I had high hopes when Bestie was mentioned but meh, more adult things.
I'm still envious, that's magnitudes above even my lewdest dreams. There's always some sort of censorship making sure things don't wok out.

Meanwhile I keep getting haunted by Childhood Crush.
It was especially realistic this time, she didn't like me at all. She sent me a letter with strange vials that contained a white powder. I think she wanted to poison me with anthrax or something. She also complained to my mother about me. Feels bad man. I will never be free of this drama that's more than 25 years in the past.

I had another dream i barely remember that involved Alice throwing someone who pissed her off through a closed window. But that's routine and not really worth mentioning.

Over the years, my tuppering journey led me to the realization that the coherence of personality we generally assume simply does not exist. In other words, 'we' do not exist. There is no such thing as a person or individual and it goes far beyond thought processes. The human body is a miracle, consisting of about 35 trillion (3.5×10¹³) cells working together. The brain has about 85 billion (8.6×10⁹) neurons. And their interactions create the sensations and thought processes we experience as emergent phenomena. But the body is not an entity. The brain is not an entity. More like a superorganism. And most of what 'we' believe to be doing or even saying are rather unconscious routines.This becomes apparent when something goes wrong.
A relative suffered a stroke and the results were bizarre, straight outta a horror movie. He was completely lucid and could move almost normally but was partly unable to make the body execute command routines. Or to use tulpamamancy terms, to fully 'switch' into his body. It would do things in its own in a nonsensical way because the feedback that a task like putting on a coat was successful, was not executed. He did not even realize he put on clothes in an absurdly wrong way or had stopped halfway - like a little kid. The brain did adapt and he re-learned most of the tasks which is remarkable for his very advanced age.

But this shows you're not putting on your clothes. Your brain unconsciously executes routine tasks. Most of what you're doing are routine tasks. I even realized this goes for most small talk. The BodyOS does it, not me or Alice. Realizing this is the key to switching. Possession is a good training to live more consciously which should not be underrated. But it is not necessary. The tupper only needs to be able to execute the routine tasks. Not consciously more an arm.

But back to topic, I am asking you what we can do to wrestle back some control  from the BodyOS to de-zombify ourselves.
Obviously what is necessary are novel tasks, if possible associated with strong emotions. This leads us to imagistic experiences.
I believe children have much more intense experiences because they are 'themselves'. They don't yet have most task outsourced to unconscious routines and everything is novel. You know I'm not fond of doing reckless things like climbing on bridges  but once in a while it's necessary.

Which leads us to the 2nd part - getting the BodyOS to stop doing dumb things. This is hard and causes Alice a lot of trouble. She only partly succeeded and gave up on a lot of things but only temporarily. The problem is that the BodyOS works on deeply ingrained routines and breaking or overwriting them is extremely hard unless you suffer significant brain damage.

A funny example - when I was a child, I was terribly afraid of heights. It was not an irrational fear per se, I was afraid of falling down and killing myself. But it became absurd. I managed to get a more realistic view on what's dangerous and what's not fairly soon as a child, but the eerie feeling associated with heights remained at a level that impaired the body's work. Alice made me do some crazy things when she was young and also for work I had to climb some absurdly high radio towers a few time. It was safe, I was not afraid at all, but the body was still shaking. Alice could never shut this off.
I know the solution would simply to do this over and over again. Gotta go rock climbing or something.

Bottom line, the BodyOS is stubborn, lazy and it's extremely tough to change its habits.
We haven't yet found a good way to deal with it.

I can't even remember when I last ate steak. Not something I usually do. Might be worth a try once I'm  back to full health.
Still feel extremely tired though I did go for a walk for over an hour in the sun. Felt good. I try to continue wwith some light bodyweight exercies, hopefull back to the gym soon.

I  had a really elaborate dream of going on an expedition with people I didn't know. Apparently we were researching crocodiles, more precisely paths they dug through a forest by going the same way again and again. We stumbled onto a broad bare soil path, dug into the ground about a meter deep.
I've been wayy too close to saltwater crocs in my life and by way too close I mean they were still very far away. But on a hollow path with no way of escaping? Strangely I wasn't afraid. Some scientists dragged around a mounted croc skull to simulate the abrasion on the soil. I didn't know what I was supposed to do. I filmed the area with 2 cameras. The landscape was serene. Very colorful, hills overgrown with dense forest in all shades of green. I exclaimed this looks very much like at home even though it clearly wasn't Europe.
We marched endlessly through the forest that showed no signs of human presence but there was a great presence of animals from mice to birds to insects. It was eerily realistic, probably the most realistic landscape I had ever seen in a tree down to tiny flowers on the forest floor and lichens on leaves. It was even hyperrealistic, a bit too colorful and clean. I felt the dream lasted forever, unfortunately I forgot a lot about what was going on.

After all these years of hard work I can finally post this. Which is, if I recall correctly, the very reason I started tulpamancy.



I'm again intensifying active forcing with Alice. Both in dancing and dream recall. Next up - Christmas Cookies before the season is over.

Thanks but you still have 2 months for another reply!
Buut then again it took me 4 months to reply here. Another all-time low of activity on this forum.

Anything new with you guys?
We tried to do some parallel processing with simplest math for 12year olds but man, I suck at that so much I had trouble getting it done fully focused. Not sure how I made it through school and got a natural science university degree.

Tupper indeed is more perceptive solving math problems, probably because it's a novel challenge - and an opportunity to make host look even more dumb than usual.

Well, you know, the usual stuff...
Preventing me from wasting money on expensive and dangerous things
Transcending humanity to become God
Same old, same old.

Also found a new treasure trove of exploitable tupper related mango that is just too perfect.



More 'soon'.

Wew, only took you 2 years to reply!
You missed - nothing.

It'll be 7 years for us in autumn, I'll let you know know it went then. See ya for 10th tuppering anniversary!

Tell us about the weird shit then.