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Tulpa Diaries / Imposing fuzzballs
« on: September 25, 2013, 12:50:26 AM »
Let's see if this time I can keep a progress thread updated relatively often!
A bit of an intro here, I've been forcing for a year--nearly a year and a half now. I have two tulpas, Jaden and Giselle. Both are small quadruped animals of their own design. Through a lot of set backs and difficulties we have managed to come very far in imposition. At this point I would say we are finished with imposing presence and touch (including warmth, weight, etc) while sight and sound still need some work. Some days they will be fully imposed the whole day while other days they will be faded and will take some dedicated forcing to 'work our way back up to it'. More often than not they stay imposed when I am smart enough to not worry about it to much. Reading together, watching a movie, hanging out at work, these are times when they are there without question. But if I were to look Jaden in the face and try to stare at him directly for a long period of time, he tends to fade or I accidentally stare right through him. There have been times when we would have a long conversation that gets interrupted by my accidental 'spot checking' that just destroys the whole illusion all together. Very frustrating.
Giselle brought up the fact that we never really worked too hard on smelling imposition--They have a scent but I guess it's not as solid as it could be. She mentioned that since smell is often linked to memory that perhaps getting that solidified will help keep the rest of the imposition work stable. We'll see what happens I guess.
This log will basically document experiments in imposition(and keeping it stable) as well as just going over the ups and downs of life with tulpas. We will probably discuss lucid dreaming and how it relates to them as well, as that has been something we have been working at recently.
If Nate, my fiance, decides to post, I'll probably have him make a sub-account for him as well. His tulpas already have them available if they choose to use them, but they are rather private individuals, so we'll see where that goes.
A bit of an intro here, I've been forcing for a year--nearly a year and a half now. I have two tulpas, Jaden and Giselle. Both are small quadruped animals of their own design. Through a lot of set backs and difficulties we have managed to come very far in imposition. At this point I would say we are finished with imposing presence and touch (including warmth, weight, etc) while sight and sound still need some work. Some days they will be fully imposed the whole day while other days they will be faded and will take some dedicated forcing to 'work our way back up to it'. More often than not they stay imposed when I am smart enough to not worry about it to much. Reading together, watching a movie, hanging out at work, these are times when they are there without question. But if I were to look Jaden in the face and try to stare at him directly for a long period of time, he tends to fade or I accidentally stare right through him. There have been times when we would have a long conversation that gets interrupted by my accidental 'spot checking' that just destroys the whole illusion all together. Very frustrating.
Giselle brought up the fact that we never really worked too hard on smelling imposition--They have a scent but I guess it's not as solid as it could be. She mentioned that since smell is often linked to memory that perhaps getting that solidified will help keep the rest of the imposition work stable. We'll see what happens I guess.
This log will basically document experiments in imposition(and keeping it stable) as well as just going over the ups and downs of life with tulpas. We will probably discuss lucid dreaming and how it relates to them as well, as that has been something we have been working at recently.
If Nate, my fiance, decides to post, I'll probably have him make a sub-account for him as well. His tulpas already have them available if they choose to use them, but they are rather private individuals, so we'll see where that goes.