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Off-Topic / "Where are the bots?" Thread
« on: March 04, 2016, 11:49:43 PM »
Wow, I missed the bots. I didn't see any. :(
That's what I get for discriminating them I guess.
That's what I get for discriminating them I guess.
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Tulpa Diaries / timethief procrastinates hell for a nothing
« on: March 04, 2016, 11:48:14 PM »
Day 73
Things archived these past days: nothing.
My sleep schedule went out of shape and I need to get back to waking up at 5 AM.
I have been very busy so that may have to do with it.
But narration continues, every day.
I will try the "compare imaginary taste to real taste" thing as soon as I can. Seems simple enough but actually interesting.
If I don't report back in at most two days feel free to stick a frowny face sticker in this thread.
Things archived these past days: nothing.
My sleep schedule went out of shape and I need to get back to waking up at 5 AM.
I have been very busy so that may have to do with it.
But narration continues, every day.
I will try the "compare imaginary taste to real taste" thing as soon as I can. Seems simple enough but actually interesting.
If I don't report back in at most two days feel free to stick a frowny face sticker in this thread.
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Tulpa Diaries / scends ino ell a bott of m
« on: February 28, 2016, 06:50:18 AM »
Day 68
I woke up, and went to bed instantly again. I had a wonderland-ing forcing session (about 40 mins). We went to places I've been to before. Very nice. We had imaginary pasta. I could only imagine the creaminess of it, not much of anything else.
Visuals are shaky at best, 2/10. Pasta taste, 2/10. Fun level, 9/10. Much better than forced forcing.
I had a very strong headache all day after that. I think it may have been related, since I never go wonderlanding like that.
Mindvoice still goes between "whoa almost there" to "well, it sounds like me". But it has been steadily improving I think. Needs more patience and time I suppose.
For today (day 69) we're going to play Outside: The MMORPG and I'll trigger an in-game event known as a "holiday".
I woke up, and went to bed instantly again. I had a wonderland-ing forcing session (about 40 mins). We went to places I've been to before. Very nice. We had imaginary pasta. I could only imagine the creaminess of it, not much of anything else.
Visuals are shaky at best, 2/10. Pasta taste, 2/10. Fun level, 9/10. Much better than forced forcing.
I had a very strong headache all day after that. I think it may have been related, since I never go wonderlanding like that.
Mindvoice still goes between "whoa almost there" to "well, it sounds like me". But it has been steadily improving I think. Needs more patience and time I suppose.
For today (day 69) we're going to play Outside: The MMORPG and I'll trigger an in-game event known as a "holiday".
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Tulpa Diaries / timethief restores sleep schedule for more forcing
« on: February 26, 2016, 08:47:05 AM »Remember to eat cake and play dress-up.Need to finish the wonderland house for that. I only have a very large room at the top (which is where we spent most of the time before creating a small bar-like area in the floor below). No kitchen, or living room yet... Unless I just imagined the cake into existence but well, doesn't seem nearly as fun as baking it and all of that. Don't expect many details either, visuals are still fuzzy at best (aka almost never).
Day 67
40 minute self-hypnosis session with the vocality script thing. Gotta get my sleep schedule into order again (I had some work to do these days and I let it get like it was before; going to bed at 1 AM and waking up at 9:30 AM, not good).
At least I didn't doze off with the 15-minute meditation warm up thing (and I did my best to re-focus my thoughts to my breath when they started to wander; if I only practiced this daily I would be a pro by now...).
Narration continues, although I do get distracted especially when around a lot of people.
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Off-Topic / Guild Thread
« on: February 24, 2016, 02:48:50 PM »
Just let him keep showering you with free stuff, tell him you need more time, then when he proposes you say "haha, no" (or tell him "I'm a dude"; might ruin your rep though, but he should know that there are no girls on the internet). Then you change server, and repeat the process.
Also, wow at >ceremony of eternal bonding. Deep.
Or accept your future as the guild-leader's wife. What could go wrong? We're all autistic anyway.
I still wouldn't have signed up as a girl but what do I know I don't even play vidya anymore.
Man, you can taste imaginary cake, that's so dope. The furthest I go when imagining flavours is salivating but I never taste a thing. Time to practice that.
Also, wow at >ceremony of eternal bonding. Deep.
Or accept your future as the guild-leader's wife. What could go wrong? We're all autistic anyway.
I still wouldn't have signed up as a girl but what do I know I don't even play vidya anymore.
Man, you can taste imaginary cake, that's so dope. The furthest I go when imagining flavours is salivating but I never taste a thing. Time to practice that.
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Off-Topic / Gay Thread
« on: February 24, 2016, 11:47:19 AM »how 2 deal with mmo people hitting on me? pls?Why would you play as a girl...?
I joined up with this free-company (Guild I guess) a few weeks back in FFXIV and it was all good and shit, but the Guild-leader or whatever keeps waving and "courteously bowing" to me in public ;-;
And fucking, I was sitting around our estate the other day, crafting, facing a wall
And after like, fifteen minutes I turned around, and he was sitting there, on the floor, staring at me. I'd just leave the FC, but the estate has too many perks, and I'll most likely still see him around the server and feel the cringe, so egh. Oh god, during Valentine's day, players needed to partner up to do a quest, right? And I just sent a general message out to the guild asking for someone to help out, and within like, five minutes, he was there, wearing a stupid suit, and what was, I'm pretty sure, a fedora.
If I tell him I'm a man I think he'll kick me out, he seems autistic enough to do that. I usually don't even talk to enough people that playing a chick is even an issue, but I guess MMO sperglords will do their thing even when I very clearly avoid talking to them, huh.
What do
And I thought I was autistic.
Nothing left to do man, feel the gay and court him back, you might get a lot more perks then.
Make sure to milk as much stuff from him as you can, so you can say it was worth it.
Don't call it fate though, this is the future you chose...
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Questions and Answers / Questions about the bot's thoughts indepency
« on: February 24, 2016, 11:40:42 AM »Singer's idea is more that you should pay attention to internal experiences instead of species. It'd be pretty counterproductive to say, "Okay, so we'll pay attention to animals but any other class of being is bad a priori" - if the bots are sentient, you need to consider them along with humans and animals.That's the problem. We don't know if the bots are sentient. Do they have a reaction if you reply to them? Are they only programmed to do a single thing? Are they really sentient or is it a mere simulation? And if it is, does it matter? Would it be considered sentient in that case? Are the bots aware that they are being ignored?
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Questions and Answers / Questions about the bot's species
« on: February 23, 2016, 11:39:16 PM »Bots are people too, you speciesist.Speciesist applies to people who discriminate against, exploit and abuse animals, not bots. Bots aren't animals, nor they are people.
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Tulpa Diaries / timethief rescends into hell for a bottle of nothing
« on: February 23, 2016, 11:35:38 PM »
Day 64
Still here and alive, if anyone was wondering. Daily interaction via narration continues.
I haven't active forced though... was busy sorting out issues with aniracetam dosage. Seems like 2000 mg do the trick though. If I am able to wake up early tomorrow I'll shall be using the self-hypnosis script for vivid wonderland stuff. We'll see.
Still here and alive, if anyone was wondering. Daily interaction via narration continues.
I haven't active forced though... was busy sorting out issues with aniracetam dosage. Seems like 2000 mg do the trick though. If I am able to wake up early tomorrow I'll shall be using the self-hypnosis script for vivid wonderland stuff. We'll see.
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Questions and Answers / Bots about the bot's bot indepency
« on: February 23, 2016, 03:44:46 PM »
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Off-Topic / Drug Thread
« on: February 22, 2016, 02:42:21 PM »Huh, only two hours? How much were you taking?400 mg (2xModiodal-brand pills). It's sold over-the-counter here, although it's more expensive than in specialized nootropics' stores.
I found taurine in powder form here.
Edit: never mind they don't ship to Mexico. This maybe.
I tried 200 mg but I barely noticed the effects. Two days of 200 mg and then one of 400 mg. Very subtle kick, if at all, and yeah that crash afterwards.
Thanks for the link to the taurine, I'll check it out.
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Off-Topic / Drug Thread
« on: February 21, 2016, 08:46:23 PM »As far as nootropics go, I've had good experiences with modafinil. Although, I've also had good things from caffeine, so I dunno. Also, the trick is to take theanine along with caffeine to negate some of the side effects, supposedly, I'm not sure if it does in personal experience but others seem to swear by it. Theanine also supposedly reduces anxiety, again, I dunno.Yeah, I tried modafinil before. It does give me a focused mind but lasts for about two or so hours, and then I'll get extremely sleepy. Strange, I have been trying many nootropics but most have been mild at best. Coluracetam was pretty nice though, if one can bear the alcohol/bitter flavor mixture. It wasn't really 'felt', but looking back I was indeed more focused. It's on the expensive side though.
L-theanine & caffeine is one of the most efficient combos from what I've heard as well. I might give it a go.
Taurine seems to do the trick for me somewhat, but I have been unable to find it as a supplement, and it isn't healthy to take two sugary energy drinks per day, so I have been unable to use it continuously.
cat is best drugNo.
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Tulpa Diaries / timethief '62
« on: February 21, 2016, 08:39:58 PM »
Well, as I see it, all experiences count, good or bad. So I can see how some may have been motivated by your PR.
The main failure of most aspiring tulpamancers seems to be the sentience thing. Aside from tulpa, the word sentience must be the second most used in tulpa-related forums. It seems to me now that by stressing out with it, you essentially set up yourself for failure. After all, if you stressed out about sentience from everyone you met, you wouldn't get very far in life. Imagine if someone questioned everything you did. Not very pleasant.
Ultimately, it comes down to knowing what you're doing. You know it's possible, it can be done. You think it can't, it won't. Simple as that.
Was going to reply more, but seeing it may not help anyone at this point I'll pass. Thanks for replying anyway Enny, I hope you find a way in the near future if you're still willing to go for it.
Day 62
Sometimes, all one wants is just go around one's day with your tulpa around as your sidekick. That's what I did today. No forcing, no overcomplicated worries, just both of us doing quotidian activities. Played around with FL Studio again, looks like it went pretty okay. Took some more aniracetam because why not. It did made me sleepy, but afterwards it kind of cleared up and I was focused. Maybe it needs more burn-in time. I'll keep trying.
I also noticed how sometimes I lose track of my tulpa when I'm really engaged on something. I used to worry about such situations, but I have been slowly learning not to. It's natural after all, we may sometimes even forget about physical objects or persons as important as they may be to us, and that's okay. They won't go away because of it. My tulpa won't either. Sixty-two days of being together won't evaporate overnight. I guess for a beginner tulpamancer it may be a valid concern though. Their idea of their tulpa may not be very well cemented, and if they believe that it will happen, well, it will.
I noticed too that I still have those tulpa-forcing pressures. Not a complaint or anything, I even requested them because they're a helpful reminder of my tulpa and I suppose it may be good practice for her to do something like that.
Another thing, is that while so-called "emotional responses" have somewhat subsisted, when they appear they're very uplifting. Progress there I guess. Same with the communication; we're not at stable mindvoice yet, and it varies a lot. Sometimes it even sounds like a male speaking. I understand though, it must take a good amount of trying to get it right. So when we can't communicate clearly it feels strange, but when we can it's very much as if I was talking to someone else. I find myself doing more listening those times instead of "feeling" the words before they're spoken. More patience, narration and interaction are required I suppose. But we will get there.
The main failure of most aspiring tulpamancers seems to be the sentience thing. Aside from tulpa, the word sentience must be the second most used in tulpa-related forums. It seems to me now that by stressing out with it, you essentially set up yourself for failure. After all, if you stressed out about sentience from everyone you met, you wouldn't get very far in life. Imagine if someone questioned everything you did. Not very pleasant.
Ultimately, it comes down to knowing what you're doing. You know it's possible, it can be done. You think it can't, it won't. Simple as that.
Was going to reply more, but seeing it may not help anyone at this point I'll pass. Thanks for replying anyway Enny, I hope you find a way in the near future if you're still willing to go for it.
Day 62
Sometimes, all one wants is just go around one's day with your tulpa around as your sidekick. That's what I did today. No forcing, no overcomplicated worries, just both of us doing quotidian activities. Played around with FL Studio again, looks like it went pretty okay. Took some more aniracetam because why not. It did made me sleepy, but afterwards it kind of cleared up and I was focused. Maybe it needs more burn-in time. I'll keep trying.
I also noticed how sometimes I lose track of my tulpa when I'm really engaged on something. I used to worry about such situations, but I have been slowly learning not to. It's natural after all, we may sometimes even forget about physical objects or persons as important as they may be to us, and that's okay. They won't go away because of it. My tulpa won't either. Sixty-two days of being together won't evaporate overnight. I guess for a beginner tulpamancer it may be a valid concern though. Their idea of their tulpa may not be very well cemented, and if they believe that it will happen, well, it will.
I noticed too that I still have those tulpa-forcing pressures. Not a complaint or anything, I even requested them because they're a helpful reminder of my tulpa and I suppose it may be good practice for her to do something like that.
Another thing, is that while so-called "emotional responses" have somewhat subsisted, when they appear they're very uplifting. Progress there I guess. Same with the communication; we're not at stable mindvoice yet, and it varies a lot. Sometimes it even sounds like a male speaking. I understand though, it must take a good amount of trying to get it right. So when we can't communicate clearly it feels strange, but when we can it's very much as if I was talking to someone else. I find myself doing more listening those times instead of "feeling" the words before they're spoken. More patience, narration and interaction are required I suppose. But we will get there.
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Off-Topic / Flat Thread
« on: February 20, 2016, 05:41:53 PM »I'm using Ableton. In general, I've found it's a bit less heavy than FL on whatever it is I'm using, but that might be different with more recent updates. FL never really clicked with me though, despite fiddling with it for a year or so, but Ableton's just got that kinda workflow I get. Probably because it's more left to right, and with a bit less going on visually. Which is funny since it's often the other way around with FL-users being baffled by Ableton. The ever-going battle between the two, huh.Yeah, the battle never ends. I tried Ableton once. I couldn't do anything with it. Too confusing for me I guess. Whereas with FL I just started doing stuff until it sounded good. And still does.
I can run a good few tracks I guess. Like, forty with light effects I think? But once I get running heavy vst's and start routing from external sources and try kinda live-mixing a guitar that's routed in or whatever it can get a bit slow. I'm mostly making excuses, but eh, the rig could do for more than a few upgrades in general
Also about to fiddle with Reaper, and eventually Cubase for some more Metal stuff.
I don't produce much of anything right now. I super dig just learning about different genres and sound design, but I don't much feel like I've got enough knowledge to do anything major, other than help people track. I'd like to get into funk and discoey stuff, form a duo with my bruh or something. He's a great guitarist, definitely a cut above most, and is equally interested. Just wanna save up and get a hardware synth or two, then we'll go at something. Or at least a good midi controller, probably something from akai.
Oh, so you use it for live purposes? I never bothered with that kind of thing to be honest. I mean, I may do some DJ-like stuff sometimes but usually I don't need any peripherals or anything. I don't even have a MIDI controller. I suppose just about anyone can produce stuff these days even without any skills...
Stop making up excuses Enny, you're holding yourself back with them dammit (reminds me of my old ways). JUST DO IT and #YOLO and all that. Maybe.
Come on, I haven't even watched any tutorials, and yet I went ahead and took a hands-on approach to it. Who cares if it breaks, or if I'm doing it "wrong", I eventually learned on my own and I think I'm pretty decent. I'd imagine you would be even better since you do care about the theoretical part unlike me. If you got someone to bring along in your productions that's pretty dope too. But do it. Do it with what you have now so when you have more you can do even better, instead of always waiting for that moment that may or not come.
Exercising is dumb as shit. Several months back I decided to get /fit/, a least a bit, but it just became more of a hassle as I went on, so I stopped. Then for the last couple months I've been consistently doing calisthenics and other stuff again, and don't intend to stop, but it's cycling between, as an example, "Fuck these pushups are hard" to "Hey I can do these!" To "Fuck I can't even do as many as I could when I started and that was only three" to "I can kinda do some of these again but not as many as that one time" and etc.You know, this seems to closely resemble your experience with tulpamancy somehow at least in my eyes... The whole, "I decided to just do it", then "I stopped". And then, "I restarted and it's okay". And also the whole "YES"/"NOPE" variations in your mood. Maybe you need to look at things a bit differently? Idunno, just a pattern I noticed in you.
Not sure what I should be doing differently. I wonder if it's just my diet or what else it might be. We don't have a whole lot of food, so I might not be eating enough to actually gain muscle-mass, just enough that I'm staying in the middle or something. I suppose I could do to run a bit more, and my damn bike has needed fixing for about half a year. Maybe focus less on muscle in general and worry about cardio for a while, worry about the gains later. More stamina sounds nice. Just sucks living near the residential meth-dens, makes me hate walking around outside.
Advice on exercise, or ideas as to what my issue with shit not getting easier is? It's pretty general stuff. Pushups, sit-ups, planks, various other ups and lifts. I'll do pushups every other day or so, spread several sets of them across the day if doing a bunch at once is too tough, and I'll take a day off of everything in general a couple times a week.
Any advice? Keep at it even if it seems stupid sometimes, try to balance your diet because it does have an effect in your athletic performance, keep a steady schedule and stick to it, and always push yourself a bit further than the previous time, even if it seems hard.
You want to get ripped? Focus on that, research, I suppose that if you could spend some time in these forums, you can spend it reading about how people who have made it got there. Take what you can from them, adapt it to your circumstances, and do DO IT.
Also, since this is the chat thread, I guess I'll say something as well.
I decided to try some nootropics for helping me out with the tulpa experience (focus, mental clarity, etc), and after some reading I went for aniracetam. Wow, what a waste of money. I feel so sleepy; not even melatonin does something like this. Zero focus because I'll end up dozing off. Tried to do the remaining two runs of the visualization exercise I mentioned in my PR, but nope, found myself drifting off to a comfortable sleep very easily. 0/10, feels like if I had taken an anti-nootropic or something. And now I have two 50 g jars that I don't know what to do with them. I tried 750 mg, no effect. I tried 1300 mg, super sleepy mode engaged. I could theoretically push it to 2000 mg, but I don't want to end up in a coma. Though a nice side effect is that I barely feel any anxiety about anything. Yes, even intrusive thoughts stay at bay. Too bad no use because it slows down me and tupper's thinking processes.
Caffeine doesn't cut it anymore. Besides, it seems to make me all jittery. All I wanted was to have an additional focusing kick, not dozing off while improving my visualization skills. >feelsbad.jpg