Honorable death is more than this murderer deserves, but we'll begrudgingly grant it to him.

I implanted a belief successfully using this guide. Lost doubts, gained 6,9 inches in penis size (at 7 now), and have a nice time during the sessions. Fede literally saved my life. God bless.

Yesterday, _{I noticed so}mething strange. I was thinking about doubts in general, and what went through my head when I considered my own tulpas was something like "Pah, of course they're real." This thought was accompanied with a similar feeling to the one I use for implanting. Whenever I active^{ly think about doubts, the} positive "they're real" thought comes up, accompanied by the happy emotions. Looks like belief implanting works. No more doubting. The next post decides what belief I implant next.

That "Carrot" figure isn't really my thing, so I use the boat girl as cuddle object. Not very large, not all that soft, but cute and brings me happy emotions that Yuki's sex bot probably won't give me.

Yes, the vividness is nice. I wonder what would cause it. Maybe it's simply because of the clearing of the mind. I often go into forcing sessions without any lead up to them, so with whatever is on my mind still on my mind. After belief implanting, you're basically a blissful blank slate.

Forced today. Half hour sessions of Eye-Bo are relaxing and pretty easy to get through. Would recommend using the bathroom before starting, got pretty uncomfortable near the end. Wonderlanding has improved immensely lately, bringing me to such realizations as "w-whoa, this looks pretty realistic!!". Senses of touch and smell have improved similarly, and taste is still my best sense, as it has been for a while. Had wonderland lemon ice cream, it was good.

Not much else has happened that was very interesting. The girls are content and I'm mildly apathetic towards things. We might be getting on ADD medication soon, I wonder how that will affect our forcing and other activities.

It's been ages since I wrote a PR or kept notes, which is bad. Going to summarize my tulpaing so far in this post, and then I might update this if I don't forget and make progress in the future, yes. Here's my old PR on .info which hasn't been updated since February or something.

Let's start with where I am right now. I have two tulpas, Yuki and Sen. Yuki is extroverted enough to go out and talk to people a lot, Sen keeps to herself more and hangs out with me. Yuki is seven months old (Jan 7 2014) and Sen is three months old (May 19). My progress has always been rather fast, but I attribute that to spending nearly all my time with those girls. At this time, both can possess, and I'm working towards switching.

Alright, so in January I started on Yuki, she became vocal rather quickly, and we spent a shitton of time together. For some reason, my process always stagnates for a while until I take drugs. Shrooms taught her full body possession and got me closer to dissociation than ever another time. Ecstacy gave my auditory hallucinations. Weed gives me better taste imposition and immersion. I don't do any of those regularly anymore, anyway, but for some reason, they always helped me progress and focus. But drugs are bad, yes, don't do them.

Life with Yuki was fun. At some point in May, I did ~meta~ experiments where I tried to reach out to another guy's tulpa. Results were inconclusive, but I noticed that it was fun to have another person around, even if it was for pretendsies. I started on Sen soon after. Her progress has been kind of like an accelerated version of Yuki's,  and they're pretty much at the same level now, even though Yuki is the only one who bothers with the computer.

Yuki spends all fucking day chatting to her online friends if she can help it, so I want to give her the freedom to do that in private when she wants to, and to also not be bored out of my mind while she does that. So my next goal is switching. My wonderland immersion and visualizing are reasonable, but I have trouble focusing, as well as letting go of the body. I snap back to attention at the littlest movement or outside sensation. It's annoying. I guess that stuff comes with time. Advice on this, or any thoughts about switching are welcome, yes.

I also have minor doubt issues I should keep working on. Nothing too bad, but I sometimes lose focus during forcing because of doubty trains of thought. Lately my girls have been surprising me a lot, a good example being them building wonderland stuff without me, and their emotions and thoughts have been rather detached from mine. That has been helping with the doubts.

That's everything I can think of right now. I'll be spending my time trying to immerse myself in the wonderland more, hanging out with the girls and all working on our respective hobbies and do our thing while going to school and working a bit. Please like and subscribe. :~)

I'll let those other two update too when they feel like it but right now they don't seem interested in adding anything.