Erm, okay.
But really, with electronic, there's genuinely next to nothing you can learn. You can't see how they're compressing, or how they're doing all of the technical jargon and mixing that goes into every goddamn sound, so it's just not something you improve by listening to.
And yeah, I'm pretty jealous of some of my favorite artists. If anyone says they've never been jealous of an artist they love, they're a fucking liar. It's not like when someone is better than I am, I think, "Well fuck, never gonna make it there, giving up." Ya feckin gobshite.
I think "Definitely not this good, time to go learn more."
Seriously, I've read like, fifteen guides on certain aspects of production, watched like, twenty eight fucking tutorials on how to do certain things, all during this spring break
So yeah, jealous as fuck of the people who are currently better than me. Should I not be? It gives you a lot to work for.
An in regards to being a bit negative with Tuppers, if I can't do something, from experience, I'm not gonna say I'm able to, soo.. I'll say I'll keep trying and practice, and I do. It's not been much help, ever, but that might fix itself up at some point, fuck if I know. Nothing good about being majorly optimistic in any situation ever, in my opinion, so I'm not.