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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Lost's Diary
« on: October 08, 2013, 07:57:06 PM »
So, I've done as I said I was, and simply started with my narration. Nothing was really out of the ordinary.

However, something last night was interesting. I was ending my night in my usual way. Hopped off of the computer, did my chores, bathroom, then bed. It is while in bed that I do a fair bit of my narrating. Now, to be fair, I do not necessarily have a busy life (though I do have a rather busy schedule). Most of my day-to-day is likely to bore anyone. So, I spend a lot of my time "narrating" emotions, and my more candid thoughts. It's amazing how you can lie to yourself in your head, but I digress.

During this process, I had a bit of what felt like a dream sequence of images. These were very realistic, where I saw the image of a younger girl in what appeared to be a sort of Shinto / Buddhist temple. I however, remain somewhat skeptical of this as anything important. I've had lucid dreams before in that sort of environment, with another character before. This might very well have been a result of my being on the border of the awake / asleep border, an idea on how to progress with this, or any other number of things.  In any case, keeping it documented for further reference may come in handy, and I may end up toying with it in the near or distant future to see how it feels.

Edit: For what it's worth, lucid dreaming is something I've been toying with off and on for the last several years.

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Off-Topic / Re: MOVIES
« on: October 08, 2013, 07:41:56 PM »
I do not necessarily watch movies. I think it's been about 4 years now.

I usually stick to anime.

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General Discussion / Re: Eye-Bo, the Ocular Fitness Program!
« on: October 06, 2013, 07:14:26 PM »
Sounds fun. I've not messed with an audio-visual one before. They were mostly all strictly audio. Will give it a try once I can get a pair of headphones.

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Off-Topic / Re: Home cookin'
« on: October 06, 2013, 05:06:02 PM »
I would take the rice, fully cooked already, and toss it into the pan to heat up. After that, I would beat some eggs and pour it in. While cooking the eggs, I'd scramble them up while in it, then add salt.

Remember to cool your rice first. This is more to Intel because he asked but cool your rice or it'll get pretty sticky real fast. You probably meant that with heating it in the pan again but I just want to stress it and spell it out.

Yep. I usually make all my rice before hand, and let it sit in the fridge. I'll be damned if I have to make more of it every morning.

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Off-Topic / Re: Home cookin'
« on: October 06, 2013, 11:36:10 AM »
I would take the rice, fully cooked already, and toss it into the pan to heat up. After that, I would beat some eggs and pour it in. While cooking the eggs, I'd scramble them up while in it, then add salt.

Or, you could try a variation of this, with just the rice and eggs, unless you'd like to try the rest.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Lost's Diary
« on: October 06, 2013, 07:57:07 AM »
So "forcing" a personality probably isn't going to hurt you at all, just give you a topic to talk about.
Duly noted.

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I did tons of personality work because that was the thing you did back in the day. While I can definitely see some of that in Roswell, how he actually ended up was a really big surprise. Like, maybe I can still slap some of the same traits I used on him now, but they're used very differently from what I had in mind. He also is very different now than he was when he just got vocal, so time has done a lot to shape him, too.

Same with form really, it's quite simple to just change if the tulpa wants to. Nothing is locked down just because you do it and who knows, working on a form might be the best way to see if deviations do happen.

Buuuuut narration is always a thing. Personality or form work might be a nice thing to do now and then, though. Give you something else to do to break out of your routine for shits and giggles.
I had already figured something like that might happen as well. I was merely planning on not doing anything specific until I got some idea to at least play around with. I figured I'd either get a bit of inspiration or an idea that would just seem out of nowhere. In either case, I'll get there when I get there.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Lost's Diary
« on: October 05, 2013, 07:50:42 PM »
I plan on (aside from today) attempting a daily update on the matter on any progress. However, the biggest problem I'm facing now is, if I do indeed plan on letting the personality, form, etc..., develop over time, I'm curious how to go about forcing until that point is reached. Narration, as mentioned, sounds like the best course for now. Anything of note will, of course, be placed here, regardless of how extraordinary or insignificant it may seem at the time.

As far as falling asleep, I personally don't see it as much of a problem. Reason being? I have a sleep disorder (diagnosed, mind you) that greatly inhibits my sleep quality. I haven't had a decent night of sleep but twice in the last 15 years or so. The first was after being put under for surgery, and the second was after a dose of NyQuil before bed. Another means of being able to fall asleep would be quite welcome.

But I digress. My schedule and all is usually rather flexible, so I don't see too much getting in the way.

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Tulpa Diaries / Lost's Diary
« on: October 05, 2013, 12:25:50 PM »
Okay, so I can finally start working on this.

A little background, however. Like many others, I came across the concept of a tulpa through one CreepyPasta entry mentioned by a friend. At first, I thought nothing of it. Artificial thought-form given sentience? Read into it before. However, and I don't remember the exact chain of events, but something happened, and I came to the old site. I'm not exactly one for coincidences, so I continued to look into it. I read around for a few days, read about 6 of the guides or so, and figured the people there were at least somewhat big into it. Then, I joined the chat room, figured it'd be better to talk to some of the people there to get a better idea.

I spent a good several hours in there, over the course of a few days and asked around. Asked a few questions, tried to find some of the logic behind the phenomenon, and found my own rationalization for the process. I disappeared for a few months to think it over, and recently decided to go through with it a couple weeks ago.

With all of that said, I do not necessarily have a plan for this. I do not have a set name, sex, personality, appearance, or any of that decided on right now. I am going with the rationalization that either I will get a feeling for it later on and use that, or I'll simply let it decide on all of that on it's own.

The plan is to be on mostly narrating while doing other things, with more dedicated sessions in the morning and at night before bed. Early to bed, early to rise, gives me plenty of time. (Down with the sun, and up with it too.) Changes in plan will be noted as time progresses.

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Sunday, December 29, 2013
After some thought, I've come decided to make a few changes to the original plan. These deviations include a more concrete personality, gender, appearance, and so forth. I will, however, be keeping these plans to myself until further notice. I'm aware these are subject to change at whims not my own, but at least I have a place to begin now.

Additionally, I feel it important to note that I may be taking a forced absence from the internet as more bills accumulate over the money we're earning. A loss of internet, as well as possible eviction are likely until further notice.

With that said, I plan on taking some precautions now, which include saving some files, and writing up a sort of diary of events that take place while I'm gone.

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Off-Topic / Re: VIDEO GAMES
« on: October 03, 2013, 06:40:17 AM »
Also: Have you achieved CHIM yet?  I have.

Becoming the TUPPER GURU makes you achieve CHIM.

Ha!

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General Discussion / Re: Tulpae Awareness
« on: October 02, 2013, 09:41:05 AM »
My biggest concern with the mainstreaming of the tulpa phenomenon would be the large increase of people using them to escape reality. There really should be a set social competence standard before learning about it.

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Off-Topic / Re: SPORTS
« on: October 02, 2013, 09:14:46 AM »
Watching sports is a big no for me, I can't see how it can stay interesting for more than 10 minutes at a time.
Especially football (or soccer for you murkans), even though in Italy everyone loves football.
Most people who watch sports obsessively like that (To the point of rioting, whether their team wins or loses.) usually do so because it's a pride thing. They project themselves onto "their" team to the point that they feel that they're actually involved in it. "They're representing me and my people." Winning means you're the best, and I suppose some people fall pretty hard to being second.

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Off-Topic / Re: VIDEO GAMES
« on: October 02, 2013, 09:11:47 AM »
...many of the characters lacked a certain... personality.

Crassius Curio. All is forgiven. House Hlaalu forever.
I said many. Should have been most. xP We had Fargoth that got picked on a lot and hated the guards for it. Ahnassi which was a monk that stole things but couldn't bring herself to hurt anyone. Crassius... Was Crassius.

Speaking of Hlaalu, some of their quests were fun. There's an earlier one where you're told to kill a competor's Kwama Queen, and if you go to him and talk about it, he'll bribe you to ignore the quest. But if you do it anyway, you pretty much got double favor for doing it anyway. Then you were praised for "understanding how House Hlaalu does business."[/quote] Or the first one where you're asked to put on a helmet and impersonate someone else.

It's a shame that Redoran ended up being the main house to come out on top. I wonder if that was Vivec's doing, as he preferred that House.

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Off-Topic / Re: VIDEO GAMES
« on: October 01, 2013, 02:21:03 PM »
Seconding Morrowind. Man do I love that game. Sure it's a bit clunky and ugly, but some of that can be modded away. But it really is the world I fell in love with, something the later games haven't quite replicated yet. The people, the culture, all of that. It felt like a really hostile world that hated me, something alien and not your average generic European medieval fantasy world. I'll never forget my first trip from Seyda Neen to Balmora. It was dark and raining. All those weird sounds around you... Man, it just sent chills down my spine.

Yes, yes. You know of which I speak. The gameplay really was rather lacking, the conversations were repetitive and many of the characters lacked a certain... personality. I think a part of that problem was simply the large numbers of NPC's to begin with. Skyrim in particular seems rather... empty in comparison. They can't really help it, though. The company was dying, so they needed to put out a lot of stuff with a lot of options very quickly. The game did save them.

That is something you don't really get in the newer ones either. It was way more alien. Undead are always undead. But comparing bears, deer, rabbits, various large felines to cliff racers, kagouti, guar, etc..., and it's definitely going to have you paying attention at first. I remember my first trip through a... Believe it was a Dunmer Stronghold. Undead and the Corpus beasts everywhere. Ominous music, and dark hallways with occasional torches and red lights.

And, as you said, it was a harsh, unforgiving area that wanted you dead. If it's not mages lacking hindsight falling from the sky, it's the guards, and the many non-outlanders who curse you as you walk by, only refraining from cutting out your throat because then it's either jail, or death for them as well. There were issues affecting everyone. Issues with taxes, the slave trade, rotten nobles, etc... A lot of this, however, was butchered by the dialogue system either way.

Hopefully, the work from Skywind and possibly OpenMW will help alleviate some of this.

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Off-Topic / Re: SPORTS
« on: October 01, 2013, 03:55:02 AM »
Soccer would be mine too. However, I don't watch the game, never cared to watch others play it. I'd have rather played myself.

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Off-Topic / Re: VIDEO GAMES
« on: October 01, 2013, 03:53:55 AM »
My favorite would have to be Chrono Trigger, which was originally for the Super Nintendo, but can be found on Nintendo DS and the Playstation, as well as a dozen other places. The story, music, gameplay and even the art (for a game from 1995 on the SNES, anyway) was really quite something. Unlike it's sequel of Chrono Cross, I feel Trigger has better character development. Cross simply has too many people and it ends up focusing on a minor amount of them. Plenty of history, dialogue, etc... I like to look at my RPG's as an interactive book, with music. I miss my silent protagonist RPGs.

Lately, though, I'm hopping back and forth between an MMO and Morrowind. I like Morrowind, it's my favorite TES title, but some of the gameplay really is kinda weird. Looking forward to Skywind.

As for making the thread, I like games, but not necessarily to the point where I go on about them.

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