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Sparks' Progress Report
Sparks:
Oh, yeah. I should update this.
So we've been doing the same stuff over the past few nights; about a half an hour of reinforcing various things before forcing. Getting a new sensation recently: Like being impressed upon to be in the wonderland, or being in such a state that associating with imagined senses is more desirable than not being so. Kinda interesting, and worth watching for the moment.
Just been tending to the lighthouse, as we tend to. Did some gardening on Monday, some redecorating yesterday and some detail flushing today, and of course lit the damn thing at dusk like I'm supposed to do but keep forgetting to do. Luckily Sophia has my back; she takes care of it when I'm too busy.
And possession is inching along, too. Clair fell asleep again while possessing the other night, which is always kinda strange for me. It's just chatting, chatting and then boom, it's a few hours later and I'm back in control.
Sands:
Well, at least you fell asleep too. Ain't fun if the body falls asleep before you do.
Sparks:
Hai, senpai. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't interested in the experience though.
Still using The Fode Method™ before each session and watching things improve and whatnot. Starting to prefer it to mindlessness meditation just because it serves the same basic purpose (calmness, stillness, whatev) and then some. And the emotional state invoked is just tops. It's getting easier to get there, too, so my sessions are a little faster because I can get in, say what I want to say, then get to forcing.
Uh, so we've been, tending to the lighthouse as usual, and watching the orchard with anticipation. It's about time we go collect the apples, I guess. Not like anyone else will; I'm pretty sure the mansion in its center is abandoned. Eh, wonderland stuff.
Clair's been talking to her friends more often lately, so she's pretty happy, which makes me happy. Wish I could say I felt closer to switching, but it's a challenge. Chugging on and all that.
Sparks:
Beebeebeeb.
Hi. Clair, Sophia and I are doing well. They've been possessing quite a bit and I'm really enjoying it. The more dissociated I am, the more I really feel like we're a team, and I get to advise them through external problems like they do me. And the trust building involved in letting go of body control has brought us a lot closer. P. neat.
I'm learning how to enter the whole possessed and withdrawn mental state more smoothly, too. Uh, and we're kinda sorta working out the eye situation, but the resolution is really just getting better at staying back. At one point I became dissociated enough that I felt like I could visualize (something I thought to try after a conversation with The Colonel), and it was pretty cool, for what I could do without losing focus. Sophia was in charge at the time, so I went to the wonderland with Clair and found I couldn't hear what was going on up-top, even Sophia's thoughts. But then I started thinking about the front, which made me lose focus and reassociate. Wonderful, familiar failure. Still, this is like the best switching related failure to date.
So much fun. Oh yeah, and wonderland stuff too, but not as much. Or, at least, nothing exciting to report that hasn't already been said.
Sands:
Have tulpas played Minecraft yet?
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