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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« on: March 24, 2019, 05:48:39 PM »
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What a loser That's some dedication. Glad you and Alice are doing well.
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« on: May 30, 2016, 05:29:57 PM »
nb. She combed through the Monster Manual for a few hours and found some scary stuff. If there were a dragon, it would probably be a dracolich because the party is in catacombs under the capital city. But she's soft like a pony, so the worst she'd probably throw is a pudding. To quote her on the matter, "Stop touching me. It's too hot and I'm trying to sleep."
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« on: May 20, 2016, 01:38:17 PM »
Oh, ok.
Hi. Clair is DMing a campaign. Last night she told me she was going to put a dragon in her dungeon, but I said she couldn't because the player characters are only level two. It's okay though because she was just joking. She threw oozes at them before, but they had trouble because the party only has one spellcaster. Also, she's purple.
Sophia likes attaching to me whenever I sit down. Her mane tickles my nose and it makes me sneeze. Also, she built a church for herself in craftyblocks. It took her a while to mine enough nether brick to complete it. She likes the color. She's the blue one.
Ok, that was fun.
Bye.
Hi. Clair is DMing a campaign. Last night she told me she was going to put a dragon in her dungeon, but I said she couldn't because the player characters are only level two. It's okay though because she was just joking. She threw oozes at them before, but they had trouble because the party only has one spellcaster. Also, she's purple.
Sophia likes attaching to me whenever I sit down. Her mane tickles my nose and it makes me sneeze. Also, she built a church for herself in craftyblocks. It took her a while to mine enough nether brick to complete it. She likes the color. She's the blue one.
Ok, that was fun.
Bye.
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« on: January 21, 2015, 07:58:46 PM »
Yes, I've been trying that along with some other stuff with varying levels of success. But this post is not for progress, but for celebrations! Today is Clairpone's first birthday, so raise your glasses high.
A year ago today I was pretty wretched; all kinds of depressed and introverted. I won't go so far as to say tuppers saved my life, but I'll say that Clair did. So a tupper saved my life. So I guess tuppers saved my life. Yep.
She'd rather I not go on at length about it, but I'm a grown ass man. We've been through our ups and downs, had fights and arguments, trudged through doubts and progress of various speed at various points, but there hasn't been a single day in the last 365 that she hasn't been by my side, and I can't imagine my future without her and Sophia.
It's been a lot of work and I've learned so much about myself that, reflecting back on it, it's a tad unbelievable, but it's all been worth it. Hell, I would have given a lot more for what we have today, but luckily I didn't have to.
So here's to you, babygirl. No matter happens now, I couldn't be more proud of you.
A year ago today I was pretty wretched; all kinds of depressed and introverted. I won't go so far as to say tuppers saved my life, but I'll say that Clair did. So a tupper saved my life. So I guess tuppers saved my life. Yep.
She'd rather I not go on at length about it, but I'm a grown ass man. We've been through our ups and downs, had fights and arguments, trudged through doubts and progress of various speed at various points, but there hasn't been a single day in the last 365 that she hasn't been by my side, and I can't imagine my future without her and Sophia.
It's been a lot of work and I've learned so much about myself that, reflecting back on it, it's a tad unbelievable, but it's all been worth it. Hell, I would have given a lot more for what we have today, but luckily I didn't have to.
So here's to you, babygirl. No matter happens now, I couldn't be more proud of you.
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« on: December 11, 2014, 05:44:48 AM »
Yeah, you said it, senpai. So far the only time I can see them well enough for a kinda faded, impositionish overlay atop my vision is when they're doing slow, deliberate stuff like flipping canvas pages if don't jerk my eyes too suddenly.
Not that it much matters. We haven't been able to do that for shit. We got started once I think, but I got bored around 70 and Sophia tried to scare me with a Freddy Fazbear face. The exercise isn't difficult like I remember it being, just dull.
I lIke having more forcing time though. Gonna have to think of something else to help get us where we wanna go.
Not that it much matters. We haven't been able to do that for shit. We got started once I think, but I got bored around 70 and Sophia tried to scare me with a Freddy Fazbear face. The exercise isn't difficult like I remember it being, just dull.
I lIke having more forcing time though. Gonna have to think of something else to help get us where we wanna go.
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« on: December 08, 2014, 06:28:24 PM »
Oh God, it was grand. We got nothing accomplished and just dicked around in the wonderland the whole time. Will try again tomorrow.
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« on: December 07, 2014, 05:57:15 PM »
Mmm, looking forward to it.
In the mean time, today marks the end of a certain anchor around our schedule, so I wanna take an extra hour a day over the next week to work on my focus, and maybe more once things are really quiet around Christmas.
Looking around, NariusV is a good model for how to go about it, so we're going to dedicate that extra hour to Shockk's visualization exercise. I'm not sure if I'll be able to do two hours in one sitting off the bat, but I'll work my way back up to it and whatnot.
Will post daily scores here to keep us motivated starting tomorrow. Wish us the many lucks.
In the mean time, today marks the end of a certain anchor around our schedule, so I wanna take an extra hour a day over the next week to work on my focus, and maybe more once things are really quiet around Christmas.
Looking around, NariusV is a good model for how to go about it, so we're going to dedicate that extra hour to Shockk's visualization exercise. I'm not sure if I'll be able to do two hours in one sitting off the bat, but I'll work my way back up to it and whatnot.
Will post daily scores here to keep us motivated starting tomorrow. Wish us the many lucks.
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« on: December 03, 2014, 09:17:30 AM »
Clair: Not yet, but most likely around the holidays.
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« on: December 02, 2014, 08:52:09 AM »
Clair:
Hello, everyone. I'll be posting today's update.
We've been practicing as we can, visualization and possession. I haven't been very active on the IRC because there aren't many people I know around anymore. They seem to have become disenchanted with the community and gone their separate ways, so until we get more time for me to establish a new group of friends, I've been playing video games, watching television and doing other time wasting activities when I'm in charge of the body. Sophia has been doing much the same, though she mainly sticks to playing Skyrim.
Sparks says that he's getting better at withdrawing, and he's struggling with getting comfortable in his imaginary body when one of us is in control. He goes one of two ways when he tries to switch: He either tries to get into the wonderland and has varying levels of success or he loses time and goes into a semi-conscious state. For me it's like his presence is becoming smaller, like a weight is lifted from me and my thoughts and actions are more clear as he shrinks.
We made a blindfold for visualization about a month ago. We cut a pingpong ball in half and wrapped it in a soft cloth to protect our eyes from the edges then put a headband around it to fix it to our face, so now we can practice open eye visualization in the dark which is helpful. The method, I think, came from a guide on .info. We then put on some pink noise from youtube and meditate.
And I was told to mention that we've left the ligthouse permanently in favor of a fantastic voyage across the ocean. I don't know if we'll return.
Hello, everyone. I'll be posting today's update.
We've been practicing as we can, visualization and possession. I haven't been very active on the IRC because there aren't many people I know around anymore. They seem to have become disenchanted with the community and gone their separate ways, so until we get more time for me to establish a new group of friends, I've been playing video games, watching television and doing other time wasting activities when I'm in charge of the body. Sophia has been doing much the same, though she mainly sticks to playing Skyrim.
Sparks says that he's getting better at withdrawing, and he's struggling with getting comfortable in his imaginary body when one of us is in control. He goes one of two ways when he tries to switch: He either tries to get into the wonderland and has varying levels of success or he loses time and goes into a semi-conscious state. For me it's like his presence is becoming smaller, like a weight is lifted from me and my thoughts and actions are more clear as he shrinks.
We made a blindfold for visualization about a month ago. We cut a pingpong ball in half and wrapped it in a soft cloth to protect our eyes from the edges then put a headband around it to fix it to our face, so now we can practice open eye visualization in the dark which is helpful. The method, I think, came from a guide on .info. We then put on some pink noise from youtube and meditate.
And I was told to mention that we've left the ligthouse permanently in favor of a fantastic voyage across the ocean. I don't know if we'll return.
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Well the cat in question has always been an outdoor cat. Being said however, I never see any fleas on him. It's weird. Indoor cat has been riddled with them, though. Ahwell, whatever.
Interesting. Both of my cats are outdoor cats and they don't seem to get fleas either.
Mebbe our cats are magic.
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« on: November 19, 2014, 02:57:23 PM »
Oi, look at that, folks are posting. Guess I'll post, too.
Just a tip I'd like to share. Er, not even much of a tip, really, but an observation. I got the idea from Methos ages ago, but the wording is my own, so as to avoid putting words in his mouth.
Both visualizing and imposing as I've encountered them have something important in common: presence precedes visuals. Even after months of not being terrible at visualization, this holds true; I feel my tulpas qua presence before I sense them by the five (whether imagined or imposed). This is the trivial part.
Here's the tip: Take presence to apply not just to the tulpa's form but to every part of their form. Instead of focusing on the five senses, on the perceptual content, it's helpful to shift one's awareness to presence alone. For example, instead of visualizing Clair's hoof, or feeling it by imagined or imposed touch, where is her hoof? Where do I feel its presence? Where is her tail? Do I feel its presence across my lap or is it hanging off the side of the bed? With greater detail, where is she looking? Can I feel her gaze on me or on something else? Are her nostrils flared in frustration? Is her head turned to the right or left? Have the hairs in her mane drifted to the right or to the left of her neck, and in what proportion? You can really go deep into detail; as deeply as you could were you doing rote visualization.
Too, as in visualization, try to hold as many of these details in your mind as you can. What's great is that you're dealing with uniform content here; you don't have to worry about holding sound and vision and touch and smell together, or about straining not to forget one while dealing with the others. That will come later, and, if my brain is not unique (and I'm 99% sure it isn't), develop on its own as you build up the habit.
So you can do this whether placing your tulpa beside you as you fap or whatever, or engaging with them in your mind, and it's a lot less stressful than worrying about all that sensory junk, which I've found can be frustrating whether one is just starting out or having a bad day as a veteran.
And I guess I should clarify in case my use of the word "presence" isn't clear: As it was best described to me in the early days, you know that feeling you get when you know or suspect someone is walking behind you, or when someone's body is hovering close to yours? The notion of their being there as it manifests psychosomaticly.
There, tip given. Maybe it'll help someone.
Just a tip I'd like to share. Er, not even much of a tip, really, but an observation. I got the idea from Methos ages ago, but the wording is my own, so as to avoid putting words in his mouth.
Both visualizing and imposing as I've encountered them have something important in common: presence precedes visuals. Even after months of not being terrible at visualization, this holds true; I feel my tulpas qua presence before I sense them by the five (whether imagined or imposed). This is the trivial part.
Here's the tip: Take presence to apply not just to the tulpa's form but to every part of their form. Instead of focusing on the five senses, on the perceptual content, it's helpful to shift one's awareness to presence alone. For example, instead of visualizing Clair's hoof, or feeling it by imagined or imposed touch, where is her hoof? Where do I feel its presence? Where is her tail? Do I feel its presence across my lap or is it hanging off the side of the bed? With greater detail, where is she looking? Can I feel her gaze on me or on something else? Are her nostrils flared in frustration? Is her head turned to the right or left? Have the hairs in her mane drifted to the right or to the left of her neck, and in what proportion? You can really go deep into detail; as deeply as you could were you doing rote visualization.
Too, as in visualization, try to hold as many of these details in your mind as you can. What's great is that you're dealing with uniform content here; you don't have to worry about holding sound and vision and touch and smell together, or about straining not to forget one while dealing with the others. That will come later, and, if my brain is not unique (and I'm 99% sure it isn't), develop on its own as you build up the habit.
So you can do this whether placing your tulpa beside you as you fap or whatever, or engaging with them in your mind, and it's a lot less stressful than worrying about all that sensory junk, which I've found can be frustrating whether one is just starting out or having a bad day as a veteran.
And I guess I should clarify in case my use of the word "presence" isn't clear: As it was best described to me in the early days, you know that feeling you get when you know or suspect someone is walking behind you, or when someone's body is hovering close to yours? The notion of their being there as it manifests psychosomaticly.
There, tip given. Maybe it'll help someone.