Ive thought about using references though, and in some cases have, but they're not a big help. I can't even visualize my house any better than some place I'm making up. Writing the scene out is a lot better for me personally.

Listening is definitely not equal to learning in music, at least not for me. It's just aural pleasure. Seems that way for all music I like, soidunno. Might be that I can't even plan music in my head either. Not sounds, melodies, or anything. Same goes for my brother, who's a phenomenal guitarist. As soon as he picks up the instrument though, he can start working up the scales, and make some pretty badass music.


So yeah, since there's nothing I can learn from my favorite musicians, jealousy ensues :l

Holy fuck I'm laughing and crying at the same time, that was absolutely beautiful.

Yeah, expectancy is a real bitch, innit.

I'd also read a lot on that aspect of processing, but I think it's case by case. When Miriam would speak, it would feel like me, so for a good while, my go-to explaination was just that she was using my head. Until I actually did figure I was being delusional and doing it myself, just trying to cover it up with the theory.

What I'd do in your case is make extra sure not to cause them yourself, even if they're running through your mind. If they're still occurring when you've identified, and gotten a handle on your own pressures, then you don't have anything to worry about.

Of course, easier said than done. Even if you do tone down your own, any that are left over are atoll liable to feel like you, so.. I'm not sure. A matter of faith, I guess. I decided it wasn't me for better or ill, I guess you'll have to go with one or another at some point.

Wouldn't recommend soon, of course. Sands always told me not to decide on anything until I was absolutely sure, so it took me a few months, but it honestly doesn't sound like, aside from some sketchy Head Pressures, you're doing only anything that would cause harm, so idunno, your call.

Again, really bad advicerer.

I'm well aware how it works, Sandy. I've just never been able to properly use it, I guess. Especially in regard of memories. I've thought it was a great idea, give her a lot more understanding of me, give us more stuff to talk about, but idunno, never seems to work. Maybe I am still delusional (In a broad sense of the word), and since I can't remember anything before this morning, she can't.

But idunno, I kinda just think I'm doing it wrong. Been really convincing these last couple days, when I'm talking to her, so yeah.

Like, I tried the library thing, for one. With my petty visuals, I open a book, or a few books, in different sections, imagining what everything in every area might relate to, as far as memories go, and after I finished, tried giving her reign to read through, and I guess she /said/ she did, and I thought she did, but she's like, 95% as clueless as I am, most of the time. Dunno, might just be one of those things.

Also tried the simpler method in Kiahdaj's guide, which I liked the idea of, and more nothing. Dunno.

Symbolism is 2hard4me, apparently. And I can't really think of any methods that'd be more personal, so ehh. I'm just not a big thinker. It's either obvious and viable, or obscure and hella difficult. I'm drawing blank on something to help with the memory thing. Cause I still really want that to go somewhere.

Omg I have a fan.

But imean, I know how ermm.. Repetitive I get, and all that :l

Hope it didn't make for /too/ boring a read, or any of that. Like, I have a progress report on .info that's fukn like, even longer than the one here, but that was at least three times the amount of filler I used here. All that being said, I tried toning it down, but I know it was full of:

>Idunno

>(I'll/We'll/Let's) see (how/what) (I/we) can do

Especially that second one. So yeah, sorry for that, haha..

If you've got questions on anything though, feel free, I'm not doing anything more important with my time. Should be working, but, well.. You read the Diary PR thing.

Yeah, but I don't consider the original question itself to be relevant to the thread, either. This is not your diary thread, after all.

Well this topic kinda was initially created so I wouldn't have tuh keep using my diary to female post, so eh, any updates I may have are going here whatever the case, as to not horribly derail my PR thing again.

I've got a kinda big friend with no beard, and a tall and skinny friend with a face entirely full of hair, but I'm not sure where I stand on it's basement-dweller-ness. Maybe a 3/10.

But Idunno, it's a really entertaining thought. I've seen a lot of stuff on craigslistand Facebook and stuff of people looking for groups (clearly plots to murder people, but the idea remains), so I guess the chances are there.

We lost a member a week or so back, so idunno, need to fill the spot one way or another, I'll see if I can jokingly bring it up or something, gauge her reaction.

Going this Saturday though, and however this turns out, I fully intend to buy a video game. Possibly in the DS area. Animal Crossing, or A Link Between Worlds? Or something else?

I think there was an episode about them a few weeks back, but I'm not sure, I only just I finished episode 5 on S4.

Whatever the case though, really cute pic. Seems a bit suggestive too, but whatevs, not complaining. I'm not sure, though. I've always liked having the Dash body on Miriam, but now that I look back, it's kinda just.. Really hard for me to visualize, what with all of the colors, and stuff. Idunno, I mean, I can visualize it, but when I apply it to Miriam, it's all just fuzzy. And difficult. Soyeah, dunno, I'll try out the Battypone thing sometime soon, see what the gal thinks of it.