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Sparks' Progress Report
« on: September 09, 2014, 01:46:11 PM »
It's been a while since I did any logging, so I'll just stab at coherence here.

I have two tulpas, both ponies, Clair and Sophia. The former has been around for a little under eight months, the latter for about five. Closed and open eye visuals are both pretty clear, but can always be better, and both of them are able to possess, though Clair tends to dominate.

So we're currently working on strengthening possession and plan on skipping down the merry road toward switching. I've recently turned on to using grand strategy sims and letting Clair go to town on the European populace to get her into really thinking and acting without me over her shoulder, and getting away from what's going on. But I gotta admit it's hard to ignore a cute pone jailing a radical liberal for sedition against the monarchy. I also try to have them walk me or drive me around wherever possible.

Still working on imposition, too, which was our main focus before we were sidetracked by possession. But I'm still convinced there's nothing to help it besides more time spent visualizing and visualizing better, so I can't be bothered to rush it, and I doubt I'd be able to rush it.

Nonetheless, I've been trying to rush it, and I do a few things to help: Image streaming, Eye-Bo and lucid dreaming all stand out as having been really rewarding at some point or another. I haven't had anything like a regular forcing schedule since the end of August because the busy times are back, but these kinda visualization techniques will probably be my main focus, and especially image streaming because they can possess and tell me stories, killing two birds.

So I guess I'll aim for an hour a day to start, then add more as I begin to procrastinate on other things.

Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« Reply #1 on: September 09, 2014, 07:52:39 PM »
Perhaps you would wish to try activities you personally find very boring? That way you might be less inclined to watch the tulpa while they are possessing. It might help you with switching.

Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« Reply #2 on: September 10, 2014, 07:02:27 AM »
It's the only thing he knows, Fodde.

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« Reply #3 on: September 10, 2014, 08:27:55 AM »
Danke, danke.

We tried boring me away last night after reading your suggestion, Roswell. Clair sat and listened to music and rolled my head around on my neck for about two hours while she was chatting on the IRC. That... was pretty boring, and I forgot where I was a few times, so we'll probably try again tonight.

Oh, and something something wonderland. Something something fell asleep.

Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« Reply #4 on: September 11, 2014, 04:28:26 PM »
More time possessing and wonderland and such.

Not many of Clair's friends were active, so she just did more head rolling to shake me out of my senses. Fighting over the eyes is becoming a problem, too, especially when she's reading something that catches my attention; causes me to focus in, which takes the eyes away from her and causes a momentary power struggle. Whenever it happens she has to drop what she's doing and wait for me to become more passive. I'm pretty sure it's starting to annoy her.

And spent time with them in the wonderland. I'm really starting to get the concept of passive engagement down, or just being there without thinking about being there. When I get into that state for long enough things become pretty vivid, so I'm trying to up the time I can spend like that.

Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« Reply #5 on: September 12, 2014, 10:23:39 PM »
Cuddleforced like fede for about twenty minutes then went and did wonderland stuff. Things were about as clear as usual, but I didn't expect boom progress on the first shot. Nice alternative to meditating before forcing, anyway. We just laid on the grassy shore near the lighthouse and chatted, as per usual. Oh, but I heard seagulls today, which is a first. They were like "caw, caw" and I was like "brrrrrrat," to use the onomatopoeia. 

And possession stuff. Even though Clair spends the most time doing possession stuff, it's funny how Sophia improves with her, passively. Lazy pone. Anyway, Clair's friends are all busy still being in college, so she just listened to music and fussed at me for liking the music she was listening to instead of fucking off to lala land.

After that, some eye-bo. Always a treat; makes it really easy to dissociate from my eyes. Should do it more, and I might. Though I probably won't. Though I may.
« Last Edit: September 12, 2014, 10:25:14 PM by Sparks »

Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« Reply #6 on: September 13, 2014, 07:33:16 AM »
Aw, you seem ruffled. Would you like me to use a different cutesy name for it?

Anyway, did more [insert cutesy name here] like fede. Seems much easier to do right after waking up since I'm already feeling pretty good. I imagine I can get something similar right before bed, but I'm usually wrapped up in the day's events. Got a pretty good physical sense of them both afterward when I reinforced the right gunk, though again not sure how much it differs from the norm.

Did some more wonderland stuff after that, and got pretty clear sensations. My peripheral mind vision is creeping wider again, like it tends to when I hold myself to a schedule. Should only be a few weeks before I'm, as it were, back to full strength.

Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« Reply #7 on: September 13, 2014, 03:31:46 PM »
Call it the Fode method, original character do not steal.

Re: Sparks' Process Report
« Reply #8 on: September 13, 2014, 07:24:47 PM »
That is irrelevant. What matters is that you shouldn't go around saying you do things I do or teach, when you're doing something that's only 10% similar and thus isn't what I'm doing.

Oh, but you misunderstand! I am doing what you teach. Lemme go into more detail.

So I started off by repeating a few phrases I know to work from previous self-hypnosis sessions while trying to maintain the euphoric state. These are mainly things repeated with emphasis in the induction, like, "These experiences are actual" and, "I can see mental imagery in vivid detail." These are okay, but I felt I could do more, so I tried to do a full, impromptu induction, but focusing on that, uh, killed my high so to speak. But the failure lead me to a realization! I've been reinforcing the stuff, but I haven't set my mind on a trigger. I figure this exercise either doesn't need one or could benefit from one, so I'm going to give it a try tonight. If the former, more reinforcing will likely lead to results. If the latter, more reinforcing will likely lead to results.

So, yeah. I'm feelin pretty good about it.

Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« Reply #9 on: September 13, 2014, 08:21:46 PM »
Yeah, I figured the euphoric state was crucial, and all of the counting down and whatnot of a full hypnosis session is just unwieldy for me, though it might be helpful to others with better focus.

And it's nothing big, just the addition of some word, activity or mental state to what you're affirming such that the experience of the former activates or triggers what's been reinforced. So, for instance, I was thinking of using my tulips as triggers; reinforce something like, "whenever I see Clair and Sophia, my mental imagery is vivid and clear." Its job is to create an object (in the sense of any perception; a word, an image, a feeling) that'll catalyze the appearance of what's been reinforced. 

As alluded to before, I'm on the fence as to whether such a thing is necessary because the analogy between the euphoric state and self-hypnosis only goes so far. The former seems to act like a hypnotic state sans the directed hypnosis and, I would think, sans the need for a trigger, so is it really worth the time?

Meeeh. We'll see.

Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« Reply #10 on: September 17, 2014, 06:38:51 PM »
Oh, yeah. I should update this.

So we've been doing the same stuff over the past few nights; about a half an hour of reinforcing various things before forcing. Getting a new sensation recently: Like being impressed upon to be in the wonderland, or being in such a state that associating with imagined senses is more desirable than not being so. Kinda interesting, and worth watching for the moment.

Just been tending to the lighthouse, as we tend to. Did some gardening on Monday, some redecorating yesterday and some detail flushing today, and of course lit the damn thing at dusk like I'm supposed to do but keep forgetting to do. Luckily Sophia has my back; she takes care of it when I'm too busy.

And possession is inching along, too. Clair fell asleep again while possessing the other night, which is always kinda strange for me. It's just chatting, chatting and then boom, it's a few hours later and I'm back in control. 

Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« Reply #11 on: September 18, 2014, 12:44:18 PM »
Well, at least you fell asleep too. Ain't fun if the body falls asleep before you do.

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« Reply #12 on: September 20, 2014, 10:33:04 PM »

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« Reply #13 on: September 28, 2014, 01:17:51 PM »

Hi. Clair, Sophia and I are doing well. They've been possessing quite a bit and I'm really enjoying it. The more dissociated I am, the more I really feel like we're a team, and I get to advise them through external problems like they do me. And the trust building involved in letting go of body control has brought us a lot closer. P. neat.

I'm learning how to enter the whole possessed and withdrawn mental state more smoothly, too. Uh, and we're kinda sorta working out the eye situation, but the resolution is really just getting better at staying back. At one point I became dissociated enough that I felt like I could visualize (something I thought to try after a conversation with The Colonel), and it was pretty cool, for what I could do without losing focus. Sophia was in charge at the time, so I went to the wonderland with Clair and found I couldn't hear what was going on up-top, even Sophia's thoughts. But then I started thinking about the front, which made me lose focus and reassociate. Wonderful, familiar failure. Still, this is like the best switching related failure to date.

So much fun. Oh yeah, and wonderland stuff too, but not as much. Or, at least, nothing exciting to report that hasn't already been said. 

Re: Sparks' Progress Report
« Reply #14 on: September 28, 2014, 08:41:55 PM »
Have tulpas played Minecraft yet?