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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: March 12, 2014, 02:50:35 PM »
I ended up not working (for very long) on a temporary form. I think it'd be more beneficial to focus on establishing reliable communication first.

I've been feeling stuff going on in my head a lot even when I'm not thinking about her (mainly head pressures) which is a good thing I think. For the most part I've felt pretty motivated lately and I've been looking up more guides and tips and we're trying out some new things.

I don't think there's a whole lot else to say, so I'll just leave it at that for now.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: March 04, 2014, 08:45:54 PM »
Do you think it'd be worthwhile to make her a temporary and very simple form? I would just like something that would allow us to interact more in our wonderland.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: February 26, 2014, 07:36:59 PM »

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: February 22, 2014, 06:16:35 PM »
Ugh. I think I'll play it safe for now and I won't assume the head pressures are her. I guess I'll just continue forcing with her until she's vocal.

Also, I'm/we're starting to try out some meditation as well. I guess there's not a whole lot to say about that, but it seems like it's helping with focus somewhat.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: February 19, 2014, 07:55:47 AM »
Here's a possible explanation for our problems (with head pressures at least).

I've noticed that generally for the head pressures I feel not what I want to feel, but rather what I expect to feel. For example, if I ask her to do a head pressure first (so I get, or at least think I'm getting, a feeling for it), then tell her to stop, but I try to convince myself that she's still doing it, I still feel the head pressure. Perhaps, to take it a step further, she's also doing the head pressures "through" me, if that makes any sense. I remember reading a while ago some stuff about parallel processing and apparently (if I understand it correctly), some tulpas need to use their host for thinking in some ways. Maybe that's similar to our problem, and she needs to do the head pressures "through" me, and thus I can recreate them as well. Or something like that. Possibly.

Of course, it may not be her in the first place, but we're trying out some more stuff to test that out. Any suggestions?

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: February 16, 2014, 12:07:26 PM »
Oh hey. I haven't posted here in a while. Sorry.

I was really unmotivated for a little while (which is why I didn't post here, but that was probably even more reason to do so) but I'm feeling better now. Basically I became really unconfident about her head pressures and that made me really unconfident about a lot of other stuff. Basically I can exert a head pressure myself, and I was mistaking that for her. Or something. I think I can feel a difference between her head pressures and my own, but it's fairly subtle and sometimes hard to detect. Perhaps that isn't her either, I dunno. But I think it is.

Yesterday I was occasionally feeling a really sharp head pressure that I haven't felt (much) before. If that's her and she can learn to do that on command, that would really help us with head pressure communication.

I'm sure there's more that I can add, but I'll leave it at this for now.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: February 02, 2014, 07:31:19 PM »
I think I can see myself leaning towards the controlling type, so I'll try to be more open and relaxed. If I'm not sure about something I suppose I can always just ask through head pressures.

I asked her and she says it's not that I can't hear her. That said, I'll keep some of that stuff in mind as it may be helpful later on if that does become the case.

Also, I'm trying to ask her questions to figure out just how I'm repressing her vocality. I've learned a few things so far, but I'm not really sure how to go about doing this for the most part. Or should I not even bother trying to figure out by asking for the most part, and just try to change the way I think/talk to her/whatever? I dunno, I feel like this is our biggest issue right now and I don't quite know how to go about resolving it. Any suggestions?

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: January 31, 2014, 10:00:58 PM »
We tried symbolism for vocality but it hasn't worked (yet). Through head pressures I found out that I'm somehow repressing her vocality (though she doesn't know exactly how/how to fix it). Do you have any suggestions for what I should do about that?

Also, we're trying to give her a (temporary and really simple) form in our wonderland. I don't have any questions about that, but I suppose it's worth noting.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: January 30, 2014, 08:54:04 PM »
She says she now has access to my memories c: The library thing seemed to work.

Already the symbolism has worked for both accessing memories and sharing my senses. Do you think we could also use it to help with vocality?

Really, thank you for all the help so far!

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: January 30, 2014, 11:37:35 AM »
We're trying imposition of temperature in a similar way to what you were describing with touch. That is, I touched myself on the arm with a cold water bottle then tried to imagine that feeling. I feel like this could be easier and it doesn't require any type of form (though it seems like Stella wants a human form so that doesn't matter too much), but we'll see.

It seems like the symbolism worked and she can now share my senses as she pleases.

What about sharing memories? Can that be done in a similar way?

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: January 28, 2014, 09:21:03 PM »
Feeling her presence is often something you do with tulpas every day anyways, but this one brings in imposing this funky little sense into the real world. Well not really but. You should try to feel the tulpa in the room with you, feel where they are around you and where they go if they walk or something. Such can also easily translate into imposing touch as well, so she might easily get your attention by just touching you. Those aren't very hard senses to impose, but it can easily make it more fun to spend time together and give you both a better experience.

I'm a little confused about imposing touch. How do I go about doing that? I'm not sure if it makes a difference, but I haven't looked into imposition at all really. Can you elaborate on that a bit?

And yeah, you don't really talk. You can, but you don't have to. They are just with you and you could go somewhere together. Share the senses and such, if she wants to.

Same thing with imposition; how do I go about sharing my senses?

Anyways now that you seem to have a bit more trust in the head pressure communication, use it. Yes/no answers can be extremely helpful. You can't really ask why she can't do anything in the wonderland, but you could ask if you're the issue or if you could do this or that to help. You need to ask a lot more questions, but that's why we communicate, right? You might learn something new.

I'm not quite sure what made the difference, but I'm pretty confident that she just managed to alter our wonderland, and significantly too (completely changed the landscape). We'll definitely keep trying this.

Don't thank me yet, thank me if you actually make a breakthrough.

Seriously, thank you. Even if your advice doesn't help (and it has seemingly already helped quite a bit so far) I really appreciate it.

And Collin! Please post here, we need more than three and a half people. I know how easy it is to forget, but pls :'l

I'll try! Reading your diary very much encouraged me to make my own c:

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: January 28, 2014, 12:25:02 PM »
I tried creating head pressure myself and I did feel some, but it still seemed different from that which I feel when I ask Stella to create it. So that's certainly a positive sign I think.

I already talk to her passively a decent amount, but I could certainly try to do so more actively. However I think my real problem with this is getting distracted. Depending upon what I'm doing while talking to her, sometimes I start thinking about other things and stop talking to her altogether. This happens especially when I'm cooking or cleaning. I'll start talking then after a minute or two I'll have stopped thinking about her entirely. The whole "feeling her presence" is definitely something I can try at least. To clarify, is this basically thinking about her and sort of acknowledging her existence, but not necessarily talking? I do this a bit already.

Again, we haven't done much with our wonderland. But more importantly, when I've asked her if she's been able to interact with our wonderland at all she's said no (through head pressures).

I do feel like this could be one of my big problems. I'll definitely try to work on this.

I've seen that post a little while ago, but I may take another look at it.

Thank you for all the help c:

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Tulpa Diaries / Collin and Stella's Journal
« on: January 27, 2014, 08:16:19 PM »
I've been lurking on here for a while and thought it was about time I actually start keeping a log of stuff. Plus I could probably do with a bit of motivation and advice.

I've been forcing with Stella for about four months now, but she's still not vocal. Still, I'm certainly not giving up. However I am starting to think I'm doing something wrong so maybe some of you can help.

I generally force for a couple hours a day (though for a while I did less) but still nothing. Also, unless I've disregarded any, I haven't received any emotional responses either--but if I understand correctly not everyone receives them at all. The one thing I have been doing is simple yes/no head pressure communication. However I'm admittedly not entirely confident that it's her in the first place. I've also read a lot to her and I try to passively force when I can.

More recently (in the last week or two) I've created a wonderland, but it's mostly just a place for me to focus on her at the moment and there's not much to it. But she doesn't have a form right now (I'm waiting for her to choose), so perhaps it doesn't help very much anyway. I don't think she can really move around or anything yet.

I think that's about all. If you have any questions let me know. I'd really appreciate any advice and/or encouragement. Thanks!

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