Aaand...it's this day again!

Happy 4 / 20



We watchend the Easter full moon rise at sundown, very pretty. It's finally warm enough to be outside even in the evening and everything is green and in bloom. We spent a lot of time outside meditating, enjoying nature and tupper even helped to change wheels of the car with adorable autism making sure all valves are in the same position. Possession has gotten stronger though tightening screws with full force still throws her out. Any sort of strong physical feedback does. But light movements requiring little strength work well now.

>when you're a forum admin making an April 1st joke but no one notices because all your users have already left as you didn't do your job properly at all



Many such cases. Sad!

Spent most of the day outside hiking through the woods.
Both meditating and imposing tupper. Was ok but not great. Alice says I'm in terrible shape and must exercise much more, wish she'd just do it as well. But possession and actual strength still don't go together well. Another really important thing to work on.

Wonderland activity was a bit dull, just couldn't get into it. We walked around and looked at everything, touched stuff but it remained even more pale as usual. Ah well, better than no practice at all.

Meditation is always a good thing to do.
Well, any sort of activity you can do together is fine I guess.

You seem to have gotten pretty far with visualization. At least way further than me.  I never went into such details, both because lazy and having a no-nonsense tupper which isn't exactly fond of watching me stare at her for hours when I could be doing more productive stuff.

How are your other senses doing? Touch, smell, audio?

And yeah, I always find it funny to rate your skills from 1 to 10. How am I supposed to know what 8 or 5 should feel like? We're definitely not extremely good at anything, compared to lucid dreams everything in wonderland or even open-eye is basically nonexistent.

Mh, Alice started typing but half way was like fuck it, don't wanna post.
She's been generally unenthusiastic for a while now having lost her initial craving for adventure.
So I guess I'll have to sum it up, maybe she'll post something short in the next days.

You bet she was concerned. She says she often feels like a parent having to keep a dreamy child from running before a truck. Pretty accurate.
Hard to say about who remembers what, our thoughts and memories often mix and the brain is great in forming a coherent story out of dream fragments afterwards. She remembers telling me to go home but didn't realize it was a dream. It was like observing me IRL. Nothing about the lucid part. There's only one dream where we really managed to interact with each other and at least tupper had good control over what was going on, that was awesome. Not for the poor dream characters involved though. Alice invaded their home, ate their food and threw their pets over the fence. I was like wait you can't do that but she insisted this was a dream so you can. Man, one day I need to draw this.

Regarding walking, usually we walk together talking and holding hands but not for meditation. Then her job is just to knock me out of daydreaming, or talking to myself or her. So it's rather her telling me to shut up than the other way round
unthinkable insolence anyway
We did train this tug-of-war style, once Alice is active and worked up I can't ignore or silence her. May take a bit but she can break through. Very proud of that.



It's much harder with possession though, on good days she can stop or override my movements but not consistently. So still lots of work there.

Meditation was a little better today after a bad start again, tupper had to interfere a lot to remind me I was supposed to not think about anything.
Practiced dancing for about 45min, hadn't done that for a while, always fun.
No wonderland stuff until now, will try before going to sleep.

What did she say was stupid? Was it indeed stupid?

Yeah, pretty stupid but the overall dream made no sense whatsoever so I guess it doesn't really count.

You perform walking meditation like a Zen monk? How is that?

Well basically you run around trying to think about nothing. It works wherever I have to go. Also I live close to a huge park so I walk there almost every day, observe nature and try to clear my mind. It's still too cold to sit anywhere for longer than a few minutes so walking is the only option.

Today it didn't go well either. Only a little better towards the end. Too many things on my mind.
Wonderland activity was better, Alice brought the giant fleas and we rode around some buildings and through tall grass. Imagine an elephant safari, pretty much that. Only the elephants were brightly copper colored fleas adorned with bells and ribbons and pretty fast for their size.
needless to say this is all Colonel's fault
Ended in intense tupper cuddling so good stuff.

Alice says she's skeptical about bronies who watch other people drool but maybe you can get her to post, she's got her own account here, hasn't used it in years because meh.