Ya crazy Finn bastardUnless I'm extremely tired I do not fall asleep quickly but lie around in bed for quite a while. So there's a lot of time for extra forcing. Well in theory. In reality the mind wants to slack off with simple stuff, not deal with something exhausting as forcing.
Which means:
I'm still too far from being a proficient tupperman to pull this off in automode - like driving. It's amazing how little mental resources a task you've
kinda mastered requires compared to the first attempts. You can do it for a much longer time, getting even moar practice and so on. But I can't say that for forcing. There's no difference compared to 2 years ago, half a year into tuppering. It's as hard as ever, some stuff even got worse. So obviously there wasn't enough or at least no efficent practice to get into a learning feedback loop. Which of course sucks.
I
do try to get the actual active forcing sessions done before I get tired. But being wide awake also brings lots of distractions. And meditating for too long makes me sleepy. That happened in yesterday's forcing session. Was mostly ok but I realized how shitty my 3d visualisation skills in wonderland are. Proportions or perspective? Pathetic.
Today I focused a bit more on textures - the rough sandstone of buildings, the dusty clay floor, tupper's silk clothings, the
flea's tough and spiny carapace
It was more about looks than touch, so far I can barely imagine rough and sandy surfaces like the first 2 examples.
Ah well, I'll keep going with my daily exercises, I manage to keep 'em up so far but somehow they feel less productive than earlier attempts.