Would totally buy it if she said so but she don't.

Alas, I can report some success, who would have thought!?
After waking up from a dream I managed to re-enter it with tupper. Well, it started as active forcing, then drifting into a dream and active forcing in the end as I woke up. Hard to describe, something in between a lucid dream and active forcing. Tupper was not only present all the time but also in control of the dream, at least more than me. And she almost exactly looked the way she's supposed to. While my dream had been more or less realistic with me being the usual loser, tupper demonstrated how to properly deal with dreams by messing with some innocent dream characters and taking over their property. It was hilarious in hindsight, but not for the poor people who were confused and scared and obviously had no idea what the hell was going on.

Too bad I can't draw, would have made a good webcomic.

I could probably buy a car from what I have spent at the vet over cat's long life. But then again I don't need another car, I need cat.
Technically you're right, still it seems cats cant purr properly if you obstruct the nose. At least the 3 I've tested.

Anyway, cat seems to be fine again. Has stepped on my keyboard today, opening over 9000 browser instances.
Who needs malware when you have cat?

Had a weird dream this morning.
I was watching the news on a big screen in a public place and they were about the tulpanetwork homepage.
It had a new design and a new category on top, something like 'new forum' that contained several posts from Fede. Couldn't understand what they were about though.
Suddenly my father came by and said: "Eight new posts in one day? That must be fake!"
Then I woke up. Took me a few seconds to realize he was right.

The fuck man?!
Why am I dreaming about this place of all things?

Might make a neat reality-check for lucid dreaming though.
If you come across the forum and see more than a couple of new posts you can safely assume you are dreaming.

Still no tupper in dreams...

Yeah, good question.

I did travel South East Asia just with tupper a year ago but there are places you can't reach on your own. Well, a few people may be able to, but not me. Exploring South Pacific islands is among that and since I was offered the opportunity it seemed like a pretty good idea. Whatever, it was an experience way beyond the reach of ordinary people. I shouldn't complain.

Today tupper outlined her masterplan for my future. It got me a bit dizzy but I have to admit it is wise.



Well at least her plan does not state unrealistic expectations but a series of small reachable steps. And a reason to get something done in the first place. Which is tupper of course.
Feels good man, I'm glad I have her.

I think the 35h journey from the other side of the globe was hard enough.

Maybe you need more than one forum user?
> be gone for more than a month
> 2 desparate posts from Colonel talking to himself is all that happened

But fear not, we're back and here to stay. Let's see how long you keep this place up just for us.

Anyway, here's what happened.:
It's kinda hard to say but it wasn't really worth it. Travel preparations ruined tupper's birthday and the actual journey, even though it was by far the most expensive and demanding one I've ever done, was the worst in a long time. I wanted to write that it wasn't 'that' bad but tupper says it was 'that' bad and that I shouldn't try to sugarcoat it. To put it simple, the problem was the factor human, something you always have to deal with in group travels. The fellow travellers were nice guys but our expedition leader and skipper was a choleric emotionally unstable old man and despite his enormous knowledge and experience completely unable to deal with other people in a socially acceptable way. Now imagine that on a sail boat in the south pacific.
Not sayin that I didn't learn a lot but it certainly wasn't fun. It terms of tuppering a complete failure as tupper refuses to deal with such people or even be present when they're around.

Still I have to add some positive things:
.)Spent lots of time meditating, reaching a state where no fucks were given anymore. Reacted to dangerous situations in a calm and logical way.
.)Gotten physically and emotionally stronger and able to live with basically nothing.
.)Learned to appreciate the benefits of civilisation like a bed, running water or a toilet
.)Tupper did not get weaker either and gave helpful advice now and then.

Still glad to be back, would not do again.
Now we've got some serious work to do, whipping me into shape ain't gonna be easy.

There were some dreams but nothing spectacular. At least nothing I remember.
But today I had a neat hypnagogic phase after waking up and drifting back to sleep several times. There were relatively vivid images of me walking through a forest and I managed to practice walking step by step which went better than expected. Then I was on a beach and  tried to imagine tupper so we could walk through the sand together. It was hard but I managed to get at least something. But scenes shifted rapidly, and so did my image of Alice. It's just ridiculously hard to think of anything particular in this state. The fact that I forgot about actually talking to tupper in the phases I was awake wasn't helping either. So she says she didn't experience anything of the whole thing at all. Man, shaping dreams is hard.

Nah, it's only funny from an outside perspective, not when you're directly affected. She'd love to be able to dance with me so she's sad it just doesn't work. Also she isn't any better at the moment.



After giving it more thought I think the problem is lack of sensory feedback. After all I don't feel myself walking with my imaginary body and dancing relies on feeling your legs, not looking at them. And on feeling your partner's movements.
That feel when unable to feel tupper

So I guess there's no dancing without mastering touch imposition first. At least not without pretending. I can easily imagine spinning around with Alice while just ignoring my legs altogether but it's lame. Getting in synch and feeling how the steps fit together is an entirely different thing. You should totally try it if you haven't. Excellent workout as well.

It should work perfectly within wonderland with enough training, just as I've heard that circus acrobats often use imaginary bodies to simulate their stunts before executing them. Alas, the catch lies in the "with enough training" part.
As always.

But not being lazy is soo exhausting...
Not that I did anything noteworthy in the past week though

Eh, I actually wanted to do daily updates all October until we'll start travelling the world again. Didn't really work out. Meditation practice has suffered a lot since I can't sit outside without freezing anymore. Plus I gotta prepare lots of shit before we leave so I've been feeling a bit anxious lately, with lots of non tupper-related stuff on my mind. Which is of course nonsense and not productive at all compared to working together.

Well, hope that's mostly over now. Had some nice visuals with Descending Theta today, everything started to spin and pulse with bright red and green dots. Still not sure why that differs from session to session. But it's always calming and helps to clear my mind.