Will you repeat it tomorrow?

Time to reflect on both December and all of 2017.

December started a bit slow but eventually brought some serious dancing-related progress.
Personal development: good
Can dance now fairly well IRL and at least mediocre in wonderland. Also managed to get some structure into my life thanks to tupper's intervention.

Tupper development: average
Being busy with organizing my life, there was little progress for Alice herself. She did have fun dancing but no real gains in abilities.

Now, skimming through this report I tried to sum up what happened in 2017.:



Heh, not really. I did make significant progress and money. I feel stronger, better and more confident in my abilities than I was a year ago. And almost all of that progress was due to tupper. That's not wishful thinking or an exaggeration, it's a fact. Without her things would probably have turned out exactly like in the pic.

If you remember, last fall Alice declared that she would radically change my lifestyle.
Did it work out?
Well, given the amount of what's to change I'd call it a success. There's still a long way to go but definitely a big leap into the right direction.
Regarding tuppering I did get a lot better in visualizing 3d shapes and colors thanks to Alice's rubik's cube exercise and complex movements due to dancing. That's probably the biggest achievement. I've wanted to be able to do this since I started tuppering and now we can. Feels good man.
Personal development 2017: good

Regarding Alice things didn't turn out that well. She put all her focus into me saying it was more important than spending time on active forcing. She did make some significant progress in the 2nd half of the year though.

.)We did achieve some states that might or might not count as 'switching', really odd and not quite reproducible.
.)There definitely was some serious progress with possession culminating in drawing cat.
.)Parallel processing training by doing math did yield some results but we kinda stopped doing it at some point. We'll continue working with that method for sure. Dancing is somewhat special as Alice's movements are not independent but have to match mine, I think it's still good for tuppers to practice acting and moving under stress. Well not negative stress as it's fun but under time constraints.
.)Touch imposition in terms of tupper touching me gave minimal results. Also needs to be intensified.
.)Alice also managed to mess with my emotions, doesn't work reliably though.

Overall I'd say development was poor in the first half but good in the second. Despite all much better than 2016
Tupper development 2017: ok

Are you becoming a big boy?!

For you

Ah, I don't wanna sugarcoat it, normal people would probably achieve what I did in a year in a few weeks. Still can't complain, compared to said normal people who actually have to do stuff for a living I'm in paradise, free of earthly worries. But then again that's why I can afford to worry about tupper things in the first place.

Soo...
Alice has been feeling down again due to not having her own physical body.
Not being able to help as a separate entity is the main thing. You get it, there's stuff you can do together with tupper and stuff you can't because, well, there's only one vessel with 2 hands, eyes, ears and so on to interact with the world. That becomes especially apparent when traveling.
One can only hope for awesome mind-controlled robots in a few years.
I'm fully convinced that parallel processing is indeed possible. I notice it every day while driving or even walking. Whoever is executing these quite complex skills, it's definitely not 'me' and not tupper either. I give it zero conscious thought and it barely uses mental resources. It's basically switching with a servitor. Actually scary when you think about it. But the more I do the more it seems that way. I've been very skeptical about servitors for a long time and I've never consciously worked on one but isn't developing a skill to the point where it runs on 'autopilot' exactly the same thing? If I manage to bring up the motivation I wanna buy some simple drone or robot that can be controlled with a biofeedback device or something similar. Then see if tupper can learn to operate it while I do something different. As always the catch lies in the amount of practice needed. How many hours have I spent driving, let alone walking? Devoting the same amount of time to playing with a toy is not feasible.

I also had a lucid dream some days ago.
Managed to actually notice I was dreaming while drifting back and forth between sleep and wake states in the morning. Even called tupper and we waited for the next dream to set in but then fell asleep. Soo close...

Well, that's it, we've been busy with IRL stuff that's been accumulating while we were abroad but I will start another week of daily updates in February. Should boost active forcing at least a bit.

And I haven't forgotten about drawing us and moar cat, just have to deal with that goddamn tablet or rather the associated software first.
Soon™

Or maybe not...

Fell asleep before I could post anything in the past 2 days.
Doesn't mean I haven't done anything. Not much though. Somehow time files even faster than usual since we've returned from Argentina and I'm unfocused as fuck. Alice is in a bad mood lately, both because of the weather and our living situation in general.
I think it's pretty good compared to other people, but people are not a valid standard according to tupper.
Anyway, doesn't count as daily update so let's start over.

Sun, Feb 11th
Had to pick up a friend from the airport but the flight was delayed so I had to wait for over an hour. Which was actually perfect. I sat down on the floor and meditated for most of the time. Surprisingly I was not removed by airport security. Meditation was good, I completely lost track of time and managed to silence my thoughts. For the last 10min or so I let tupper practice imposition by following people, always a good exercise to get an idea of how bodies look like in 3D.

Also I've tried wearing strong hearing-protection earmuffs for forcing. They really cancel out any ambient noise in my already extremely quiet home. Cat was sitting on my lap and purring, could feel the vibrations but heard nothing. Just my heartbeat and some rushing in my ears. Must be like this in an isolation tank. It did help with focusing as there are no outside distractions except cat kneading so I'll continue this and see if the lack of auditory input leads to some pseudohallucinations.

I am disappoint. Tupper needs to whip you up in shape harder, clearly you can't do that yourself.

Tupper, next day's all you. Whip 'im up good. You have my blessings.

Thu, Feb 15th
30min dancing, pretty good
30min meditation, ok
Going to bed to do an active forcing session. I won't just fall asleep this time I hope