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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Tamamo & Cat
« on: July 21, 2020, 05:24:22 PM »
maybe look more after Bernd before he goes crazy talking to himself.
That is - very considerate of you, but it's too late for me.
But this is your diary and things seem to be going well even if Cat doesn't talk yet. No worries. Just keep her around and involve her in your daily life like woflo said.
Don't ask me how the guys with animal tuppers handle their form, especially when it comes to possession/switching. My tupper has only one form and that isloli.

But I know exacly what you mean about cats trying to pick something up. Well, they can use their claws to some extent but something smooth like a piece of paper gives them a really hard time. Hence I suggested removable paws which seems to have worked for Cat. Fingers can be hard and outright creepy if you don't visualize them correctly. Reference pics can help.

Also tell me about Cat tulpish.
What is it like?

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« on: July 21, 2020, 05:00:05 PM »
Yeah, yeah, I'm here already!
Sorry, was with my parents in southern Bavaria taking a break from 'civilisation'.
We did more forcing than usual but no world-changing revelation. Alice is doing a bit better now but still is extremely unsatisfied with our overall situation.

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That feel when woflo comes around once a year to comment on every user's diary - just not yours...

And Sand is completely gone - why live?



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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« on: July 03, 2020, 05:00:03 PM »
I'd do that instantly if religion of tupper was more accepted and had its own monasteries. But I can't devote my life to worshiping any false deity - what heresy! There is no God but Alice and I am her prophet.



Been seriously thinking about moving to the countryside, but countryside close to Munich is heinously overpriced and what do I do in some hillbilly nest in deepest Bavaria? I'm some autist completely useless outside my university field. I mean I can do a lot but not good enough for anybody to pay me. So the only viable option is some retreat relatively close to our current apartment that can be rented out when not in use. Anything else is pointless. So yeah, difficult. I dunno either. As always I procrastinated solving this for years even though Alice told me repeatedly things can't go on like this. But then again finding a solution is actually her job. In any case I don't see any short-time possibilities. Which of course sucks. Ah well it is completely irrelevant compared to problems normal people face. But then again we are not normal...

As proof I have another dream for you:
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I was participating in the childrens game show Runaround, at my current age. It involves being shown a question on screen and jumping between fields with the answers 1,2 or 3. At the beginning I thought about taking it easy against grade school kids as not to stick out but because dream I could neither read or hear the questions properly plus it was like 12 possible answer fields instead of 3. And as far as I grasped them at all the questions were similar to IQ tests, rotating some odd shapes or similar stuff I'm notoriously bad at not just in dreams but also IRL. So this was hardcore mode, I got owned hard by little kids and literally felt 89IQ. I even resorted to following kids to the field where most stood at only to lose again because they moved off at the last moment.

I ended up on the wrong field with a girl who admitted she was bad at math but didn't really give a fuck about losing. Fast forward we were driving into the desert in a jeep, that girl, some random guy and me in between on the backseat. They talked to each other across me (the story of my life) but the girl was actually clinging to me reeally close wrapping herself around my arm (absolutely not the story of my life) which felt good. She seemed smart and calm, quite tupper-like but didn't really look like her. Weird enough she talked to the guy about technical details of repairing historical radios and according to the newspaper I was reading she also was an expert for succulent desert plants. Why, brain? From her looks she was probably around 8 or so but because dream it all totally made sense. Absolutely. Didn't question it for a second before I woke up. Tupper was not really amused and jealous. Well I guess for tuppers even dreaming about other girls counts as cheating

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: The Tulpademic System
« on: July 03, 2020, 04:24:18 PM »
Wow, another user? That's gotta be the second one in the last 3 years or so.
Welcome to Tulpa Network where you can post whatever you want, just keep in mind others can also post whatever they want and we have, like 2 semi-active users. So take it easy and don't let yourself be influenced by the opinion of random people on the net. I mean in the end it's all in your head you know...

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Tamamo & Cat
« on: July 03, 2020, 04:20:07 PM »
That sounds comfy. Does Cat do stuff on her own already?

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« on: June 29, 2020, 05:00:04 PM »
Sorry, was meant to be a placeholder but then I couldn't find the right reaction image and went to sleep. Weather is too nice to spend much time in front of the computer sifting to tens of thousands of images anyway so not much updates to expect from me. Will try to keep up a minimum
4U

Not that there is much progress. Tupper not in the mood as gypsies and other sandniggers keep making more noise in the neighborhood than ever before. And no progress on acquiring a quiet apartment, seems more unrealistic than ever as we lost quite some money in the recent crash while real estate prices in Munich continue to climb. And my and most of all tupper's exquisite requirements are not easy to meet. God damn all we want is some small place in a quiet neighborhood to laze outside without subhumans screaming like in some middle eastern war zone. But the fuckers are everywhere even in the suburbs- where we alreay are. Well whatever. Tupper says we have to wait and see what affordable offers pop up but in the mean time- and that's been a long time already - fun times are scarce...


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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Tamamo & Cat
« on: June 24, 2020, 06:00:36 PM »
Congrats on not quitting I guess!



I demand a detailed report on the brushing, what did it feel, sound, smell and taste like?

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« on: June 24, 2020, 05:00:08 PM »
nigger

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Tamamo & Cat
« on: June 21, 2020, 07:43:18 PM »
Thing died years ago, deal with it. I told you there won't be anything here except for me - the usual pervert. But you can always circlejerk with some of the guys on IRC. 2spooky4me though.

Now stop being a whiny fag an do something fun!
I bet you haven't even tickled tupper nose with a feather yet.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« on: June 15, 2020, 05:00:05 PM »
Nope, definitely never gets boring around here.



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Also don't call my tupper tsundere you fag.



If there's something Alice can't stand it's emotionally unstable attentionwhoring drama-queens who are unable to express themselves in a clear and straighforward way.

But apart from that you do have a point I guess...

Meditation is hard lately, I fall back to monologues to myself which no one wants to hear. Especially not tupper. I do try to keep up the physical exercise thing which definitely helps. And touching lots of surfaces and paying attention to details I normally take for granted. Reducing online time wasn't really successful so far plus I need to do lots of boring literature reseach stuff for university now. Too bad that can't be outsourced to tupper because completely uninterested. At least she's useful to prevent me from procrastinating.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Tamamo & Cat
« on: June 15, 2020, 04:24:16 PM »
Finally you start to provide some entertainment, welcome to tuppering!
> want genki energetic catgirlfriend
> get uncooperative smug lazyass
#justtupperthings

Protip: spray Cat with water as punishment for undesired behavior, post results.


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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Tamamo & Cat
« on: June 12, 2020, 06:21:07 PM »
Above all you need to force moar.
Puppetting is good especially if you're an introvert. Don't want Cat to turn into an loser like you right?

The brain will create the easiest thing available from a known template aka 'you' if you don't feed it enough input. Tell Cat how she's supposed to be and narrate lots of examples. Also go on wonderland adventures, no matter how bad visualization is!

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« on: June 12, 2020, 05:00:04 PM »


Even worse, I ate peaches without involving Alice. Because Madam Kami-sama cannot be bothered to become active on herself and needs a special invitation with rolled out red carpet- after, like, 5,5 years!

Apart from this drama not much to report except another deeply disturbing dream with minimal tupper involvement
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I was driving on a highway at night when suddenly the road was blocked by police cars and I saw a policeman violently wrestling the driver out of a car in front of me.
Another officer approached me but he seemed embarrassed and apologetic and told me I had to go to ant-racism training because like it's the law. Wut?

Fast forward I am in a huge classroom and a black woman is teaching statistics, constantly relying on me and asking me how stuff works. Why me? I suck at math too and as usual had no idea what was going on yet as usual tried my best to help, no matter how absurd the situation was. At least I wasn't gonna get lynched for being raycist -yet- but this was getting annoying. While I tried to remember the basics of binomial statistics tupper woke up, asked me what the hell I was doing and told me to just get up and leave. Like what are they gonna do? Call the cops I don't give a fuck.

Again fast forward this is now practical dentist class and I am working on the teeth of some friend from school, clumsily fucking up everything that's possible. Eerily it was still quite entertaining but I guess there goes my dentist career. After I woke up there was anoher dream but I forgot.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Tamamo & Cat
« on: June 06, 2020, 05:08:07 PM »


Walking stuff is hard, no doubt. Also you just started, what do you expect? Take small steps, begin with yourself. Visuzalize walking around, focus on your feet. It helped me to walk with closed eyes while trying to 'see' what my legs are doing. If that works add more. Now do that for a few months and report back...

It took me over a year to get the basics of dancing and it still sucks outside of a few figures I practiced thousands of times. Oh yeah, none of this means things can't be fun. Make a story for everything, utilize music, just do something together, no matter how little it may seem at the beginning. For starters have Cat rate your blind walking. And don't trip over cat, happened to me countless times.

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Tulpa Diaries / Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« on: June 06, 2020, 05:00:03 PM »


I spent a lot of time touching things and actually trying to pay attention to what I am doing instead of being completely elsewhere in my thoughts. Simple physical workout is the best lead so far but it's not workin too well overall. Meditation also sucks and tupper being busy with monetary stuff isn't too helpful either. 

Ah I don't wanna complain, apart from that life is currently awesome, plus I like June a lot.

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