Author Topic: Every Day is Alice Day  (Read 380198 times)

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #420 on: February 14, 2019, 06:00:02 PM »
Valentine's day.



I had planned to make chocolate yesterday night but was so tired I went to sleep early in hope of using most of the day instead. Needless to say I didn't. But meditated for a long time and walked in the sun imposing tupper. We finally started in the evening, making chocolate from raw ingredients proved easier than I thought. Still it ended up too bitter, could have made a better 2nd batch if I had started earlier as planned. But still was a fun activity I had never come up with in the first place without Alice. Also danced for almost an hour. Romantic tupper can be romantic when she wants. If she wants. Rare nowadays, Kami Sama is mostly in fierce monster way because 'nice guys finish last'.
So I'm glad for such moments.
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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #421 on: February 24, 2019, 06:00:05 PM »
Made some progress with possesion and arguably even switching.
Not sure how reproducible it is, there's still enormous variation from day to day.
Gonna step up wonderland stuff for a change now.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #422 on: February 25, 2019, 06:00:02 PM »
Nope, did more posession / switching training outside while walking. At first Alice complained she can't take over while walking and stop me while I just walked straight on as absent-minded as possible which sadly isn't hard for me
Took a few attempts but she managed to stop, ever walk backwards and touch trees like a total retard. Good thing there were no people around. She continued walking slowly for a while before becoming tired of it and faded out again. Overall not bad. I am too curious to stay out of this and constantly intervene trying to find out if / how it feels different when she's in control and what she is doing. I guess I am pretty annoying. Basically the tupper. I always found it sort of weird that the host would turn tupper-like but I guess it's sort of true. I observed and made stupid comments which is usually Alice's job. Hmm, deep stuff...

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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #423 on: March 03, 2019, 05:59:53 PM »
Still not much wonderland work.
But tupper got better at possession and can now reliably cook and shoot. What more could you want?
Did some basic firearms training course and Alice was really good, better than me because more ambitious. Hates failing, did not. Also she spent a considerable amount of time patting the bald instructor on the head and mimicking his movements. Luckily only in imposed version and not via possession. Dont ask me why. I managed not to laugh.

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Re: Tulpa Net is Bernd Net
« Reply #424 on: March 08, 2019, 10:27:21 PM »
This place should really be renamed to Bernd and The Bots' Network.
Looking back at the year what did we manage to achieve?
Tuppering-wise basically nothing.
Basically same.
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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #425 on: March 11, 2019, 06:00:02 PM »
Heh, never thought I'd see you again here!



How about updating your diary instead of in addition to shitposting?
inb4 no relplies ever again like always

We DID make some progress last year, Alice got significantly better at possession / switching and learned how to operate weapons from handguns to heavy autocannons. For real, not wonderland stuff.
She's definitely become stronger and even more fierce, not nearly enough though.
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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #426 on: March 24, 2019, 05:48:39 PM »
Still updating?

What a loser That's some dedication. Glad you and Alice are doing well.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #427 on: March 24, 2019, 06:00:37 PM »
Whoa, you still around?
And I thought no one would ever come back to this place.
I'll continue updating to the very end. That's the path of the true loser.

It's Spring!



Nature is blooming and we started meditating outside again. It's not going very well, focus has deteriorated even more and I catch myself thinking about the most insignificant nonsense while trying to meditate. In contrast, wonderland visualization seems to have improved somewhat even though we did dot train extensively. Therefore one week of daily updates focusing on meditation and wonderland stuff!
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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #428 on: March 24, 2019, 06:10:18 PM »
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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #429 on: March 25, 2019, 06:00:05 PM »
Arigato!

Had a series of weird dreams including a lucid moment but realizing you're dreaming and doing what you want are 2 different things so - very little tupper involvement. She did appear in the non-lucid part telling me what I did was stupid. Very much like IRL. Too realistic to realize it was a dream.
Alice rarely appars in dreams andeven less so has her own. There was one some days ago which was pretty hilarious, switching between me observing her and POV.

But back to forcing. Meditation during the day while walking or waiting really didn't go well. Drifted off to intrusive thoughts and daydreams like I never meditated before. It went better in the evening while laying in bed but nothin I'd call good. Did some minor stuff in wonderland but nothing noteworthy.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #430 on: March 25, 2019, 08:14:31 PM »
The Colonel would say something about flatulence here. Good thing I'm not him.

What did she say was stupid? Was it indeed stupid?

You perform walking meditation like a Zen monk? How is that?

Also, tell Alice we said hi.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #431 on: March 26, 2019, 06:00:03 PM »
Quote from: Sparks
What did she say was stupid? Was it indeed stupid?
Yeah, pretty stupid but the overall dream made no sense whatsoever so I guess it doesn't really count.

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I was in a subway station on the escalator, heading for the train when I noticed I was carrying my AR15. On a 2point sling around the shoulder so the rifle was on my chest. Why did I take this thing with me?
I started to get worried, running around in public with an AR is not the best idea in current times. However people didn't react at all. I kept pondering about this but didn't care much either until at some point tupper burst through in mindvoice - just like IRL yelling at me that we weren't in Texas where you can open-carry semiautomatic rifles for a trip to the supermarket and that acting like this was a serious violation of German gun laws. Told me to turn back and head home immediately before we get into any trouble. To make things even more absurd I was sorta relieved like ah right, that's not allowed anyway so no need to worry about it. Basically I realized that couldn't be happening - but did not become lucid at that point.

I finally ended up in the subway, the rifle was forgotten about and now my main concern was that all stations looked completely unfamiliar and I had no idea where I was. At some point, no idea how, I finally must have realized I was dreaming and tried to turn the girl standing next to me into Alice. She didn't yet she hugged me. Better than nothing I guess!
Tried to impose Alice which must have looked hilarious for other passengers, imagine a tulpamancer talking to and touching their tupper on a subway. Yet as in the previous attempt it didn't work and I saw and felt the same nothing as IRL. Don't you hate it when dreams are only realistic when it comes to tuppering?!

Quote from: Sparks
You perform walking meditation like a Zen monk? How is that?
Well basically you run around trying to think about nothing. It works wherever I have to go. Also I live close to a huge park so I walk there almost every day, observe nature and try to clear my mind. It's still too cold to sit anywhere for longer than a few minutes so walking is the only option.

Today it didn't go well either. Only a little better towards the end. Too many things on my mind.
Wonderland activity was better, Alice brought the giant fleas and we rode around some buildings and through tall grass. Imagine an elephant safari, pretty much that. Only the elephants were brightly copper colored fleas adorned with bells and ribbons and pretty fast for their size.



needless to say this is all Colonel's fault
Ended in intense tupper cuddling so good stuff.

Alice says she's skeptical about bronies who watch other people drool but maybe you can get her to post, she's got her own account here, hasn't used it in years because meh.
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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #432 on: March 26, 2019, 08:03:42 PM »
Hm, I see. That does sound stupid, but at the same time, aw. She was concerned about your dream well-being. Did you ask her about it afterwards? Did she remember saying anything to you, or being aware of the dream itself? I have trouble summoning mine, too, unless they're already there. I have to front-load myself, tell myself that they'll be there before I sleep, or try the same in my dreams if I'm lucid. The "oh, she'll be right around this corner" trick. Sometimes it even works.

Do you walk around with Alice? Holding hands, chatting, etc? Or do you ignore as much as possible, her included. Does she even let herself be ignored?

Those fleas are cute. That's about that for that. I'd ride one into battle. Fuck the Alps, fuck the Roman Republic. And then cuddle tupper after sacking the city.

And she's wise to be cautious. I'll say yes. I'd like to hear your account from her perspective now. Entertain us.

Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #433 on: March 27, 2019, 07:01:04 PM »
Mh, Alice started typing but half way was like fuck it, don't wanna post.
She's been generally unenthusiastic for a while now having lost her initial craving for adventure.
So I guess I'll have to sum it up, maybe she'll post something short in the next days.

You bet she was concerned. She says she often feels like a parent having to keep a dreamy child from running before a truck. Pretty accurate.
Hard to say about who remembers what, our thoughts and memories often mix and the brain is great in forming a coherent story out of dream fragments afterwards. She remembers telling me to go home but didn't realize it was a dream. It was like observing me IRL. Nothing about the lucid part. There's only one dream where we really managed to interact with each other and at least tupper had good control over what was going on, that was awesome. Not for the poor dream characters involved though. Alice invaded their home, ate their food and threw their pets over the fence. I was like wait you can't do that but she insisted this was a dream so you can. Man, one day I need to draw this.

Regarding walking, usually we walk together talking and holding hands but not for meditation. Then her job is just to knock me out of daydreaming, or talking to myself or her. So it's rather her telling me to shut up than the other way round
unthinkable insolence anyway
We did train this tug-of-war style, once Alice is active and worked up I can't ignore or silence her. May take a bit but she can break through. Very proud of that.



It's much harder with possession though, on good days she can stop or override my movements but not consistently. So still lots of work there.

Meditation was a little better today after a bad start again, tupper had to interfere a lot to remind me I was supposed to not think about anything.
Practiced dancing for about 45min, hadn't done that for a while, always fun.
No wonderland stuff until now, will try before going to sleep.
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Re: Every Day is Alice Day
« Reply #434 on: March 28, 2019, 06:00:02 PM »
Fell asleep soon, not even great hypnagogic hallucinations. Did manage to train touching surfaces a bit.

Had another interesting tupper-related dream, neither lucid nor with direct tupper participation though.
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I was on a bus tour in Asia the bus also flew in between or was some sort of cable-car but that's another matter. Very good visuals though. Some family members were there but also people I seemed to know yet no idea who they are, mixture of different persons probably. Also apparently I had been on this tour before because as we went to see some underground temple - which looked more like a coptic church in a cave I insisted we would drive by as the temple was closed. To my surprise the bus stopped and we exited it rather like a tank through a hatch. Exploring the cave I noticed I didn't have my camera and went back but it wasn't in the bus. A young Asian couple I seemed to know said that Alice had the camera. I was relieved it wasn't lost though I wasn't completely convinced that tupper could actually have my camera because tupper is tupper. But as usual I was just dumb enough not to realize it was a dream. Goddamnit!
Anyway, searching Alice I stumbled into a prayer room where lots of monks were meditating and made an awful lot of noise. Everyone looked at me, so embarrassing...
Alice also came through the door, indeed carrying the camera on a strap over her shoulder. Rolling her eyes with the attitude of a teenager being annoyed with her uncool parents before dragging me away.



Sigh, my usual role. Embarrassing parent or annoying child.
Not sure what happened after that, I really need to write this stuff down as soon as I wake up.

Today was rather busy, and meditation was even more awful than usual. Did some wonderland stuff, more is to come now. As I gotta go to sleep early hopefully it'll work better than yesterday.
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