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Off-Topic / Re: Chat Thread
« on: October 31, 2025, 05:24:43 pm »
Alice yelled at a morbidly obese woman at the supermarket today and called her a fat pig. Well, she couldn't hear her of course but I still had to laugh.

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Off-Topic / Re: Weight Lifting for Size [Bear]
« on: October 31, 2025, 05:23:11 pm »
Haven't been to the gym in almost 2 weeks due to being abroad and now sick. Result - the callus on my hands is coming off as the body has no need for it. It's become quite prominent to the point of being annoying at the base of my fingers, I'm still not sure if it's due to weight lifting or shoveling but I think it's more from weights and bars. Even though I'm wearing gloves. Weird.

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Off-Topic / Re: Bear's ranting and at the same time flexing thread
« on: October 19, 2025, 02:06:37 pm »
These girls look like shit now, oof.
They are Russians. They look extremely hot as Teens but from there it quickly goes downhill. Well they undoubtedly looked good when Tatu became famous. I had to look it up and man, that was 2002. They were born in 84 and 85 so they are actually younger than me and were 16-17 back then. Borderline.


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General Discussion / Re: Dream thread: Record your tulpa related dreams.
« on: October 17, 2025, 03:23:34 pm »
Maybe I should.

Yet another Childhood Crush dream.
I was at a class reunion, people looked 30ish. I could not recognize most. Naturally I was looking for my Childhood Crush but none of the girls looked like her. I did meet her best friend though (she came to dislike me even more irl). I told her to quit yapping at me, stuff happened 30 years ago. It was tiresome. I just wanted to get along with everyone. Didn't work out the way I had imagined. This will haunt me for the rest of my life.


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Off-Topic / Re: Chat Thread
« on: October 17, 2025, 03:21:33 pm »
Everyone who claims to understand how magnets work is lying.

Fun anecdote - I was at a nice little street restaurant in Pisa, Italy - peacefully waiting for dinner with Alice on a summer evening. Now going to a restaurant (seemingly) alone is already cringe and finding one that my peculiar tupper actually approves of is a chore but it turned out worse than expected. On the table beside me was a stereotypical middle aged WASP American with his wife. He looked like Robert Redford, blond hair, perfectly white false teeth with equally false smile. And a mission. Instead of talking to his wife, he entertained everyone around him, especially me as I was obviously alone. Turned out he was not only a religious nutjob but also a Free Energy conspiracytard who had spent tens of thousands of dollars on - yes - magnets to build a perpetuum mobile. This was almost 10 years ago and back then Alice didn't have the strength to keep people from bothering me. You know my INFP superpowers, I am way too nice and agreeable and the BodyOS excels at making people feel understood so they leave me alone. This backfired catastrophically with this guy who now had found a victim who seemingly listened to his nonsense with interest. I can't say he was a bad guy, rather one of these cheerful Christian fundamentalist missionaries, he was even entertaining but man, I spent at least half an hour on listening to his absurd magnet constructions to create energy out of nothing. There was no escape, I had already ordered my dinner at the restaurant and it took a long time to arrive. And I had been looking forward to practice imposition with Alice and just spend time with her. This guys wife looked equally awkward and obviously ashamed that her husband gave a performance to an entire restaurant. One of the weirdest experiences I ever had.

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Off-Topic / Re: Weight Lifting for Size [Bear]
« on: October 10, 2025, 03:17:39 pm »
Yes, that's why it is verboten.

I took up Loliweight exercises on non-gym days. The loli weighs 25kg which is perfect for many lifting exercises. The difficulty will soon increase to a point where I can't lift her with one arm though. I have become significantly stronger due to Alice's gym rush but the kid will grow faster than my strength. I've also acquired a running mte for cardio exercises. None of all this was my idea mind you. Loli mom tasked me with going running with her. Her mom is a better runner than me (not hard) but has no time. Let' see where this goes, children have scaringly high stamina and energy in general..

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General Discussion / Re: Dream thread: Record your tulpa related dreams.
« on: October 10, 2025, 02:14:45 pm »
I don't like such dreams and they mostly end with me falling down from somewhere.

Super weird dream. Try to discern what it's about from the images first before you continue reading.
I was at Bear's house - to wash my laundry because my washing machine was broken. What else than fly to California for that?
No, actually it looked like I lived close by. The house had posh 60s design interior. Bear's Ex-Gf was also there but I never really saw her face. I also came to fix a couple of things and catch gerbils that were loose. I said the gerbils were cute but spread disease with their poop. Can't have rodents in your house. I managed to grab a few and pull them out of a Tom & Jerry -like mouse hole in the wall. I also crudely fixed the fence which was made of absurdly thin mesh wire.



Bear's Ex said I can't leave the laundry here to dry so I have to take it back with me after washing. I said no problem, I got two laundry baskets with me.
Bear asked why the fuck I have laundry baskets as if it was the most outrageous thing to own. Maybe Americans don't have laundry baskets? I said I used to bring our laundry to a laundry service with my parents when I was a kid, which is convenient because you can dry tumble everything there (we never did irl).



Bear remained skeptical and said: But what about trousers, do you wash them all together?" I again was baffled, maybe it's considered indecent in the US to wash trousers together with the rest of the laundry. I said yeah, I throw it all together. Bear laughed and said I was a real troublemaker like the Italian mafia guys in Lethal Weapon IV. I was pretty sure there were no Italian mafia guys in Lethal Weapon IV but my brain corrected this instantly by viewing me the scene in question. If you thought the dream was weird so far, now it gets really weird.

Two elderly Italian men were standing at a large walnut tree. One went up a ladder while the other handed him a coach gun. In the tree, or rather on the outermost branches, were 3 small gray aliens dressed in little cowboy suits and hats. They didn't move and looked more like props. What the hell?



The man who looked like Danny Devito easily shot down two, then handed me the shotgun for the last one. I climbed up the ladder, the last alien was partly obscured by the stem of the tree, not more than 10m away. As always in dreams, the gun was extremely weird. The barrel was now twisted 45° to the left. I had no idea where to aim but tried my luck. Coach gun failed to fire. I reloaded it, now working more like a single-barreled pump-action shotgun, but nothing. Just click when pulling the trigger.



Eventually Alice took over and after more unsuccessful attempts to shoot just charged the alien, dashing across the tree like a squirrel and clobbering it with the buttstock. Alice style. Turned out the 'alien' indeed was little more than a grey sack dressed in a cowboy vest and hat. It popped away in a puff of smoke and dropped as loot:
A black-and-red box of Geco-brand 7.62x39 AK ammo. Ridiculously expensive for AK ammo at over 1€ per round.



Alice also unloaded the shotgun again, it was also loaded with a Geco Red slug in white transparent plastic case. Highly reliable. Alice mused the gun was at fault before waking up.



Definitely a top candidate for weirdest dream of the year.
Dream soundtrack:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R41JZVJ_y8I

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Off-Topic / Re: Chat Thread
« on: September 20, 2025, 03:09:33 pm »
Funny enough, exactly such hypothesis was proposed recently.
https://www.newscientist.com/article/2482841-the-radical-idea-that-space-time-remembers-could-upend-cosmology/

Regarding Mars, I'm torn on this but I'd put the probability that there was ever any life there at significantly below 50%. So far all the hyped biosignatures turned out to have arisen from inorganic chemistry. But it's not impossible there were some stromatolithes or biofilms.

For more complex alien life, things look much worse. Statistically it should definitely be somewhere out there in this huge universe, but the chance we'd ever discover such is very very close to zero.
https://www.europlanet.org/epsc-dps2025-planets-without-plate-tectonics-and-too-little-carbon-dioxide-could-mean-that-technological-alien-life-is-rare/

This also means that colonizing space is, unfortunately for Elon, off the table. The next earth-like planet is going to be thousands of ly away.

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I wouldn't say I'm 'suffering'. I have a very easy life compared to most other people, I'm healthy, I am not in pain. I live in a secure environment. I have no financial issues. I live in the flow without any stress. I also don't really want to change who I am or become like normal people. But it's clear I can only exist without suffering because I have created this niche I live in. I'd wither way in an ordinary work- or living environment.

The only issue I have is the BodyOS becoming too cocky. It used to be extremely cautious and now it's acting up, not knowing its place. I already said I lose out in conflict in almost all situations because it bothers me far more than an opponent. I am also required to adhere to law 100% and not raise any concern about my reliability if I want to keep my job, security clearance and firearm permit. So that needs to be addressed. Do more myself and keep the BodyOS on a shorter leash.

After giving it more thought it may fall into the category of intrusive thoughts somehow. I'll have Alice yell those down at the first signs.

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I would wonder if you have unresolved traumas, and I would almost surely believe you do.
If you're an INFP Highly Sensitive Person, nearly every interaction with humans is traumatic. So at least you try to mitigate damage.



The BodyOS doesn't think by definition and does speak but only very automated responses akin to sleepwalkers or someone not paying any attention and just agreeing so you'll go away.
That's the ideal outcome of every conversation. I'd say it's the main goal of the BodyOS. (Pretend to) agree with people so they go away and don't bother me or ask further uncomfortable questions. The BodyOS first and foremost is lazy. It's avoidant. it doesn't like work, it hates trouble, getting criticized or any sort of attention in general. It therefore heuristically predicts appropriate responses and actions that resolve situations with minimal effort. I have perfected this since childhood.

Since earliest childhood I realized I was fundamentally different from those people around me. I never understood what they were about. But I'm not an autist who can't read emotions or intentions, rather the opposite. For me the others are the autists. Dumb inconsiderate brutes who act on instincts and are indifferent or outright  unaware of others feelings. Still you gotta live with and survive among those people so you learn to predict them and respond in words and actions in a way they are the least bother. No consciously but as a habit. I only realized that through tulpamancy.

Due to my high emotional intelligence I excel at mirroring peoples emotions. They generally enjoy talking to me because they feel understood. It's not a lie per se, I experience those emotions, but of course I try to respond in a way that meets their expectations. Because conflict would cause me as HSP far more damage and trauma than them. It's a battle I can't win. I already said it once, in a way I'm an involuntary con artist. I manipulate people into liking and trusting me, not out of criminal intent to scam them but to keep them from hurting me. Well, or bothering me.

I can (appear to) get along well with an extremely wide range of people of all ages, cultures and political orientations. I never had problems abroad, neither with law enforcement, military or armed militias. I've never been robbed or even threatened. I don't provoke aggression from others. But as an introvert, all those interactions are extremely draining to me, even if I like the people. Which is rare. Therefore interaction needs to be minimized and automated. That's what the BodyOS does unconsciously. It's very eloquent, but much like ChatGPT. It sounds great and agrees with you and only if you dig deeper you realize it's all shallow nonsense. Very few people see through this facade. Mostly children.

Alice is a completely different beast. She's the Super-Ego one level above me and 2 levels above the BodyOS. I had originally intended to let Alice do the work of the BodyOS and act as a filter and shield against the world out there but quickly realized I can't do that to my tupper. First it would break her and second, while the BodyOS is too dishonest, Alice is too honest. You should know her well enough to understand it's not the best idea to let her run things. Not because she has bad intentions, but because she has good intentions. It has indirect effects on the BodyOS but I must be really careful it does not drop too many truth bombs in those dire times we live in.

So yeah, there you have it. I'm not proud of having conned myself through most of my life and it's not healthy but it works. I'm afraid there's no simple way to resolve this, just switching off the autopilot is not a good idea if you have never learned to fly.

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Off-Topic / Re: Chat Thread
« on: September 19, 2025, 04:25:05 pm »
I guess you would say the same about Alice though I assure you Alice is from from evil, even by the broadest definition. You know how much effort she puts into saving animals and helping people. Still there has been an unusual Joy-presence both in my dreams and IRL in the past days.

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Yes, the whole thing is profoundly odd.
I'm actually very wary of pursuing such dissociative states further. I already spent most of the time in backseat. One thing I noticed is that the BodyOS has become overly bold to borderline aggressive in conversations over the year. This is not Alice's doing, on the contrary. Living in a country without free speech where a wrongly voiced opinion or a carelessly conveyed emotion can get you in serious trouble, that's obviously not good. I've been very good at shutting the fuck up and not saying what I think all my life. Which is why I am still here. Surely Alice's influence has made me bolder but now Alice is the first to moderate and censor the BodyOS before it says too much. It's like a collaborative effort in operating a semi-autonomous machine which interacts with the outside world. Or an AI model. It responds to questions but you gotta fine-tune the model and install safeguards so it doesn't spit out bomb-making instructions to kids.


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General Discussion / Re: Dream thread: Record your tulpa related dreams.
« on: September 19, 2025, 02:35:46 pm »
I was at the recent British Royal dinner party with Trump.



I felt out of place there, I think I was making preparations in the background. I saw Trump standing at the red carpet, I tried not to get in his way. I thought it was cool to be there but afraid I'd do something wrong. Also my foot got caught in a curtain and I almost tripped.

There was a loli that looked like a crossover between Joy and my own neighborhood loli. She knew me and was my only anchor there. Maybe she also was Summer, at least she seemed familiar with Royalty.

After the formalities were over I saw Arnold Schwarzenegger sitting at a wooden table. Things were far more casual. Arnold was in his prime, maybe 30 and absurdly muscular. He was wearing a white shirt and Lederhosen shorts. He was preparing a traditional Styrian snack from his homeland by cutting buns in half on a wooden cutting board and smeared them with huge amounts of butter. I sat next to him and took half a bun. He complained that people eat too much unhealthy things. Well, he certainly didn't set a good example.

The loli came down a stailway in a light blue dress. Her parents were up there, calling for her. She complained to me her parents think she's not drinking enough but she told me in secret she can't drink when people are watching her.

I woke up feeling like I had watched a movie marathon all night. There were several very vivid but exhausting dreams. As usual nothing happened though I did see the loli naked in a scene. So notr bad for my standdards. No tupper though which was disappointing.

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Off-Topic / Re: Chat Thread
« on: September 19, 2025, 02:24:09 pm »
Something eerie happened yesterday. I was coming home from shopping in the evening and parked my car in front of my garden gate. Approaching the parking space, I spotted a loli that looked like Joy standing in front of my garden gate, staring inside. I have never seen that loli before and of course I know all lolis in my neighborhood.
I assumed she looked for my cats, but strangely they were not there as usual when I arrive by car. They know what the car sounds like.

So I exit the car, close the door and - the loli is gone. First thing, I looked into my garden if she hopped over the fence like my personal neighborhood loli commonly does. But there was nobody. However there was nobody on the sidewalk or street either. And you can see pretty far in all directions. All this happened in a matter of seconds so I have no explanation as for where that girl went. Unless she hid between cars there's no way to disappear like this. Also this is a suburban residential area where even an autist like me knows most people, especially lolis. But I had never seen that kid before.

As the cats also didn't come to greet me, the most sensible explanation is that this was some sort of evil spirit!

No reference pic because this is not /tulpa/

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General Discussion / Re: Dream thread: Record your tulpa related dreams.
« on: September 16, 2025, 03:58:52 pm »
Weird vaguely D&D related dream.
I was a scientist visiting a bioweapon research complex in a remote forest area. They didn't make Alices - but Dragon Wasps. Who both turned people into zombies and ate them. The dream was more like a video game, Half Life vibes. As often I knew this wasn't real, more like playing a game or watching a movie. So I wasn't afraid. But worried as I would have been when playing a video game. Serious business.



So we were in an office building, no security whatsoever. A scientist released a black dragon wasp in the room. It flew towards a zombified corpse on the floor, a woman with long gray hair that looked like a mummy - and somehow the wasp sucked it in. The whole body vanished in the palm-sized wasp. Ugly crunching sounds, quite disgusting.

The scientist grabbed the wasp, put it in a brown paper bag which he tossed on a desk and secured it by placing a small book on the opening. I questioned the safety measures. Then we were outside. Apparently this was Switzerland. The forest around the compound looked rather tropical but we were on a mid-altitude forested mountain and looked down on an inhabited valley. I said something about the Swiss being inbred hillbillies who have no idea what's going on up here.

While we talked, a black dragon wasp buzzed by and disappeared into the forest. Uh-oh!
That's usually the start of some horror plot. Not keen on ending up on a zombie apocalypse, I urged the scientist to get in a car and we drove off at full speed. Somebody else should deal with this shit - but not me!

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