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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: January 02, 2014, 05:13:23 PM »
Hmmm, sounds pretty symbolic.

But yeah, I understand. They have a presence and a feel to them. When you talk to them, it feels different than when you just talk to yourself in your head, and this grows more distinct over time?

I hope so. Anyways, it's all day narration and shit from now on.

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Off-Topic / Re: This forum is dead
« on: January 02, 2014, 04:28:09 PM »


I actually google'd "monster ideas"

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: January 02, 2014, 04:26:43 PM »
I had head pressures before. At one point I was having them all day, constantly. Nothing exceptionally painful, but still more so than just a shitty night headache or whatever. Still, that story went nowhere.

How would you say you built on the feeling? As you paid her more attention, you said you would gradually build upon the feeling.

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Off-Topic / Re: This forum is dead
« on: January 02, 2014, 12:20:39 PM »


I googled "Quality tulpa OC".

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: January 02, 2014, 12:18:01 PM »
Quote from: Enny on January 02, 2014, 12:14:05 PM
It's weird to explain. Not sure I really can. Just.. The more I narrated, the better it felt, and the more I could keep focused. Kinda when I thought about her, she became aware that I was giving her attention, and that mutual attention created this really solid feeling all around my mind. At least that's what we're thinking. Idunno, I'll think about it, and try to explain it better in a little bit if you're still wanting stuff on it.

Did it feel any different to how you started? Or did it just feel the same, but stronger, more focused?
Did any other effects occur? How far along in the process was this?

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: January 02, 2014, 12:08:38 PM »
I'm just talking in my head normally, but as if there was another person listening. Like an internal copy of what an external one way conversation would be like.

It's mostly just me nattering away to myself and assuming my thoughts are being understood. I don't really think my thoughts would go unnoticed, I'm more concerned about them not being understood.

I also try to feel for a presence and all that bullshit but right now there's nothing much doing. I suppose with time? I'm not sure what I should be feeling first over the next week days/weeks.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: January 02, 2014, 08:09:56 AM »
Quote from: Enny on January 01, 2014, 06:49:39 PM
Somewhere through on my end, it started feeling like a switch being flipped any time thoughts were redirected towards mine, so keep at it.

Can you elaborate on this?
I'm going for full days of narration now whoa. I'll post once the day is out or tomorrow evening.

Because you're all on tenderhooks for this shit you sluts you know you are get down and beg for this beg you filthy

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: January 01, 2014, 05:52:35 PM »
Quote from: Sands on January 01, 2014, 05:48:41 PM
What about those important little things that were different we talked about, it might be a good idea to tell people about your findings. Like directing your speech to tupper vs. to yourself.

Alright.
Instead of simply talking in my head to thin air, as Sands and co. suggested, I'll be directing my thoughts to my tupper, in my head. When they initially told me how do, I believe it were ruffel who said to notice the difference between talking to myself and aiming my thought rockets at my tuppero. I do notice a slight difference, but it is extremely slight.
It'll be a long time before that'll build up to anything noticeably different, I think.

As I said, I'll keep on it, it is valuable info to me and I appreciate the help. I'll roll with it for as long as I can or as long as needs be.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: January 01, 2014, 05:43:03 PM »
Quote from: Sands on January 01, 2014, 05:42:21 PM
You're not talking about the >feels, mate.

Oh yeah.

I felt nothing.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: January 01, 2014, 05:26:37 PM »
First few uses of Eye-Bo have yielded nothing to write home about. I felt relaxed if not a little tired after listening to the descending theta. I also heard what seemed to by xylophones in the background, but that isn't supposed to be anything significant, so whatever.

After for direct tupperforcing stuff, I have officially begun in earnest.
I'll be following the advice of our very own Snads, Ruffle and waffles, which is to just direct most if not all of my thoughts to the tupper inside my head. So far it has of course made nothing much happen, but I'll update frequently, regardless of update material.
Brace anuses for empty updates tee hee.

So yeah, let's do this.
how do i start

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: January 01, 2014, 05:21:40 PM »
Quote from: Sands on January 01, 2014, 04:53:11 PM
Keep us updated with things. I also suggest you write everything you happen to notice during forcing for yourself somewhere - like here if you want it to be public - as there might be a pattern you might miss otherwise.

Sounds good. I guess I'll start now in the next post, keep things nice and tidy.

Quote from: Fede on January 01, 2014, 05:10:54 PM

yep

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: January 01, 2014, 04:16:09 PM »
Quote from: Fede on January 01, 2014, 12:57:03 PM
Quote from: Avalanche on January 01, 2014, 10:37:54 AM
Welp, it's Jan 1st, so I guess I might as well start in earnest.
You could've started in earnest any day.

No dude jan 1st is sepcail becase its the frist day of the calmendar clok thing so its epdical

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: January 01, 2014, 10:37:54 AM »
Welp, it's Jan 1st, so I guess I might as well start in earnest. Did a little forcing last night, but not as much as I'd like as I just couldn't focus as I was super tired. This was at like 1-2am because new years celebrations of course.

I still just sat in a white room with my back to my tupper, and I talked to it. Just about stupid stuff, whatever came to mind. Not quite sure where to go from here, or at what point I should stop or change it up.

Input it of course still appreciated.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: December 30, 2013, 03:15:38 PM »
Second time using Eye-Bo. I had pretty much the same experience; feel quite lightheaded and a little tired after the 30minute session, and I still heard some xylophones and what sort of sounded like a bird call at one point. I could also make the tone increase in speed at will for most of the session. Not sure if that really matters, but whatever.

Still no tupper, wondering if it's all just some lame joke omg

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Avalanche's progress report
« on: December 29, 2013, 10:18:17 AM »
Quote from: Christmas Fede on December 29, 2013, 09:34:25 AM
Watch more Eye-Bo. You can do it with open eyes like you suggested at one point, but you'd likely be much less relaxed. However, if you're willing to ignore relaxation in favour of higher contrast and thereby stronger entrainment, then go for it.

I briefly tried just looking at the screen with open eyes and I must say it was hard to look at. Closed eyes seems to be the only way to realistically do it. Half an hour of staring at that shit? No way bro.
I'll do some later tonight, as I have a free house and thus I'll be able to more easily darken the room and concentrate without having to wonder if my family members might assume I'm simply masturbating at 7pm in the evening.

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