19th day 14th August
Didn't feel like anything new was developing, sensations are becoming slightly stronger, but that is about it. Do believe it is helping though, and will continue methods to advance vocalisation to next level.


20th day 15th August
Responses are coming in more often, and feel more developed, not much of a sense of the content of the responses being formed however. Any progress is progress however, so I am happy about our progress so far.

Responses are coming in even during the morning, long before I read through the S.H. script, so it is having an effect, in making her more likely to respond, which is good progress.

21st day 16th August

During today's S.H session, I think I heard for the first time Palmon's actual voice. During the section where I was supposed to let my mind fill with random thoughts, I asked her if she was feeling Ok, and I felt an Ok back. Didn't get another sensation like it tonight, so will remain cautiously optimistic for the time being.

22nd day 17th August

Don't believe there was a noticeable development in our vocalisation today, at least during the h.s. Will see tonight during our active forcing if she is feeling talkative.

Still get light head pressure, but I think the fact it is getting lighter is because I'm getting used to the sensation. Also haven't been doing as much forcing as I would like to.


23rd day 18th august
Getting faint sounds sometimes when I'm asking Palmon questions in the back of my mind. On the one hand, I know it could be parroting; but on the other, it doesn't feel completely like my voice. It is similar at the moment, but not the same.

And sands, eat cake? That some kind of euphemism for taking a bite rather than a lick? Or are you talking about some sort of real life cake and I'm just thinking too much into it 

26th day 21st August
Been doing s.h sessions these past few nights, but seem to have hit a wall with them. I think for now, I will try to further develop vocality without them.

Haven't eaten cake with her yet sands, but we ate some lasagna last night. Because I had just eaten it myself, I felt it easier to describe, and will attempt to feed her more things in this way. She liked it, but we'll see what she thinks of different foods before we say it is a favourite.

Yes cake.

34th day 29th august

Another session of just talking to Palmon today. No real new observations. Out of curiousity, if the host is sick, does the tulpa also get sick?

38th day 2nd september

Nothing out of the ordinary happened last couple of nights.

I think we are going to revisit some stuff we have been neglecting due to working on vocalisation so much, just spending time playing around together. I think the problem we might be having is that I'm pushing too hard and its becoming unhealthy for the both of us. Did some visualisation without eye-bo, just taking some time to recover what she looks like, and I think that skill is getting better.

45th day 9th september

Been spending this past week, just doing little things with Palmon, like spending time in the mindscape together and just talking to her about stuff. I'm finding a lot of the time I'm falling asleep while visualising with her, whether its napping during the day, or full on sleeping.

I do feel that we are linking up better now, than before though. I find it easier to focus on her and enter our mindscape - I think its partly that I'm so comfortable talking to her that I fall asleep now.


50th day 14th september

More bonding activities with Palmon when I can. Thinking of getting an item that will act as a bonding tool, something that I can keep on me at all times, and will serve as a physical link of our connection in preparation for when we eventually get to the imposition stage, but not sure at this stage what I could use.

Occasionally I have read to her, I'm looking into finding some more, cause its a pretty fun thing to do.

54th day 18th September

Kinda broke through one of my self-inflicted blocks today. I was kinda scared of seeing her moving in my mindscape, because I'm not sure how one would tell whether her movement is happening by her own will, and my mind is describing it to me, or if my thoughts are affecting her movements, if that makes sense. I wasn't so much stopping her from moving by force, but more staying away from activities that require a fair amount of motion.

I think I finally realised that since I can't tell the difference between the two, I shouldn't try to stop it in case it is her moving about. I feel kinda silly about it, but I'm happy we managed to somewhat deal with the issue. I asked if she could try doing some movement tests, and just let it happen, rather than forcing her to do it. So stuff like walking at a slow pace and normal pace, as well as catching and throwing.

We also went on a walk through the outer area of our field, and ended that session with seeing if she had decided to keep the ivy skills. Interestingly when I asked her to do this, on a crate I spawned for this purpose, she had trouble with it. She could definitely fire release the vines, but she definitely needs practice, and she can't lift stuff at the moment - unlike when I was doing some trial puppeting when we were developing her form way back at the beginning.

60th day 24th September

Well, we have been doing quite a few different things over the past few days. Going for walks, throwing a ball back and forth etc. Last night we did some work on her using her vines. I built a sort of course just outside the main part of our wonderland, and she practiced using her vines to swing. I feel like we both have been having fun doing this sort of stuff.

I think what you said sands helped me by putting it into perspective for me, so thanks so much