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« on: January 07, 2015, 09:22:15 AM »
I think it's time to go ahead and do a reboot.
Somewhere close to 3 years ago I tried making a tulpa. I half-assed it thoroughly. I felt that I didn't do it right. I had countless doubts and never really seemed to get anything to work, but I still think Shy was "real" to a degree. I had her in my head for a few years but life took a turn for the worse. I stopped forcing, and ultimately, forget of her altogether.
So I've decided that I will begin traversing a slow road to starting again. I have an idea of what I'm getting into and know of my previous mistakes. This time around, I'm going to exercise as little control as possible. I won't be giving it a name and I plan on giving it a small number of traits that are purposely vague as can be.
It feels like the right thing to do - letting a failure remain just that, a failure. I won't be picking up on my previous work and have no plans to ever do so in the future. I want to start fresh, and it just feels right.
I haven't ironed out many details yet. I'm not sure what to put for the exact traits as of now. I will write more, even if no one reads this. I just don't know when I will write more, is all.
Thanks for reading.