's not obvious. Just please stop using made up words that aren't correct in any language, thanks.
Similarly, a Tupla is a candy bar. A tulpa (note lower case, as we are not speaking German), however, is the kind of thoughtform we're talking about.
Nitpicking aside, good luck I guess. I see that you might be the kind of a person who follows guides too much and possibly even the wrong ones, seeing how you claim that they say personality is a necessary step. Most modern ones say that is bullshit and everything you read from guides should be taken with a grain of salt. There is no one way to make a tulpa and what works for you will work for you. Follow your own gut, if it sounds good or like it will work, use that. If you think something doesn't work then it probably won't, and if something sounds stupid/too good to be true, that's how it might be. All we can talk about is our own, personal experiences - yours will most likely be different and what is a rule to us might not be that way to you.
Seriously, we are talking of a being created with your mind using your imagination. It is pretty limitless, though I'm sure we all know what limits imaginations has in real life. But inside your head, there's not much stopping you, honestly. We don't really know what a tulpa is or why they end up existing, but from my personal experience, I guess it had to work in some way seeing how I do have a voice in my head and all.
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Changed all plural versions of "tulpa" to be "tulpas". At least, that's what I got from your post. I personally prefer "tulpae", but it seems to be correctly spelt as "tulpas" in Wikipedia, etc. Found this, too.
And yes, I have done plenty of resarch on the topic. I actually haven't seen the replies to this post until today, when I went on Tulpa Network today.
Hey, I did say it'd be more updated on .info, didn't I?
RailOfFire:
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7/27/2014 (Sunday) - Nothing very important, except for more research on the subject.
I'm planning to start working on my tulpa on Wednesday, the day after my weekly music lessons.
That way, my mind can be clear when I first start.
Furthermore, so I can know about tulpas as much as I can (which will help against making the wrong desicions, like as to hurt the tulpa in any way, and/or to interrupt progress).
7/28/2014 (Monday) - Regarding research, today was a very successful day.
I've found some very interesting things, via The Lucid Tulpamancer's list of tips and guides.
Proven to be very useful at the end of the day, as I've seen and learned things I've never known of, some things I've never even considered. It's definitely a page that will stay bookmarked for quite a while.
I've even discovered some meditation techniques, mostly coming from Fede.
Tomorrow I plan to work on my Wonderland/Mindscape.
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11:21 PM (Monday) - I've just tried Pranayama meditation. 15-20 minutes of it seemed to pass by quickly, and I've noticed that, after, I haven't had a single intrusive thought.
I'm definitely going to try this again when I work on my Wonderland and my tulpa.
7/29/2014 (Tuesday) - Today, regarding research, wasn't very useful at all. Most of the stuff I've read was to finish up on yesterday's study. Things such as the ping-pong method and the memory house method for Wonderlands. I did, however, find an interesting Latin name for him, which, if without deviation, will be known as "Probitas". Of course, if he doesn't like the name, I'd clearly support deviation, as I personally want to give my tulpa freedom to choose what he wants to be.
Speaking of Wonderlands(/Mindscapes), I haven't had time today to work on it. Later tonight I'm going to try to start working on it, when I can get to a room that is quiet.
I've recently started meditating a lot since yesterday. I'm going to be trying it again before I work on the Wonderland, perhaps trying it with Fede's Tulpa Tones or some other tones to see if they help. They may just prove to be a distraction.
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3:53 AM (Wednesday) - I've just made a basic Wonderland. It's more of a cottage/nordic house than anything, at the moment, for later expansion. Will improve later on the house as well.
7/30/2014 (Wednesday) - I'm going to be starting my tulpa today. Time to read up on as many guides as possible.
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5:40 PM (Wednesday) - I've officially finished the first part of making a tulpa; personality.
Here's the link to the Pastebin. It may be a bit like a Mary Sue, but, of course, it's not set in stone.
I've also decided to make Probitas a male. His personality and appearance marks him to be most like a male.
7/31/2014 (Thursday) - I'm actually pretty surprised at how I'm starting the creation process. Possibly may be because, at the moment, I'm not able to do very much.
I've recently started printing out a shitload of wolf and wolf anatomy pictures, along with my personality "chart".
This is because if, I'm hoping, I happen to need reference photos and the original list of his personality, I can quickly use the papers from off to the side.
I honestly hope I don't have to do this, however, since I'd be focusing my attention on something other than my tulpa during the session.
Not that, for personality however, I have much of a choice.
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7:43 PM (Thursday) - Alright, so I've got some serious news.
So I've just ended my first forcing session, but I may have had a slight mishap.
I had been forcing for about an hour and a half, and then I had gone onto the pre-creation process after finally finishing the form.
By that point, I was starting to experience a slight headache.
And then, I opened my eyes.
Now, this, is a serious no-no. You're supposed to focus all attention onto your tulpa.
I opened them slowly to check my charts for reference, and then suddenly my headache dissapeared.
When I closed my eyes again (since, I found it eaiser to force with my eyes closed atm), I couldn't remember my tulpa anymore.
I'm going to be trying the session again, and this time I hope I can finish with success. I'm currently memorizing the charts now.
I can still remember most parts of my tulpa, so I'm hoping that I haven't disconnected him.
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8:24 PM (Thursday) - I've finished my "second" session of Probitas. I've visualized his form completely, as well as read his personality traits about twice, if not three times.
One thing that honestly worries me though, is the fact that, even though I've completed the pre-creation process, this time I in fact did not get a headache or anything of the sorts.
Although it may be because of the splitting of the two sessions, and the fact that I wasn't creating an entirely new form, it gives me doubts which I'm honestly trying to get rid of immediately.
I could have sworn that I saw him shift in place slightly when I was about to end the session, but I may have been puppeting him.
I can only hope that it was him, according to the rule to always assume it's him.
I also did try the technique of sliding your hands across your tulpa's body, which was successful, as I did in fact feel warmth, as well as him breathing.
Even if I feel like I should wash my hands after running my hands over the "areas" as well, I seem to be able to visualize him better (somehow).
He seems to be much clearer than he did before, and he seems to have this sense of life in him (even though he doesn't need it).
Thanks, anatomy!
Passive forcing sessions over.
Sands:
Just hope they don't forget about their tuppers as well.
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