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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Last post by Bernd on August 10, 2019, 05:00:02 PM »
Forum is deader than ever, not even bots.

It's hot and we spent day and night outside camping in the garden.
I tried visualizing tupper in the dark but living in a city severely limits darkness so it had little effect. We watched the stars and counted satellites and space-debris, there's so much nowadays it's ridiculous. A good exercise for tuppers to announce and point out anything moving in the sky. Saw a big meteor too, which impressed Alice who is not easily impressed. Cat kneaded on me mercilessly while I lay on the camping bed, I tried to associate the tactile 'sensation' with Alice poking me which shortly worked but it's too painful for any long term exercises. Cat gives it all with full use of claws.
Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Last post by Bernd on August 01, 2019, 05:00:05 PM »
>be on holiday making dinner in apartment
>think about serving tupper a glass and plate as well
>tupper says that's cringeworthy as fuck
>tell her everything about tuppering is cringeworthy as fuck and that she needs imposition practice
>tupper complains plate isn't spotlessly clean
>polish plate
>tupper complains cutlery is on wrong side
>exchange cutlery
>tupper complains I'm not properly dressed for dinner
>put on shirt
>finally serve dinner
>tupper plays around with cutlery using spoon and fork as 'ears'

In the end it went better than expected, it has become considerably easier to visualize mirrored movements though Alice still announces left and right hand to get a better feeling of what's what. As she is seeing herself mirrored it's kind of like eating while watching yourelf in a mirror. Really awkward until you get some practice.
Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Last post by Bernd on July 20, 2019, 05:00:04 PM »
Another rather mundane but still incredibly stupid yet eerily realistic dream with tupper presence

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I don't remember much but for whatever reason I temporarily stored large amounts of meat in a sock drawer instead of putting it in the freezer because 'later'. Procrastinating further I regularly checked the meat until it started to go bad. Lots of minced beef and chicken filets in plastic ziploc bags. The stuff started to dissolve into a watery goo though luckily there was no smell. Strangely, I hardly ever have any scents in dreams.
Like I would expect IRL, tupper got angry and yelled at me in mindvoice why I hadn't put the stuff in the fridge in time. It clearly was a huge waste and also a total mess that got bigger and bigger while I tried to clean it up until I woke up. Quite a nightmare, felt exhausted.
Kids, let this be a lesson to you and don't put meat in your sock drawer for prolonged periods of time.
Man, how comes most tupper interaction in dreams is limited to getting yelled at? Well, clearly I'm the one to blame.

Gotta get back to work now or I'll be in for more yelling.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Last post by Bernd on July 12, 2019, 05:00:05 PM »
Temperatures have dropped sharply, sort of feels like early autumn. However after the heatwave tupper actually enjoys the cool cloudy weather for a change. We went walking in light rain and both practiced having her imposed as well as switching with me. It sort of worked but not too well.
In contrast I actually 'managed' to switch out completely with the servitor some days ago. To the point of blackout. Not an achievement because this was neither planned nor desired. Rather an accident.
Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Last post by Bernd on July 05, 2019, 05:00:04 PM »
Went to Italy for a week, it was - mediocre. For demographic reasons.
Also Alice has lost most of her original enthusiasm for traveling for exactly such reasons, as well as expenses and potential dangers. Well, we've done an insane amount of traveling around the world in her first 2 years. Yet as usual such trips are an excellent forcing exercise for keeping tupper around most of the time. So far things are stable, not doing a lot in summer, mostly relaxing outside.

I've taken up mindfulness exercises or as Alice calls it 'forcing myself' to improve living in the moment rather than in some tupper-unrelated daydreams most if the time. At least one of us needs to be aware and in control all of the time, not some servitor on autopilot, as convenient as it is.
Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Last post by Bernd on June 24, 2019, 05:00:02 PM »
Had a very vivid dream where I walked on the street barefoot and noticed my toes were about 3 times longer than normal. I thought this was very interesting and probably could help me walk faster but not for a second did I assume this was a dream. Sanity checks just don't work for me, no matter how absurd the situation gets.

In a second hypnagogic / hypnopompic dream-like scenario I read a book and observed the letters change and dance around as soon as I did not focus on them. Words constantly changed, for a while the entire script was mirrored. Pretty cool. Can't remember I've ever experienced reading in a dream for such a long time. In the beginning I realized this was a dream but then sort of forgot just like I slowly forgot how to read. In the end I could only distinguish ever-changing letters but not words. Throughout this the visualization was really clear, not fuzzy at all.

Lastly I experienced some unexpected dissociation while driving. I wasn't even tired but suddenly my whole body felt light and distant, like in my best meditation efforts. I thought about letting Alice take over but she thought this was too dangerous and made me 'switch back'. As said before we appear to have some accidentally created intermediate servitor who uncosciously takes over routine task when I am not paying attention and get lost in thoughts. Meaning a lot. This usually works eerily well up to holding basic conversations without any input from me. But it makes switching with tupper hard as she does not automatically take over when I'm out but she has to take control from the unconscious sevitor.
I'm honstely not really fond of this whole development, mindlessly running on autopilot while thinking about completely different stuff may seem convenient but can also get dangerous. And makes me feel like a tupper myself, watching from the backseat. Alice thinks I need to practice possession and switching as much as her now. Very strange, this was not in the tuppering manual.
Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Last post by Bernd on June 10, 2019, 05:00:03 PM »
It's June, time flies.
Weather's finally hot and we've basked in the sun excessively, generally spending most of the time outside now. Either in the garden or meditating at Nymphenburg Park where the roses are blooming. It's awesome, it's beautiful, daylight until past 9pm.
But today brought a massive hailstorm, quite some damage around Munich. Alice loves thunderstorms so we immediately went outside when hell broke lose but this time that wasn't such a great idea. Hail was at least grape-size and really hurt, barely made it back inside before even bigger stuff fell from the sky. Plants in the garden look awful but at least no visible damage on the house, people got their windows and cars shattered not far from here. Took a walk when the storm was over, helped neighbors remove some large branches from the street, managed to keep Alice imposed while doing interesting stuff.

So quite some adventure, good forcing, tupper delighted.
Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Last post by Bernd on June 02, 2019, 05:00:03 PM »
Yes please!
Sounds interesting and might be a good way to reach you if other methods fail.

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