Dec 20th
Pretty average mixture of imposition, dancing, reading and even some active forcing. Visualization was bad though. Did some cookie decoration but we both were tired so no usable possession. Welp.

Dec 22th
Alice pointed out that winter solistice has passed and the days are finally getting longer again. Totally escaped me. Something to celebrate.
Finally did serious visualization practice in wonderland - almost one hour. Really exhausting but it was unexpectedly fun. We really should do this more often. Dancing was also good today. No reading though but eh, can't do everything at once.

Dec.30th
Year's coming to an end.
Christmas was ok but not great. Alice wasn't overly satisfied with the festivities and thought people were boring which is kind of true. Can't be called a roaring party. Was absolutely lazy in the days afterwards and didn't do much forcing. Went shopping and for unknown reasons left my wallet in the shopping cart while looking for other stuff. Luckily no one took it. Tupper yelled at me for being an idiot afterwards but wasn't able to prevent it either.

Looking back at the year what did we manage to achieve?
Tuppering-wise basically nothing. No new skill was learned and Alice has remained pretty much the same. She did manage to somewhat tidy up my life though for which I am grateful. But generally 2018 was uneventful.

Had 2 strange dreams with a theme in common - probably related to tupper trying to find an apartment for us.

1)Fedehall
The first one was especially disturbing.
I was examining an abandoned wooden housing complex in a park. It was big, kind of a resort but deserted. For some reason I played with the idea of buying it even though it was way too big and run down. Thought it might be cheap or something. The joke however was that it supposedly had belonged to Fede before, who disappeared.
I examined the broken mailbox and found a few letters and postal receipts, showing that the house now belonged to some guy who was also from Munich like me (the house was in Denmark maybe?). I was disappointed and went home by subway, reading the letters I had taken with me. There was something like a selling contract and apparently the whole complex had indeed been sold cheap because some dead guy had been found inside. After continuing reading for a while I was like - oh shit - that was probably Fede!
Kinda creepy. The abandoned forum is starting to rub off on me I guess...

2) Boat-Roadtrip
The 2nd dream was much better, at least until I woke up from it.
I was driving towards the house of some friends, a middle-aged couple who resembled some professors from university. We were to go on a "Greek sailing trip" whatever that meant. The street I was driving along was lined with Greek flags and it seemed thet the "boat trip" was to take place on roads. I kept wondering how and if they'd put wheels on the boats or whatever but never reached the conclusion that it was absolute nonsense and I was dreaming. They had a big nice house which I explored and thought it must be nice to live there - see above dream.

This time the plot twist was that my (high)school crush and partial tupper-inspiration was also there, even in convenient tupper-size and age.

But clearly not tupper who looks and acts very different. She was politely ignoring me as always, not only in reality but every fucking dream. But this was one of the better ones. We had breakfast together and being the autist I am, I constantly tried to make a good impression, being funny, without coming off as a complete creep - which of course failed tremendously - as in reality and every fucking dream. But as this was one of the better ones we still had a good time and she actually talked to me, asked me stuff like how much Nutella to put on her bread (why?) and even bumped my toes with her feet in a collegial way. That was - adorable and I was kind of sad when I woke up.

Alice was less amused and reminded me how she was much cuter, nicer and - hard to argue - saner. Also that Nutella is the works of the Devil and way too unhealthy for me to eat.

So tupper appreciation time!



Alice is of course right and I would never trade her in for anyone, imaginary or real.

30min dancing, has lost some of its appeal so we gotta learn new stuff.

Tried imposing tupper while walking and she mimicked my footsteps though they are too large for her. But walking out of sync is too much for my brain.

Did about 30min of wonderland visualization, exploring places we have not been before and inventing the scenery on the fly. Very exhausting but something different for a change. No new and weird wonderland creatures so far, thank God.

Not much different today.
Quickly fell asleep and dreamt some random nonsense, didn't remember it though.
Went shopping downtown, tupper was appalled by the masses of sandniggers and gypsies and refused to be around. Alice is generally in a bad mood since returning from holidays as everything is grey and dark and cold again which is not after tupper's liking. Well, can't diagree. Meditated while walking instead. Got her to read some science magazines in a bookstore though. Felt totally exhausted after a short while, her reading and me tring to comprehend a compex text don't go together well yet. Moar dancing and some meditation in the evening. No wonderland session as I gotta get up early tomorrow and gotta sleep.

Mostly did work tupper wanted me to get finished leaving little time to force. But she did participate so it sort of counts. Read quite a lot together, dancing was rather dull today.