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« Reply #90 on: February 23, 2016, 11:35:38 pm »
Day 64
Still here and alive, if anyone was wondering. Daily interaction via narration continues.
I haven't active forced though... was busy sorting out issues with aniracetam dosage. Seems like 2000 mg do the trick though. If I am able to wake up early tomorrow I'll shall be using the self-hypnosis script for vivid wonderland stuff. We'll see.
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« Reply #91 on: February 24, 2016, 09:42:05 am »
Remember to eat cake and play dress-up.

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« Reply #92 on: February 26, 2016, 08:47:05 am »
Remember to eat cake and play dress-up.
Need to finish the wonderland house for that. I only have a very large room at the top (which is where we spent most of the time before creating a small bar-like area in the floor below). No kitchen, or living room yet... Unless I just imagined the cake into existence but well, doesn't seem nearly as fun as baking it and all of that. Don't expect many details either, visuals are still fuzzy at best (aka almost never).

Day 67
40 minute self-hypnosis session with the vocality script thing. Gotta get my sleep schedule into order again (I had some work to do these days and I let it get like it was before; going to bed at 1 AM and waking up at 9:30 AM, not good).
At least I didn't doze off with the 15-minute meditation warm up thing (and I did my best to re-focus my thoughts to my breath when they started to wander; if I only practiced this daily I would be a pro by now...).
Narration continues, although I do get distracted especially when around a lot of people.
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« Reply #93 on: February 28, 2016, 06:50:18 am »
Day 68
I woke up, and went to bed instantly again. I had a wonderland-ing forcing session (about 40 mins). We went to places I've been to before. Very nice. We had imaginary pasta. I could only imagine the creaminess of it, not much of anything else.
Visuals are shaky at best, 2/10. Pasta taste, 2/10. Fun level, 9/10. Much better than forced forcing.
I had a very strong headache all day after that. I think it may have been related, since I never go wonderlanding like that.
Mindvoice still goes between "whoa almost there" to "well, it sounds like me". But it has been steadily improving I think. Needs more patience and time I suppose.

For today (day 69) we're going to play Outside: The MMORPG and I'll trigger an in-game event known as a "holiday".
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« Reply #94 on: February 28, 2016, 08:51:20 am »
Eat your favorite food and compare its imaginary taste to other things wow.

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« Reply #95 on: March 04, 2016, 11:48:14 pm »
Day 73
Things archived these past days: nothing.
My sleep schedule went out of shape and I need to get back to waking up at 5 AM.
I have been very busy so that may have to do with it.
But narration continues, every day.

I will try the "compare imaginary taste to real taste" thing as soon as I can. Seems simple enough but actually interesting.
If I don't report back in at most two days feel free to stick a frowny face sticker in this thread.
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« Reply #96 on: March 05, 2016, 12:54:06 am »


fuck your two days

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« Reply #97 on: March 07, 2016, 09:40:33 pm »

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« Reply #98 on: March 08, 2016, 09:29:24 pm »

STILL GOING STRONG -- JUST SET BACK BY RANDOM HAPPENINGS
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« Reply #99 on: March 09, 2016, 05:14:16 am »
That was reply 100, good job. Clearly Timethief needs to update more.

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« Reply #100 on: March 11, 2016, 02:17:13 am »
Day 80
It's been quite some time I guess since the last update... have been very busy.

[warning: le blog post ahead. since i don't have anywhere else to put this stuff i'm putting it here]

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Haven't forced except for a short 24-minute session two days ago.
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« Reply #101 on: March 11, 2016, 09:17:29 am »
You gotta learn to chill. No better time to start, huh?

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« Reply #102 on: March 11, 2016, 05:13:28 pm »
It's bothering me a lot that I don't get much tulpa forcing pressures if at all, nor I get "alien" feelings either.

I'll just answer this because I can, yeah that's normal honestly don't worry about that. I think of the, I dunno, 50% of people who get those ever? most would have them die off soon enough as they continued.


And I'm scared as heck that I would do that to my tulpa. And that I'm merely using her as a tool to improve myself. And what have I done in return? I haven't even finished designing the wonderland! And I don't have time for it (seriously, I can't even go to the IRC anymore because >too busy)! What good is a tulpa host if he merely uses his tulpa as a tool, only to not do anything in return? What good there is in a host if he doesn't actively try to help their tulpa go further? If he leaves his tulpa in a half-baked state, with struggling independence, no mindvoice and zero visualization skills?

There's time for everything, and by that I mean that you can help her at any point in your life. Just be glad that things are working for you, for now. When you get your stuff sorted, you can pay her back. Whether or not you could be doing more now is something I can't really tell, I guess. Even if it's 10 minutes active a day that's probably better than nothing. But still, I don't think you need to worry quite as much as you are.

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« Reply #103 on: March 12, 2016, 11:13:36 pm »
>too busy to force
>post cats on the internet


Apart from that, I'd recommend discussing your innermost feelings with your tupper, might be more effective than sharing them with strangers on the internet. In any case, don't worry about this shit. Worrying doesn't help anyone and tuppers aren't stupid. In most cases they know more about their hosts than they do themselves, even if not fully developed. So I think it's kinda crazy to try to hide your feelings from your tupper or worry how they would react if you tell them. They're a part of you and will figure out what's going on in no time anyway.
Be grateful for your tupper, try to involove her in everyday activities and enjoy your life, the day will come soon.jpg enough when Ms. Brain Demon will claim your soul in return for all the favors she's granted you.
And don't tell me this is not what you wanted

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« Reply #104 on: March 15, 2016, 08:35:07 pm »