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Off-Topic / Re: I fucking hate Papyrus
« on: October 19, 2015, 10:52:27 AM »
we cannot remain sans serif, so I promote you to be sands, serif
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Off-Topic / Re: I fucking hate Papyrus
« on: October 19, 2015, 10:43:03 AM »this thread is
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Tulpa Diaries / Boat and Hoes
« on: July 15, 2015, 06:28:40 AM »
Excuse me, that air has a name and allegedly feelings of its own.......
Wonder if anyone ever imposed pussy in the air and successfully, pleasurably fucked it. Will report back in years.
Wonder if anyone ever imposed pussy in the air and successfully, pleasurably fucked it. Will report back in years.
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Doujin and friends
« on: July 14, 2015, 08:11:41 AM »
Let me just find a waterfall in the flattest country on the planet..... Maybe if I find a public pool with one I'll be able to hear kids' voices.
Seriously though, I guess I'll experiment more with different setups for noise. I have pretty tight fitting, closed headphones, maybe it'd work better with more comfortable open headphones, or IEMs. I'll be hanging out with Yuki today on totally not a date blushblush and will be going for pink noise this time. I attempted white noise on speakers once, but it sounded like a very uncomfortable earthquake in my room.
Will report back. Meanwhile, the voices of my tulpas have become extremely distinct from one another. When I hear a thought, I am instantly able to pin it on either of them, and not just by focusing on ~~essence~~ or something like that. Purely tone of voice, volume and accent. That seems like a good development to me.
Seriously though, I guess I'll experiment more with different setups for noise. I have pretty tight fitting, closed headphones, maybe it'd work better with more comfortable open headphones, or IEMs. I'll be hanging out with Yuki today on totally not a date blushblush and will be going for pink noise this time. I attempted white noise on speakers once, but it sounded like a very uncomfortable earthquake in my room.
Will report back. Meanwhile, the voices of my tulpas have become extremely distinct from one another. When I hear a thought, I am instantly able to pin it on either of them, and not just by focusing on ~~essence~~ or something like that. Purely tone of voice, volume and accent. That seems like a good development to me.
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Doujin and friends
« on: July 12, 2015, 03:27:24 PM »
It's a full spectrum of shit, so I can listen to endless shit in my ears without outside things really getting through. Guess I do get ear cancer after a while, so maybe I should change it up, see what I like more.
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Doujin and friends
« on: July 12, 2015, 11:00:37 AM »
Only one way to find out. I've had pretty crazy stuff happen to me on ecstacy when Yuki was like 3 months old, with amazing audio hallucinations. Also the whole learning possession on shrooms thing was rad.
Drugs can be used as tools at the right times, especially with mindstuff like this. Gonna test this tool out......
Drugs can be used as tools at the right times, especially with mindstuff like this. Gonna test this tool out......
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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Doujin and friends
« on: July 12, 2015, 09:03:57 AM »
Still practicing imposition, but the focus moved from visuals to audio for now. I always felt like that part would be most rewarding, personally, and it's easy to practice. I put on white noise, and let one of the girls read from a certain superhero serial, trying to focus on listening to all aspects of their voice. It's a fun exercise, mostly in that they get to act out all this stuff, and I get to listen to a loli trying to do an evil supervillain voice, which she can't pull off at all. During the reading I put on white noise on my headphones. With white noise on, their voices are easier for me to imagine vividly, but I haven't noticed too much carry over into normal life and conversation. It still takes a bit of effort to really listen to really hear their distinct voices in my head, and there's no sensation of the voices being external, yet. I guess they're vivid enough during the practice and when I pay attention, but it's still all mindvoice. I cut some audio of a stupid VN we're playing together to get a clip of a voice close to Sen's and I'm listening to it on repeat at times. It's getting pretty awful to listen to, what with the fucking onii-chans and stupid anime phrases.
I went to the shrink and he called me a potential autist and I got mad. More appointments soon, maybe I'll be able to test out either ritalin or dexamphetamine for my complaints about ADD symptoms. We'll see how that influences my tuppers and how I experience them, cause I read one account about a dude becoming 10x better at tuppering while on adderall. Drugs are great, I'll make sure to become super addicted if it works.
Clink clink makes me want to kill myself.
I went to the shrink and he called me a potential autist and I got mad. More appointments soon, maybe I'll be able to test out either ritalin or dexamphetamine for my complaints about ADD symptoms. We'll see how that influences my tuppers and how I experience them, cause I read one account about a dude becoming 10x better at tuppering while on adderall. Drugs are great, I'll make sure to become super addicted if it works.
Clink clink makes me want to kill myself.
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Off-Topic / Re: Succubus thread
« on: July 10, 2015, 07:17:30 AM »
<ShadeKeos> and they can drain life energy
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Off-Topic / Succubus thread
« on: July 10, 2015, 07:15:41 AM »
<ShadeKeos> i do research on many things and found a weird thing like a tulpa
<ShadeKeos> difference in what ive found is others can see it but u dont decide its looks or name
<ShadeKeos> the church would say im going straight to hell.......
<ShadeKeos> well it is a succubus...........
<ShadeKeos> logic is its a demon i summoned due to being alone and not being able to make a tulpa
<ShadeKeos> sitting in the middle of a pentagram and chanting Lilith's name
<ShadeKeos> i put my self more in the center and chanted maybe 3 more times and it worked
<ShadeKeos> well its not fully like a tulpa its harder to explain then a tulpa
<ShadeKeos> hah u fool
<ShadeKeos> a tulpa cant knock over a dish holder XX
<ShadeKeos> and my cat looks at it
<ShadeKeos> i could laugh that your so lonely you make imaginary friends but id say atleast your not alone
<ShadeKeos> my mind couldnt be tricked into thinking a being exists
<ShadeKeos> laugh all you want im used to it by now
<ShadeKeos> also used to watching people fall for trickery
<ShadeKeos> difference in what ive found is others can see it but u dont decide its looks or name
<ShadeKeos> the church would say im going straight to hell.......
<ShadeKeos> well it is a succubus...........
<ShadeKeos> logic is its a demon i summoned due to being alone and not being able to make a tulpa
<ShadeKeos> sitting in the middle of a pentagram and chanting Lilith's name
<ShadeKeos> i put my self more in the center and chanted maybe 3 more times and it worked
<ShadeKeos> well its not fully like a tulpa its harder to explain then a tulpa
<ShadeKeos> hah u fool
<ShadeKeos> a tulpa cant knock over a dish holder XX
<ShadeKeos> and my cat looks at it
<ShadeKeos> i could laugh that your so lonely you make imaginary friends but id say atleast your not alone
<ShadeKeos> my mind couldnt be tricked into thinking a being exists
<ShadeKeos> laugh all you want im used to it by now
<ShadeKeos> also used to watching people fall for trickery