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Sparks' Progress Report
Sparks:
Cuddleforced like fede for about twenty minutes then went and did wonderland stuff. Things were about as clear as usual, but I didn't expect boom progress on the first shot. Nice alternative to meditating before forcing, anyway. We just laid on the grassy shore near the lighthouse and chatted, as per usual. Oh, but I heard seagulls today, which is a first. They were like "caw, caw" and I was like "brrrrrrat," to use the onomatopoeia.
And possession stuff. Even though Clair spends the most time doing possession stuff, it's funny how Sophia improves with her, passively. Lazy pone. Anyway, Clair's friends are all busy still being in college, so she just listened to music and fussed at me for liking the music she was listening to instead of fucking off to lala land.
After that, some eye-bo. Always a treat; makes it really easy to dissociate from my eyes. Should do it more, and I might. Though I probably won't. Though I may.
Sparks:
Aw, you seem ruffled. Would you like me to use a different cutesy name for it?
Anyway, did more [insert cutesy name here] like fede. Seems much easier to do right after waking up since I'm already feeling pretty good. I imagine I can get something similar right before bed, but I'm usually wrapped up in the day's events. Got a pretty good physical sense of them both afterward when I reinforced the right gunk, though again not sure how much it differs from the norm.
Did some more wonderland stuff after that, and got pretty clear sensations. My peripheral mind vision is creeping wider again, like it tends to when I hold myself to a schedule. Should only be a few weeks before I'm, as it were, back to full strength.
Sands:
Call it the Fode method, original character do not steal.
Sparks:
--- Quote from: Fede on September 13, 2014, 08:27:34 AM ---That is irrelevant. What matters is that you shouldn't go around saying you do things I do or teach, when you're doing something that's only 10% similar and thus isn't what I'm doing.
--- End quote ---
Oh, but you misunderstand! I am doing what you teach. Lemme go into more detail.
So I started off by repeating a few phrases I know to work from previous self-hypnosis sessions while trying to maintain the euphoric state. These are mainly things repeated with emphasis in the induction, like, "These experiences are actual" and, "I can see mental imagery in vivid detail." These are okay, but I felt I could do more, so I tried to do a full, impromptu induction, but focusing on that, uh, killed my high so to speak. But the failure lead me to a realization! I've been reinforcing the stuff, but I haven't set my mind on a trigger. I figure this exercise either doesn't need one or could benefit from one, so I'm going to give it a try tonight. If the former, more reinforcing will likely lead to results. If the latter, more reinforcing will likely lead to results.
So, yeah. I'm feelin pretty good about it.
Sparks:
Yeah, I figured the euphoric state was crucial, and all of the counting down and whatnot of a full hypnosis session is just unwieldy for me, though it might be helpful to others with better focus.
And it's nothing big, just the addition of some word, activity or mental state to what you're affirming such that the experience of the former activates or triggers what's been reinforced. So, for instance, I was thinking of using my tulips as triggers; reinforce something like, "whenever I see Clair and Sophia, my mental imagery is vivid and clear." Its job is to create an object (in the sense of any perception; a word, an image, a feeling) that'll catalyze the appearance of what's been reinforced.
As alluded to before, I'm on the fence as to whether such a thing is necessary because the analogy between the euphoric state and self-hypnosis only goes so far. The former seems to act like a hypnotic state sans the directed hypnosis and, I would think, sans the need for a trigger, so is it really worth the time?
Meeeh. We'll see.
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