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Makeshift58

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Here Goes
« on: September 20, 2013, 04:15:39 pm »
(#1 Diary Entry)
I want to be the first to post a progress journal on here. I have a similar one on tumblr. But I feel it's appropriate to put one here too. This one I'll be much more descriptive probably.

Well, a good time ago I decided to make a tulpa, and now I decided to make a progress log of it. I know much about the tulpa.info community and information about tulpas, I’ve read many a guide on them.

My progress seems to be slow for right now ( comparing to other's story's) but it’s coming along, I haven’t much time to force due to school ( Ap classes suck y’know). I want to take as much time as needed to form a quality tulpa, I'm not skimping on anything.

I will only update one a week or when something “big” happens. I will try to be pretty professional when I type these, because I find it annoying as shit myself when people talk like they've degraded to a five year old . I will also include a TL;DR for every post, because we all want just to get to the point of the post. I'll also include a checklist at the end of what I've achieved so that way if one random progress report is clicked, people will be able to see where I was at that point.

So.
I’m currently forcing personality and I’ve completed form.
The most that has occurred is new head pressures at times when I force or when I think about my tulpa.

Her name is Delta ( it was the first thing that popped in my head), I started her on August 20th this year . Her form is of a Lamia (half snake, half woman). Unoriginal I know, but I enjoy it, so who cares.

I've been pretentious enough to type out the personality out, not that it helps much except as a way to have a conscious list of what I'm placing in her. There was a thought in my mind that maybe other people might look at it for reference. I've decided whatever I change in the document changes Delta's personality, but that'll probably change, I can feel it.

I've been worried about forcing time, but luckily a friend gave me insight to wake earlier (duh) to do it, and so far it's been working well.

So yea, here goes.
P.S. : Feel free to ask questions, I want you to anyway.

TL;DR : Feeling head pressures when Delta is thought of (sometimes) and while forcing(even less often than when I think of her).

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Form (Finished before "Here Goes" post)(Date: September 4th 2013)
« Last Edit: September 27, 2013, 08:47:09 pm by Makeshift58 »
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Sands

Re: Here Goes (#1 Diary Entry)
« Reply #1 on: September 20, 2013, 04:34:20 pm »
Hey, I'm not even sure who you are, but good to see new people. Afraid we don't have much in the way of guides here yet, so it's great that you already got started before. Not nice to try directing people to guides that don't exist. Guess we'll try to help you in any way we can now, huh? Will be interesting to see a new forcer go through this.

Head pressures always were a great help to me. Later on I was smart enough to actually use them to my advantage and made a communication system based on them. Made us actually able to have some kinds of conversations going without my tupper actually being able to talk yet.
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Re: Here Goes (#1 Diary Entry)
« Reply #2 on: September 20, 2013, 05:29:40 pm »
Alright, I will try to do the same then, I wouldn't have thought to use pressures for that!
I'll be here for some time since I like this place so far, you'll get to know me in awhile Sands.
Once more people get here, I'm sure this place will be full of guides and everything I could ask for.
I do like the way you and the other mod have this site set up so far.
Thanks though!
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Re: Here Goes (#1 Diary Entry)
« Reply #3 on: September 20, 2013, 06:26:34 pm »
Quote from: Sands on September 20, 2013, 04:34:20 pm
Guess we'll try to help you in any way we can now, huh? Will be interesting to see a new forcer go through this.

This was one reason I was always a little hesitant of the idea of a new forum. When .info first started, it was all about people learning shit together. But a new forum created by a bunch of oldfags could be a little boring, because there isn't a lot of advancements these days when it comes to tulpa ideas, and such.
So it's good to see there's a new person already to ease our boredom, hm?
On another note, there is now a guide on this forum <3
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Re: Here Goes (#1 Diary Entry)
« Reply #4 on: September 24, 2013, 06:11:07 am »
Quote from: Kiahdaj on September 20, 2013, 06:26:34 pm
Quote from: Sands on September 20, 2013, 04:34:20 pm
Guess we'll try to help you in any way we can now, huh? Will be interesting to see a new forcer go through this.
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Re: Here Goes (#1 Diary Entry)
« Reply #5 on: September 27, 2013, 08:46:21 pm »
(#2 Diary Entry)
Okay, so in the light of others only having one page per diary, I shall do the same, I'll just keep updating in the comments.

After the course of one week, I've started to force more, and results have come.
Instead of head pressures, they've started to become headaches, one kind of headache that won't go away even with ibuprofen.
During forcing on last Saturday, I did tell my tulpa to do whatever she can to make herself known to get my attention.
But who knows, I've had a colde this week anyway, maybe that could've affected the headaches, probably did. I still feel headaches since after the cold, not as bad.

Even better, I feel head pressures/headaches even when I'm not thinking about her, which I think is pretty good sign. (trusting it's her) She seems to cause them whenever something significant happens to me or others that I take note of.
They even have some odd signs too, like they the pressure will spin in the shape of the circle (think of the YouTube buffer circle movement ). I remember yesterday and the day before closing my eyes, on the back of my eyelids I can see and almost feel something swinging.

The best thing is that I listened to Sands and tried to communicate using head-pressures by telling Delta to create them for yes and no answers.
It worked(moderately), I think. I'm nervous and paranoid that it's just me and not her.
I'm also still going over the personality with her.

TL;DR : Head pressures increased along with the addition of headaches. Possible communication has been made.

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Form (Finished before "Here Goes" post)(Date: September 4th 2013)
« Last Edit: October 05, 2013, 02:28:02 pm by Makeshift58 »
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Re: Here Goes
« Reply #6 on: September 28, 2013, 02:48:56 am »
The first steps are always the greatest. Good luck Makeshift58.
By the way, nice to see another Electric Light Orchestra fan.
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Sands

Re: Here Goes
« Reply #7 on: September 28, 2013, 06:41:52 am »
Hope the whole head pressure communication thing works for you. Was really helpful to us, but be sure to explore it and see if you can make it fit you two better. And well, if you can't quite repeat the feeling yourself, I'd say that's a pretty good way of telling if it's you or her.
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Re: Here Goes
« Reply #8 on: October 05, 2013, 02:27:27 pm »
(Diary Entry #3)
I'm sorry for not updating earlier, I was at a football game yesterday and got back home late.

Nothing really happened this week, except to say the head-pressures are occurring more and more. By the fact that I can't recreate them means she's there (yes!).
I haven't much time to force this week sadly/ I've been getting lazy and need to fix it. Though I'm attempting to talk to her more often during the day.
Still forcing personality, I have a feeling when I finish progress is going to go even faster.

On a side note, at the football game yesterday, if I turned away to talk to some friends, the head-pressures and headaches would start coming on ( not really painful or anything), once I turned back, the headache would subside.
On a bigger side note my memory retention seems to have increased, even if I don't remember the piece of information immediately, it comes to me eventually. Usually it either comes to me quickly or I get nothing. I don't know if this is a result of Delta.

I'm not sure if I'm going to updating every week at this rate.

TL;DR: Nothing much, head pressures more responsive. Delta possibly like football I guess? Tulpa helping memory retention?

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Form(Finished before "Here Goes" post)(Date: September 4th 2013)
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Re: Here Goes
« Reply #9 on: October 05, 2013, 05:02:28 pm »
Quote from: Makeshift58 on October 05, 2013, 02:27:27 pm
Nothing really happened this week, except to say the head-pressures are occurring more and more. By the fact that I can't recreate them means she's there (yes!).

That sounds good. Looks like you're on the right track.
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Re: Here Goes
« Reply #10 on: October 10, 2013, 03:43:15 pm »
N-no
Well it's something that influenced me I would say.
It really started from Monster Girl Quest, that's one thing that inspired me.
That's when I started looking for reference Lamias online and ran into Daily Life with a Monster Girl.

To tell you I first based the form heavily on a NSFW picture on tumblr, but one day, I forgot which,  I came into the wonderland to a different formed Lamia.
It was strange and I tried to change her back, but she kept switching back so I gave up.
I like the new form better anyway. When I gain the ability to draw I shall draw her out.

Delta does have a Centoria like face to think of it.
Oh look a new chapter.
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Re: Here Goes
« Reply #11 on: October 25, 2013, 06:55:35 pm »
(Dairy Entry #4)
*sigh*

Not much progress over the past few weeks sadly.
I've been busy with school and other things I had to work on.
Head pressures decreased, and that worries me, I've been forcing for a couple of hours now finally.
Eye-bo really helps clarity, not only with tulpas but with generally everything.
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But tulpas are friends, not trophies with a made up story to impress people.
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