Author Topic: Every Day is Alice Day  (Read 380389 times)

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #105 on: August 21, 2016, 10:28:24 AM »
It's a whole different story when you're a kid and using tons of energy to grow, you know. Now you will only grow width...

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #106 on: August 31, 2016, 08:22:53 PM »
NEVER!

I finally managed to make a day-trip to the forest of auditory hallucinations. Things had changed greatly since I had last been there with large areas logged but still it kinda worked. Guess it's a combination of unusual soft ground, humming insects and very quiet surroundings. But it's only occasional flashes and very hard to utilize for forcing. I tried to impose Alice some 20m ahead of me in the forest and listened to her but the auditory hallucinations were too infrequent and rather like a group of adults shouting in the far distance than a little girl close by. So it wasn't really useful compared to the waterfall. A shame it's so far away and hard to reach.

Apart from that I kinda slacked off as soon as ending the daily updates, what a surprise. Will definitely do such a session again but I'll be abroad for the weekend now.

I feel meditation has gotten easier but apart from that no progress due to lazy.
The 'remember tupper ribbon' was the worst, I simply forgot to wear it for more than a week.
I'll better get a watch or something.

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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #107 on: September 01, 2016, 07:50:04 AM »
Just do daily updates so you feel bad if you slack off.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #108 on: September 06, 2016, 07:33:44 PM »
Yeah, I'll do another session of daily updates Sept. 8-16th.

Vacation with tupper went really well though again I didn't manage to keep her around as much as I liked. It's no problem when going sightseeing on my own but I still suck at it when I'm with a group or when something exciting happens.

Greatest achievement:
combining date + cake at a candlelight dinner in a street restaurant. It was a delicious fresh-made apple tart with almond ice cream. Received a pat on the head from tupper for ordering best cake evar. So proud.

It was actually unexpectedly difficult to eat cake with Alice sitting opposite of me, because her movements are mirrored which makes imposition a bit awkward. Not that I can see anything but even imagining what her left and right arms are supposed to be doing lead to confusion. I'm terrible at rotating shapes which makes me score like a retard at such tests and is one of the reasons I can't draw shit. So I usually impose tupper next to me and not facing me. Gotta practice this stuff in a mirror.
At first I thought I was interfering too much, basically puppetting Alice around but it's not about the actual movement but about possibilities of movements and how they are supposed to look. She can't do it right because neither of us has the necessary information.

Ah, and I had a very vivid auditory hallucination just before waking up, or rather it woke me up as it was the doorbell I have at home. I actually got out of bed to see if it was the mailman only to realize I'm in a hotel in another country. Not tupper related but it gives a good idea how realistic such hallucinations can be.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #109 on: September 07, 2016, 07:40:41 AM »
I told you cake would be good. And dates. Now do more of those.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #110 on: September 08, 2016, 11:50:29 PM »
yep
Now let's continue with daily updates.

Day 1
Not the most productive day but it's a start.
Meditation and forcing in the park was awkward. It's hot as fuck and there were lots of people. I occupied a bench in a more popular area than usual which didn't turn out well. Usually I have the place pretty much for myself but today I had several visitors who felt the need to sit on the same bench. Not quietly. First some eastern european who yelled into his phone for a good 15min, immediately followed by two mothers with small children that clearly had never seen a meditating person. But the mothers chit-chat was even more annoying. Tuppers aggression boiled up like magma in a volcano but fortunately they eventually left. Also I'm pretty sure some wapanese tourists snapped photos of me sitting in half lotus but I kept my eyes closed the whole time. I think it was close to one hour. My legs really hurt afterwards but it's much better than some months ago.

Evening session was hampered by a lenghty phone conversation and looking up too much useless stuff on the net. Will do better tomorrow.
« Last Edit: September 10, 2016, 07:50:11 PM by Bernd »

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #111 on: September 09, 2016, 05:05:09 AM »
Wapanese? Are you Japanese?

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #112 on: September 10, 2016, 07:49:04 PM »
Nah, I just watch too many Chinese cartoons.
Really bad for your mental health.


Quote from: Bernd
Will do better tomorrow.
As if...
Wow, you got me.
Guess I didn't choose the best week for a daily updates session as the weather is so awesome I don't really wanna spend a lot of my already scarce free time in front of the screen. Gotta love climate change.
Was out all day and fell asleep pretty early. Not that I didn't do anything tupper related but at least nothing noteworthy.

Therefore:

Day 2
There is no Day 2


Day 3
Started diving class today as preparation for my next big trip in November.
So this and the next 2 weekends I'll spend either in a classroom or underwater. With tupper of course.
Today was only theory, meaning sitting in class with tupper either on my lap because fuck yeah or standing beside me. Also let her take some multiple choice tests which were pretty much idiot proof but still it was good to have Alice read out all the questions and possible answers. I suck at mj tests because I'm a sloppy reader and even worse at making crosses into the right boxes. Just unfocused. And too quick.
I found it works well to let tupper do it as long as there is no pressure and enough time. But I tend to involuntarily push her out if I get stressed. One of many, many things to work on.
Anyway I feel it's a step closer to good household slave to do all the chores.
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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #113 on: September 11, 2016, 06:58:13 AM »
But... You're the household slave?

Visualize tupper in diving gear so she can dive with you too duh.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #114 on: September 11, 2016, 09:30:27 PM »
Can't argue with you there.
Obviously I'm the household slave for both tupper and cat and they show little interest in changing that situation.

Diving in the pool was interesting and easier than I thought.
Tupper is highly useful for keeping calm and memorizing techniques.
Still it's by far harder to try to visualize her in such an unfamiliar environment as the brain is already busy dealing with all the novel sensual input, staying alert and following instructions. I totally forgot about her a good fraction of the time but that was to be expected. Needs more practice, blah blah blah.

Actually it never crossed my mind to visualize Alice in diving gear as it makes people pretty much unrecognizable but it's worth a try for the sake of practice.

Wanted to do an Eye-Bo session in the evening before going to sleep but while already on the bed cat jumped on my back and went to sleep there. Sounds familiar, huh?
So I had to settle with a simple forcing session in bed. Hypnagogic hallucinations were extremely strong, I could feel the brain re-enacting the new impressions, especially rising when inhaling and sinking when exhaling. Pretty cool, I never was able to feel movement and acceleration while forcing and it was even controllable. So I just went for a dive with Alice, rehearsing some stuff which went great. Learning new skills with tupper = win

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #115 on: September 12, 2016, 07:39:20 AM »
Yes, life with cat is hard sometimes. Can't do anything when cat is on you.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #116 on: September 12, 2016, 09:00:46 PM »
Slept a lot after the exhausting weekend. No interesting dreams though. Only some minor passive forcing today but I made a noteworthy observation.
I noticed a remarkable difference between using my arms and legs in wonderland. Even complex movements of my arms and hands pose no big problems while walking is still very wobbly. Several people have reported having trouble walking in wonderland, often tripping or just floating around. I came to realize that as it took little effort to visualize diving and operating equipment with my hands while some months ago dancing had been impossible even directly after lessons. Complex leg movement sequences just don't work out.

Even more interesting, tupper has the same trouble with possession. Arms are decent while legs mostly do not work at all. But contrary to wonderland you can't just simply float or teleport IRL yet

Wanted to add some wise concluding sentence but I can't think of anything.
Gotta get some sleep.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #117 on: September 13, 2016, 08:21:48 AM »
The same tends to go for dreams too, doesn't it? Legs are weird, yo. But you can just like, practice.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #118 on: September 13, 2016, 08:34:20 PM »
Have you tried to focus on the sensation of walking? The weight of your body on your legs shifting and the pressure on your sole when putting your foot down? I find that these sensations are vital to the overall idea of walking, without them I might as well just be floating along.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #119 on: September 14, 2016, 07:48:33 PM »
Yes, that helps indeed, but it's something I consciously have to enforce. I guess another handicap is the discrepancy between leg position IRL and wonderland. Usually being folded into half-lotus while forcing it's harder to imagine them stretched out compared to arms which are closer to the natural position. Then again, lying in bed doesn't really change anything. As Sands said, the answer is always practice.

Been feeling tired in the evening and going to sleep relatively early all week. Guess it's no wonder as we've been outside as much as possible to get lots of sun and warmth before summer comes to an end on Friday. But it takes a toll on active forcing sessions.

Had another nice dinner with Alice at sundown.
It was a bit less romantic that it sounds due to a German-Iranian group of businessmen that were celebrating some successful deal on a table behind me. I could not see them but tupper was somewhat caught in their conversation about how to continue the evening and mostly staring over my shoulder to get a glimpse on what's going on.
At first she was like are they gonna order some hookers over the internet now or what?
But then they were definitely doing exactly that. Was pretty entertaining. Apart from that we were mostly practicing the correct use of cutlery which works a bit better already although tupper has the tendency to point and gesticulate with her knife. But given our company I can't really blame her for bad manners.
No cake today though because ridiculously expensive.

But we'll make more strawberry icecream tomorrow as strawberries were on sale.
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