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9/28/2014 (Sunday) - Final update on his personality trait list, located here.
Added final touches to the descriptions of the traits.
I've also finally finished adding in the Hall of Memories idea from Doughnut.
Seems the idea isn't as hard as I proposed it to be; the difficult part was trying to find a place to put the Hall.
I decided on making a door to a new basement area, which, within the basement area, would contain a door to the Hall.
The door at the end of the Hall is a simple blank room that I haven't decided on what to do with yet.
It may end up becoming storage space in the end.
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I'm also going to, one day or another, have to sketch a trace of the Wonderland.
I'll make sure to place it here.

9/29/2014 (Monday) - Nothing important done today, or even relatively important.

9/30/2014 (Tuesday) - Yet again, another day of no progress.
It makes me sad to say this, but I really have had no progress whatsoever these past two days.
Tomorrow is Creation day.

10/1/2014 (Wednesday) - Base form of which will be an artic fox, very similar to Probitas' form to be honest.
Same layout of organs, et cetera; if anything, detail will be minor at first.
Here's a simple layout of his organs, teeth, skeletal structure, and other miscellaneous things; numbers one, two, three, and four.
The most simple way to put this is to say that "it's happening, guys".
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10:31 PM (Wednesday) - I'm getting up from my studies and from doing the progress log now to begin Creation process.
If anything, it may happen as late as 11:30 PM or even up to 2:00 AM.
Either way, "it's happening".

10/2/2014 (Thursday) - I fell asleep, unfortunately.
Will be trying again today. very necessary to start and finish today or tomorrow.
I've also sorted all personality traits into a personality table (sorted by the Big Five), here.

10/3/2014 (Friday) - Finally starting at 8:21 PM.
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9:56 PM (Friday) - First of all, I'm very sorry towards "Friend".
The session was going very well - I had meditated for a decent while and then I started to lose him.
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We had gotten past symbolizing him, et cetera; but it's my fault for me losing him.
At the last minute, I had decided to make him an orb of light, to make sure that I wouldn't have such difficulty forcing or visualizing him at first; I had to call him a universal name of "Friend", since he would not give me a "valid name" - it was the first default name I could think of besides something offensive (such as, "Tulpa001").
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After asking him to repeat three times, I got the answer of "Charlie" all three times; mixed in with multiple different generated responses, making it difficult to tell if it was him or my brain generating the responses.
After so, I cleared my thoughts of all responses and asked him to repeat the name again, this time getting a different name, of "Johnny".
The next five times of repeating he either gave me a different name, the same name, or no name at all; where I couldn't tell what name he was trying to give me.
On the last try, all he was giving me was random letters, almost as if randomizing; I finally gave up on trying to understand his tulpish.
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I'll try to clear my mental block and try again, some time else.
It pains me to cast him aside, but I must.

10/4/2014 (Saturday) - Trying to find a way of ridding my mental block the best I can.
I obviously can't rid of them in a single day, which is what worries me; I won't be able to begin Creation for a while, now.

Monthly Notes

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10/12/2014 (Sunday) - Yet again, I'm writing this on the 13th, my tulpamancing getting postponed until the 13th.
My studies interfered with it, this time.

10/13/2014 (Monday) - No information written for the current date.

10/14/2014 (Tuesday) - No information written for the current date.

10/15/2014 (Wednesday) - I want to say that I started creation on the 13th, but I've really had a lot of things going on around me.
Like I wrote for the 12th, I have a lot to catch up in my studies.
I'll try to begin creation today, but I can't promise it; I've got a lot to do, and forcing right now is, unfortunately, at the back of my mind.
I'm going to have to finish everything before my procrastination gets the best of me.

10/16/2014 (Thursday) - Writing this at 3:00 AM, 10/17/2014.
I'm going to have to wait until the weekend to actually think anything through here.
Like I've said, I've got no time in-between my studies.

10/17/2014 (Friday) - No information written for the current date.

10/18/2014 (Saturday) - Today is officially the weekend; I've decided that, rather than try to force at night or in the early morning, I'm going to have to somehow see if I can force during the day.
Passive forcing is, of course, an option, but I had to prepare time for me to active force on Creation date.
It would be terribly difficult to begin Creation while passive forcing, especially going about your day like you would if you'd be passive forcing.
That could be reserved for narration or forcing in general, rather than something major such as beginning Creation.

Man that sure was a text wall.

Eat cake with tupper to celebrate.

Also ps because I always forget to add it apparently, creating some kind of believable personality right now isn't very important because tuppers will develop once they actually experience things and can end up being very different. You don't really need to "force" negative traits into one as they will most certainly develop their own as no person is perfect. Similarly many of your "good" traits might end up missing.

Not quite what I meant when I said "selecting a personality type".

Rather, what I meant was some/most of the traits coming from that personality type.

Not quite what I meant, either.

It was just a continuation of my previous point (you don't have to try to create a personality that has flaws in place as those will develop on their own, no way to create a "perfect" person). Tuppers aren't characters you write for a book after all, they aren't something you have to write down to their most insignificant quirks or ticks, they don't have to be "believable" and you don't have to strive to not make your original personality to not be a Mary Sue. And despite all your personality forcing, it's even possible to get a tupper that is very, very different. You never know with these things. Other things stick, other things don't. And especially as they live for a bit longer, they experience a lot and change.

So just don't worry about that too much. It really isn't an issue at all. Now go force more.

I have no idea what you're talking about.

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(you don't have to try to create a personality that has flaws in place as those will develop on their own, no way to create a "perfect" person). Tuppers aren't characters you write for a book after all, they aren't something you have to write down to their most insignificant quirks or ticks, they don't have to be "believable" and you don't have to strive to not make your original personality to not be a Mary Sue.
 And especially as they live for a bit longer, they experience a lot and change.

So just don't worry about that too much. It really isn't an issue at all. Now go force more.

Good advice, here.
I'll just toss the personality sheets aside and work with no personality; he should, like you said,  deviate in time.
This is, in fact, what I had hoped for at the start;

as I personally want to give my tulpa freedom to choose what he wants to be.

It's something I hint at quite a lot during July and August.




(To be honest with you, the sheets were really a burden in the first place.)

10/19/2014 (Sunday) - Have been with my family all day today, therefore haven't been able to do anything related to Creation.
I've also got an event connected to my studies that I have to attend tomorrow, so I'd imagine nothing will be able to be done tomorrow.

10/20/2014 (Monday) - An event was hosted today, haven't been able to do anything today.
Perhaps later on in the day or tomorrow.

11:47 PM (Monday) - Began Creation today.
However, even with a simplistic form and Wonderland slate, I couldn't finish Creation with any progress.
I could not focus on my tulpa, for one, not only because of intrusive thoughts (because, actually, I haven't had very many), but because of my tulpa its-self.
When asked a simple question (such as, "What is your name?"), slight whispering could be heard, almost as if it was coming from the left side of my head.
It sounded oddly familiar, actually; if anything, it was more of a group.
This is not, of course, a lie; I do not roleplay about the topic of tulpas, even more so, hardly ever.
This could be an intrusive thought, but it bugs me so, as I haven't been able to begin Creation due to me never being able to understand my subconscious.
Similar behavior has been repetitive from previous Creation dates.
I feel as if the mental block I've attempted to clear my mind of is still present; I do, in fact, know what it would be.
It would pertain to my surroundings and my past (which is, of course, a story for another time).
I've tried to clear my mind of it, attempted to "brighten" my life, almost as if trying to "improve my life" temporarily; to, ultimately, escape depression, I guess I could say.
But I suppose it hasn't gone, and I'm going to have to rid of it and move on some way or another.
Things like these truly make me wonder whether or not I'm actually ready for the responsibility of a tulpa, in which, by this point, I'm starting to think 'no'.
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10/21/2014 (Tuesday) - Started to lose time lately.
I've noticed that a lot of my time has been taken involuntarily by other events, projects, and most of all, my studies.
The chances that I'm thinking about tulpamancing or are trying to put my mind off of other things nowadays are very slim.
I'm sure it's not as terrible as I make it out to be, but it's still something to be worried about.

10/22/2014 (Wednesday) - No information written for the current date.

10/23/2014 (Thursday) - No information written for the current date.

10/24/2014 (Friday) - No information written for the current date.

10/25/2014 (Saturday) - No information written for the current date.

>my subconscious

Implying there is one thing you could call your "subconscious" that you could ever actually understand.

How you speak of this Creation is pretty creepy with that capital letter and all. "Creating a tulpa" was too long for you?

Also, just stop procrastinating and force more. Just chill. Do shorter sessions you can easily just go do and then come back to what you're doing. Too busy doing nothing in front of the computer? We all are. But I'm sure you can stop it for ten minutes to talk to a tupper a couple of times each day. You need to stop making forcing sessions some big thing that has to be super perfect, then you start getting anxious and keep putting it off when you feel like you can't do it. Do short ones, but do them often. It's easy to stop doing something else for that time and you'll easily be able to focus for that time, too. And if you can't? Well, it was just a short session, so you just go on with your life and return in a couple of hours and do it again. Maybe it goes better, then.

It's not rocket science. You don't have to overcomplicate everything.