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terrorofdeeth255:
Hi all, I'm TerrorofDeeth, or ToD. I recently read about the concept of tulpa while searching through other related concepts.

I figured pretty quickly after reading through what is known about the beings known as tupla, that to create a character based on an ideal of how much I like her 2d form was in no way going to be healthy, either for myself or for her. Sorry Ion-chan, but you'll have to stay 2d.

So after much consideration I decided on her base form and work in progress name being that of Palmon, though I do plan on allowing her to deviate if she wants to from this state. I've watched the show from childhood, plus played most of the Digimon World games, and she never lost her place as on of my favourites.

So I figured after a lot of reading, that I found the idea of her creating her own personality to be one of my goals, though if she develops one or two traits from our narration time, fair enough.

Before starting visualisation, I tried using LinkZelda's self-hypnosis guide for the creation script, and I really do think it may of helped. I did seem to have a better time then I thought I would when developing a visualisation of meeting her for the first time.

I took Kiahdaj's advice about visualisation and decided to as part of the process create an area that would provide a sense of comfort to my little tupling. I imagined that she would likely feel at home in a field of flowers (Palmon's pretty much a sentient flower, so yeah) I started of at a distance and imagined what she would look like as I got closer, so it was pretty much; "wow what a large flower, huh its got eyes and a mouth and stuff." Just when I got close enough to start really visualising what I could sense about her, I was forced to forcibly quit the process when my sister got home and I had to help her with getting groceries from the car.

I was feeling really bad about this, which may have caused the reaction when I managed to slip back into visualisation. When I got back to Palmon's Field, she was crying. I ran over to her as quickly as I could while not startling her, and sat down in front of her. I gave her a gentle nudge to let her know I was back (she was crying with her hands over her eyes, so she couldn't see) and told her I was sorry for having to leave so suddenly. She beamed so suddenly, and then I was given the equivalent of a mental glomp. She then pretty much wouldn't let me go throughout while we were going through the visualisation process together, covering visual, smell and touch.

Afterwards I tried to give her a name, using several names which she didn't seem to like. Out of curiosity, I did try Palmon, and while I don't think it's the perfect name for her, she doesn't seem to mind it.

Finally, I got the feeling that she might have wanted some reassurance that I would return, so I promised that the two of us would work together to develop together, and that I would be back as often as I could

So ends the first day of mine and Palmon's journey together.

Out of curiosity, I know some, of the visualisation was likely puppetry on my part, but I dunno if the tears after I got pulled away were. I'm fairly certain I didn't consciously plan that part, so hmm.

Sands:
You never know. You'll be able to tell once you get a bit more experience and start knowing the tupper better, usually.

How does the tupper smell like?

terrorofdeeth255:
Hmm, I don't really know how to describe it, I did get a feeling of apple? Definately not citrus though (Thank god). All I know is it smelt really nice. Sorry I can't give you much more than that

Sands:
No need to sign your posts when your name is right there. We're not stupid, we can move our eyes to the left.

terrorofdeeth255:
My 2nd day started with me trying to develop more of an understanding of Palmon through visualisation. I worked at this for about half an hour, and managed to get a little more understanding of her according to my senses. First I crouched next to her while meeting up with her in order to gauge how tall she was - with me kneeling, the petals of her flower was just above my head. I also tried to get a better understanding of her scent - I still think she smells lightly of apples, I'll need to do some checking when I get a chance.
While her skin feels, I wouldn't say tougher, because it wasn't leathery, but was definately more durable than my own skin. She doesn't feel like it is made out of plant matter, despite looking like a humanoid plant, and was warm to the touch, almost human level. I also noticed that our flower field was easier for me to imagine, so I think I'll keep this as our wonderland unless she decides otherwise.

Once we had gone through visualisation, I started trying to narrate to her as much as possible. While my parents and sisters were home, it was all mindtalk, though once I was alone, I spoke aloud as much as possible. I figured to give her as much attention as possible, I would talk to her about any housework I was doing, any places I had vivid memories about that I drove past, one my way to different places, as well as people that I know. At several times during the day, I completed several more of LinkZelda's self-hypnosis scripts, the creative, the confidence in sentience and the wonderland visualisation. Having gone through the creative script several times now, I do feel like they are having a positive effect on our forcing.

Now late this afternoon, I had some time to myself, and decided to try another active visualisation forcing. At first everything was normal, the flower field was much like normal, but all of a sudden the temperature seemed to plummet. As it has been quite cold where I lived, I was  wearing a jumper and long pants, but I picked up on the fact that Palmon would likely have none. I made my way towards were she normally was our field, and I found her huddled up freezing cold. I figured since i know the feeling of my blankets so well, that I should be able to bring them into existence in the wonderland, somehow managed it, and wrapped the two of us up so that I could warm her up. After this point, we managed to get her warm, but other than that, the next thing I know is that I jerk awake when my parents call out for me. I figure I fell asleep at some point, but I noticed that this was by far my most vivid visualisation. I had been reading that it is possible to have more vivid visualisations at the cusp of falling asleep, so could it be this? I was also feeling slightly cold when I began visualisation - could this have been a cause of the cold snap?

I also noticed that I seem to quite often get head pressures when talking to her, and I seem to tire more quickly - I napped twice today, which I don't think has happened to me for as long as I can remember, though I must admit it might be useful, especially if what happened is what I think happened.

I'm planning on undergoing the creative script once more before reading Palmon a book to see if she likes it, and then undergoing one more visualisation session when I start getting more tired. So hopefully all goes well.

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