Tue, Oct 16th
Meditation in the morning was better, also tried meditating while waiting during the day. Imposing Alice while walking in greater detail as usual with focus on feet.
Evening meditation session was the worst in a long time, ended up thinking what to do in winter holidays. Wonderland session wasn't any better, some Samurai figure impaled tupper with a spear which had the usual effect - none.



Alice gradually absorbed the spear and then the unfortunate Samurai before hitting me over the head with a rolled up newspaper. Bad host, bad!

Thu, Oct 18th
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Practiced possession while walking in the park, went surprisingly well. Tupper had barely been active in the past days but became more lively while possessing, touching trees and picking up leaves. Meditation in between varied, some good moments, mostly bad. Been even more lazy than usual this endless summer, time to step up on forcing, especially visualization. It's even more awful than it used to be.

Sat, Oct 20th
Did some housework that had piled up in the past work, mainly cleaning and tidying up which is highly appreciated by tupper and a decent forcing exercise. 30min session with descending Theta tones, wew I had totally forgotten that feeling. Still reminds me of the first tuppering weeks when we did this excessively. Good forcing session for a change.

Alice was cooking dinner via possession and we had different opinions on which stage to switch the stove. This resulted is both of us turning it up and down several times in quick succession until tupper told me to stop intervening.



The whole thing only lasted for about 3 seconds but was actually hilarious in hindsight. I love that stuff.

Something similar happened when I tried to change the color of her clothes because I thought they weren't "right". Only to be told that they were exactly as intended, turning them back.

Journey turned out to be a little more adventurous than planned.
The rental car was massively losing coolant - as I found out after it overheated after less than 100km.
Not inherently dangerous but still very inconvenient. We got towed off and were given an upgraded replacement fairly quickly but Alice still remained in constant alert mode, like omg we're all gonna die as soon as the new car made the faintest sound - which is unusual for her.



And we came across a dead old man lying in the middle of the street in a small village - wild west style. Apparently he had suffered a heart attack just moments before we came by and there were lots of people around him trying to reanimate him but he was eventually carried off as there was nothing more that could be done. Tupper noted with mild interest that "dead people are strange, but so are all living things". Meaning so weak and easy to destroy while impossible to revive. Very different from wonderland stuff. And arguably weird for someone completely indestructible within her realm. So I understand and appreciate Alice's over-protectiveness.

On a more positive note, or accommodation had a balance board, which was lots of fun. It's easy for me to stand on this thing on one foot as long as my eyes are open but closing them sends me to the floor immediately. Most interesting was how much resources balancing leeches from visualization. I tried to visualize Alice holding my hands and see of this helps when I close my eyes - creating a virtual reference point. As the reference isn't stable in regard of one's movements it unsurprisingly doesn't help a lot. Tupper also tried pulling and pushing me off which kinda worked by simply hogging resources. I feel this has potential, will get one of those things when we return.

Hmm...

Dec 2nd
Mostly finished work Alice wanted me to get done.
Practiced drawing simple forms, tupper thinks it's a waste of time. Practiced imposition while walking outside, sucks. Active forcing session was ok though interrupted by cat clawing me in the leg.