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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Imposing fuzzballs
« on: September 25, 2013, 01:34:53 PM »
As far as 'weird things' are concerned, you already see hallucinations. Usually something you think is a face or a person that is actually just a tree or something. We just brush it off very quickly. Same goes for audio hallucinations--hearing your name. Or have you ever been sure you felt your phone vibrating in your pocket, or were you sure a spider was crawling on you? These are actually full on hallucinations half the time, sometimes even with two aspects at once (ie Both hearing the vibrating phone and feeling it when it was not vibrating/not even in your pocket)

When I first started imposition I was constantly searching for hallucinations, so I found them. All of the above were more pronounced as I was purposely paying attention to them. Much like how we are more aware of hypnogogia than the average person despite it happening just as much, I think some might be more aware of just how faulty our eyesight actually is. There's actually a TED talk on hallucination--they were talking about how common they are, but how few people will mention them for fear of seeming insane. It's really very very interesting.

But aside from those common things, no. I haven't seen random nonexistent people nor have I seen my nastier intrusive thoughts pop up in my vision. Sometimes I have difficulty imposing Giselle if she is running around switching forms on me, but that's the only time there seem to be any distortions.


I think mostly it's like everything else in tulpaforcing--People often worry in the beginning that their tulpa will talk to them so much they will get distracted from work when in reality it is more common to be so distracted from work that one forgets to talk to their tulpa. Same pretty much has happened as far as imposition--rather than Jaden or Giselle distracting me from what's physical, what's physical still often distracts me from seeing them clearly. It's very easy still for me to break through. Only when I'm seriously not even thinking about it is it pretty solid for long periods of time.

But that's just my experience. No demons or spooky entities seen here. Definitely always keeping an eye out for anything off.

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Tulpa Diaries / Imposing fuzzballs
« on: September 25, 2013, 12:50:26 AM »
Let's see if this time I can keep a progress thread updated relatively often!


A bit of an intro here, I've been forcing for a year--nearly a year and a half now. I have two tulpas, Jaden and Giselle. Both are small quadruped animals of their own design. Through a lot of set backs and difficulties we have managed to come very far in imposition. At this point I would say we are finished with imposing presence and touch (including warmth, weight, etc) while sight and sound still need some work. Some days they will be fully imposed the whole day while other days they will be faded and will take some dedicated forcing to 'work our way back up to it'. More often than not they stay imposed when I am smart enough to not worry about it to much. Reading together, watching a movie, hanging out at work, these are times when they are there without question. But if I were to look Jaden in the face and try to stare at him directly for a long period of time, he tends to fade or I accidentally stare right through him. There have been times when we would have a long conversation that gets interrupted by my accidental 'spot checking' that just destroys the whole illusion all together. Very frustrating.

Giselle brought up the fact that we never really worked too hard on smelling imposition--They have a scent but I guess it's not as solid as it could be. She mentioned that since smell is often linked to memory that perhaps getting that solidified will help keep the rest of the imposition work stable. We'll see what happens I guess.

This log will basically document experiments in imposition(and keeping it stable) as well as just going over the ups and downs of life with tulpas. We will probably discuss lucid dreaming and how it relates to them as well, as that has been something we have been working at recently.


If Nate, my fiance, decides to post, I'll probably have him make a sub-account for him as well. His tulpas already have them available if they choose to use them, but they are rather private individuals, so we'll see where that goes.

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General Discussion / Re: Host Age
« on: September 21, 2013, 12:51:36 AM »
It's definitely an interesting concept.

There are a few reasons why I might suggest some younger folk to wait a while before making a tulpa. One of the reasons is really just to do with how much life changes for someone younger like that--The expectations between junior high, high school, and then moving on to college--all of that can be a chaotic time where priorities are changed and honestly lots of kids are still figuring out who they are. I can see how for some kids, a tulpa could help them through this time--hell, from studying a bit into DID/Multiplicity, those younger times when things are crazy are when a lot of them started to develop what we might here label as an accidental tulpa. Simply because they needed that second opinion, or that person to be there for them when everything else was changing.

I know I have seen some posts made by younger users that have made me nearly rip out my hair in frustration, but as others have said here, same can be said for the older immature users. We've all seen plenty of twenty somethings or thirty somethings who are just as controlled by immature urges and thoughts as you would expect a much younger kid to be--well, since they just never grew out of it.

It can be tough to decide an age restriction on a site, however. Especially with a community like this where people may be in dire need of help or advice to get them through a tough time.  But there is definitely an amount of maturity that is gained from age and experience that many younger kids will lack, even if they are extremely mature-for their age.

Then again many immature kids will grow up and those tulpas who may or not be fully independent at this point in time may also develop their own independence in time as they grow together. But then there will be others who are uninterested in personal growth--I guess that's their own choice, though.

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