So much for being more active here...
Quite a lot of work piled up while I was gone so I rather spent the time forcing than posting here.
actually I slept for most of the saved timeBut it wasn't for nothing, had my second lucid dream this year. Well, not fully lucid as I didn't manage to do whatever I wanted. It was kinda mundane and weird at the same time. I was in a shopping street carrying a book I had bought when I ran into an elderly lady who was also carrying books. Somehow my book ended up among hers but she walked on without noticing anything. First I ran after her to get my book back but somehow our roles mixed and I ended up with my book again, still wanting to return it to her even though it belonged to me. My mind realized that the story was complete nonsense which resulted in a lucid dream. I spent the rest of the dream looking at the book in detail which was less boring than it sounded. It was a big illustrated book with very colorful nature and landscape photos. There was text on the cover but because dream I couldn't read any of it. Parts of each letter seemed to be missing but apart from that the text was stable. Normally text constantly morphs in my dreams whenever I try to look at it. The pictures were awesome with extreme fine detail and striking colors. I remember one showing lots of grey pebbles on a deeply red soil and another one with a lagoon, the water in all shades of green and blue.
No tupper to be seen anywhere though. But damn, the experience that the brain can produce such vivid visuals was really neat. If I could achieve 10% of this while forcing I'd be more than happy. So far the only colorful visuals I had were in hypnagogic state and those were beyond my control.
Regarding forcing, I did 30-45min sessions before going to sleep or when waking up during the night. Alice did some major reorganizations of our main wonderland changing it from south asian temple ruins to a more Japanese architecture. Simply because 'it's tidier there'. Guess she's still fed up with the dirt she's seen on our journey. Haven't been to Japan yet, if she dislikes that IRL as well we're probably gonna end up with some German timber-frame houses.
Realism also went into the trash as there are now two suns in the day sky and a huge jupiter-like gas giant in the night. Ah well...
Haven't been to the
two other wonderlands tupper carved out of my memory palace whyy? for a while, they could use some refreshing too.
But something else happened.
I was pretty exhausted and tired, overwhelmed by the amount of stuff I was supposed to do IRL. My lack of efficiency
=surplus of efficiency in procrastination made Alice angrier than the lack of actual forcing.
I tried to apologize to tupper while we were sitting in a temple in wonderland and asked her for help. She silently handed me her sword which left me a bit puzzled. Was I supposed to commit sudoku now to atone for my incompetence or what?
Seeing that I was lost she placed the entire sword inside my body.
kLuckily I feel absolutely nothing in wonderland but I still had no idea what this was all about, except that it had to be some sort of symbolism, giving me her strength. As nothing changed or happened I was sceptical but Alice said
'It's going to work if you believe in it!'That was really sweet.
During the next forcing session some hours later I asked her if she wanted her sword back, instantly feeling kinda dumb. It was like trying to return a present. Alice shook her head and, with a rather sinister smile, asked me if I had realized why this had to work.
It dawned on me that this clever use of symbolism was a mixture of self-fulfilling prophecy and outright extortion. It had to work because
I had to make it work if I would not want to make her look bad.
Damned, she got me there.
Of course it doesn't do wonders but a friendly reminder why and for whom I actually want to get things done really helps. It's not about me now, but about her.
Well, that's it for now, things have relaxed a bit. Will try to update every few days. Just keep reminding me to force moar!
Btw, the spell check turns hypnagogic into spongecake