Day 149
Total forcing time: 53 minutes
Tried something new. Relaxation exercise/meditation -> wonderland script (yeah not the vocality script as usual).
The first part was pretty uneventful. Lots of thoughts jumping around, and a lot of mind "sinking" (aka not paying attention to anything). I almost started to doze off at some parts, but I was able to bring my mind back to my breath, though only for a short while. Basically repeated that for 18 minutes.
Then the actual script. I had saved it a while ago so I didn't knew what to expect.
Surprisingly, my sense of
sound in the wonderland is really good (or maybe not so surprising, being a musician and all). I would, for example, tap my fingers against a wall and the imagined sound was pretty close to the real thing, not to mention, it was more-or-less clear. Same when I tapped my fingers against some aluminum structure, nice clear metallic sound.
I could hear passing cars in the wonderland as well, and birds. This one is
4/10.
Visuals are almost 2/10 at times, but at other times it gets all pear shaped and 1/10, mostly when trying to focus on more than one thing (or getting a feel of a large room).
Taste is probably 2/10 as well. A good thing is that when I eat something in the wonderland it does seem to trigger a salivation response in the real world, so I guess that's nice.
Touch is 2.4/10. I can feel the temperature of things somewhat accurately if I focus well. Textures are trickier, save for plain ones such as aluminum bars or similar simple objects.
Smell is 2/10 as well I guess. I can get a vague feeling of how something's supposed to smell, but it isn't overtly complex or anything, and it doesn't "overwrite" the currently active real-world smell.
Visuals are a weird mix between 1st and 3rd person view. Equally weird is walking around. Most times, I simply "jump" from one place to another without much regard for realism.
Seeing my tulpa is difficult still. But what did I expect since overall visuals aren't good yet.
While there we had cake. Baked in an "holographic oven" (basically just some transparent-looking immaterial oven because why not). It was covered in chocolate and had some strawberries. My tulpa and I had one slice with a glass of milk, and then she burnt the rest of the cake (because "we don't need more calories"). That was nice.
I have noticed that not many tulpamancers detail how they go about their sessions. Their messages mostly consist of "I did X thing on the woderland and this happened and blah blah and then I went outside", which doesn't really tell much about what they were physically doing in the real world (and I wonder how some people apparently even have fights or such similar events in the wonderland and how they behaved when for example, they got hit; did they move? did they made any sound?). Well, I guess maybe I should write down how it goes for me, although since there are few such accounts, I don't know if this is the "norm" or whatever).
I grab a comfortable chair, I dim my laptop's screen light to the minimum, I put some background noise (preferably something that will last for the entire session without cutting/looping), I relax my posture (but don't let myself slouch as that invites sleepiness and well, that isn't good for forcing purposes) and I close my eyes or proceed to read the scripts.
I try to keep distractions at a minimum, closing the door and the windows are a must. I mute all other computer programs (and I don't have a cellphone so there's no problem there). I had to resort to waking up real early (5 AM) so nobody bothers me during the sessions.
As far as the actual forcing goes, I try to use some sort of starting point in the wonderland, where I'll appear and then proceed to do whatever I'm aiming for. Although right now it mostly consists of getting familiarized/immersed with the experience, as it isn't very good in some aspects as I detailed above.
When some physical event happens in the wonderland, right now I don't really move in the real world.
When an emotional moment happens it does reflect into my body, smiling, tearing up, all that does leak unto my body and yeah, if I'm happy or smiling in the wonderland then it'll be so in the real world as well.
As I said above as well, when I eat something I do get a reaction similar to when I actually eat something in the real world.
Temperature changes in the wonderland seem to reflect mostly on my hands. If I touch something warm, my hands do get a bit warmer. If I touch something cold likewise. Though it's not really a very dramatic thing, it's a start I guess.
Currently, when I move my vision around in the wonderland, my eyes move as well. This would make it very hard to do wonderland stuff with my eyes open, because I would be moving around my actual vision and I would get distracted.
When I get hugged in the wonderland I sometimes start smiling uncontrollably in the real world. Not all times, but yeah, so if I look like I ingested some weird drug smiling all creepily it must be that... another reason why I can't really do these sessions during the day.
If I get startled on the wonderland I do tend to feel a bit uneasy physically. But it's not really that noticeable.
And finally, I have been unable to emulate pain on the wonderland, so it doesn't reflect at all on my body.
I hope that helps someone someday. This thread recently passed the 4000 views after all.
Do much wonderlanding, yes, it's good for you. My visuals are at a steady like, 3/10 or whatever lately for some reason, probably all of the wonderlanding and trying to get things consistent (flower-beds are Hitler aahhh). Go-figure.
Also I meant Bias-FX, which is for Guitar tones. Since we're too poor for good amps and mics, and Bias is supremely decent, it works. And we've actually got stuff that's been recorded floating around already, I can maybe link something tonight. It's all pretty raw, buteh
Yeah, will definitely try to do all sorts of things to improve wonderlanding. I liked going there today, even if the sensations were not very "realistic", whatever that may mean.
